I am free. So much time walking around in a fog, just going along with what was expected of me. I made myself out to be something that I wasn't and it was suffocating. But I couldn't even see who I really was becasue of how much I had pushed down and ignored.
You keep showing up in my dreams. Your face is blurry but I know its you. And each time you appear, I cling to you and say something along the lines of "I'm so sorry" or "I've missed you so much". And you're either surprised or angry with me. And you have every right to. I left you before we could really see if our feelings were more than just platonic. But we're both at fault right? Always going back and forth, the classic "Will they, Won't they". Maybe that's why you still haunt my dreams, my feelings for you still lingering in my mind.
It has been years since we spoke but I still think of you everyday. Now it's too late to put into words how I felt and how scared I was to let myself be with you. Both of us felt this huge pull towards each other but I kept running away, thinking we'd have time. I didn't want our friendship to change and I wasn't ready for the next step. And now that you're gone, all I'm left with is the guilt of not taking a chance for once in my life. This guilt is also twisted with feelings of betrayal when I think about the last time I saw you. I was vulnerable and you took advantage of that. I still feel the way your hands slid across my body and how you pressed yourself on top of me and I couldn't do anything to stop you. 4 years later I am still struggling with this yet I would give anything to see you again
You know what sucks? Being good friends with the person you love. Its heartbreaking to know that you'll never be able to hold his hand or kiss him. And what is more frustrating is when after 6 months of not being together, he tells you that he has feelings for you.... that he's always had feelings for you but didn't realize it. And of course when he asks you on a date you say yes.... two days later he tells you that maybe we shouldn't be a thing.
Dear Haters, Yes, I know how many imperfections I have, you don't have to remind me. Every morning I get up and think to my self, "Why are people friends with my ugly self?". The only reason i "look" pretty at school is because I put so much make up on and I let people think I only put on a little. And it drives me crazy when you say that I can never achieve my hopes and dreams. Sometimes I want to believe everything bad people say about me, that I can't achieve my hopes and dreams. But, then again, I don't want to give you the satisfaction of me beliving you. You don't know what my life is like. Yes I have a good family that treats me right and gives me what I need, and sometimes what I want, but only on occasion. You think that just beacuse I dress nice that instantly makes me a rich girl. But I'm not. I am who I am and you're not going to stop me from being me, even if that means acting like a dork at least I'm being a true person who cares about others. Maybe, just maybe, we could be friends, if both of us put down our walls of insecurity and get along. sincerly, Me *****ALL MINE
Emily: *looks at pile of frosted cookies* They look like balls Me: Yup. I frosted them all last night Emily: Wait, you frosted all those balls? *eats one of the cookies* Those are soft balls I love you cousin
Mom: GET OFF THAT STUPID WITTY WHATEVER THINGY! Me: *to witty profiles homepage* Its okay she didn't mean it. I love you, and so does everyone else on this cite. She doesn't understand you like I do. MOM GO AWAY IM REASERCHING SOCIAL MEDIA CITES!
Me: I like him SOOO much! My brain: You don't even know him! Does he even know who you are? A relationship thas forced can never blossom the way you imagined it would therefor you and him will never work out. end of story My heart: Start it out as freinds, then see where it goes. Say "Hi, my name is Isabella. Your (insert name here) right?" Don't let him slip through your fingers before he finds someone else. Just try
How I met My best friend Jen: It was the first day of 6th grade and I was new to the school district. I had 2 freinds that I knew from before I started going to school with them. I was sitting by myself waiting for my 2 friends when, a short, bubbly girl with curly blond hair came up to me and asked, " Hi! My name is Jennifer,whats yours?!". and of course I said " Hi! my name is Izzy!" she asked me if I had any one to sit with and her face fell a little when I said that I had friends on the way. But then she said "I know! I'll get my friends to come over here so I can sit with you!" so for the next 3 years we sat at that same table or closeish to that table We've been freinds ever since. <3
I really want to got to this one party, and im not that kind of kid who goes to parties but this is a cast party for the musical I was just in. I REALLY NEED TO GO! It's tonight and if I can't go the HE won't ever know how much I like him. I tried convincing my mom but she still said no so im going to try again one last time. wish me luck, witty!