-Northwestern senior high
-adore football season
-uhm pretty straight forward
-easy way to get to kow me?
read the quotes i write.
it explains alot<3
theres always that someone who makes you smile. who makes you cry. tears you apart an builds you back together. the sad part is it always happens to be the same person<3
its going to be nights like tonight that i miss you the most. the nights i have something important to me going on & youre not there. the nights i search the crowd trying to find you then realize you wont be found. the nights im as happy as ever& want to share my joys with you, you wont be there. Dad, ive realized you wont be here anymore& thats alot to take. i realized tonight as i went to my LAST cheerleading Spaghetti dinner to start up the events leading into my SENIOR year and you werent there neither was mom. YOU are the one person who supported me through EVERYTHING even if you didnt agree with or like it. & i really realized that tonight when noone was there. i wish you weren't gone,Daddy iloveyou!
Daddy, its been two weeks since you left me. i love you more then anything. i would do whatever it took to have one more day, and hour a minuete with you. Just so i could say "goodbye, i love you<3" but i didnt and wont ever get that. there was NO warning signs that anything was wrong, it was a regular day... you were supposed to go to the dentist and come home not go to the dentist and have a heart spasm and die. dad you're supposed to be here with me. i need you a little more then god does, im still only seventeen, theres so much left in my life for you.
lets start the count. its been two weeks since i spoke to you. after all the things you've done to me all the pain you put me through. the "iloveyou's" "ihateyou's" & "i cant do this" funny. happy. sad. times i wont forget no, not one of them. they replay in my head daily. your kisses so tender, hugs so comforting. days i didnt want you to leave others i couldn't wait to be away from you with everything we've been through in 2years i can finally say. IM DONE. so far gone to the point where you can't hurt me anymore(: &&i couldnt be more proud of myself.
sometimes i cave. i find myself falling into old routines. coming home. going straight to the bathroom ridding myself of the days "toxins" then to my room. grabbing my ipod ridding myself of the days "pains" && i find myself crying along the way </3
him: i'm sorry. you really do mean alot to me, but i can't leave britany. i dont understand why i do this to her. seh doesnt deserve this. she loves me. an i love her. me: i understand that. she doesnt deserve it? does that mean i do?oh i mean alot to you? it doesnt seem like it. teh way you toy me around? is it some kind of joke? if you loved her you wouldnt have been kissing me all day, told me you were leaving her and tried sleeping with. im sorry but thats not love. him: no, you dont either. Thats why you deserve someone SO much better then me. actualy conversation between me and this guy i was talking to.
the best part of my day when i'm *trying* to ignore you then you walk up to me and wrap your arms around me and you kiss my cheek like a retardd(: in front of all your friends on the basketball team! ahh baby<3[:
yesterday at school... walking down the hall alex- did anyone ever tell you that you'er the most beautiful girl in the world. me- no, but you just did[: alex- awh(: and your eyes. there oh my god. me-awh why's that. alex- i don't know. just the way you look at me..... it gets me hard. me- **starts laughing** AAALLEEEXX!! i can't believe you just said that. alex- what i'm just kidding(: then the ball rand:/
is this too mean? im not happy with my boy. so i think im going to put all his things in a christmas bag along witth his present an be like " im sorry, but i cant do this anymore?" is that meann? Format by Sandrasaurus