it is crazy what love will do to you.
how, once you fall in, your stuck so deep.
how, no matter what happens to you, even if it is the worst thing, you can't be done.
even if your friends all hate you for going back.
how can i let myself feel like this.
how can i keep going back knowing it'll only get worse.
and never be the same.
i've tried to be done.
so many times.
i look at the bruises, knowing its the only option.
and that we can never go back to before.
but once they fade away.
and all i have left is photos and old text messages.
and when i see you.
i cant help but see the good.
i hate myself.
for not being able to stay away.
for making it more difficult for both of us.
for caring.
and even though.
my future relationships will forever be in jeopardy.
i can not blame you.
i could never.
i could never not wish you the best.
how could love be this cruel.