& who would have thought that i might actually fall in love with you, but i did. i never thought we would be together for this long, i never thought we might fall in love so fast, i never thought we might wanna get married one day, and i certainly never thought it would hurt this much everytime we fight. if you only knew how much i truly love you, you would see that i am willing to always work things out, because i say i dont wanna get hurt, the worst thing in the world to me would be losing you, the love of my life! although, sometimes i feel like maybe youre falling out of love with me, it kills me inside, im still very much in love with you, and ill be in love with you forever and ever. i honestly did mean it when i said i want to be with you forever! you really are the only person in this world i would ever want to be with in this life, i could try my hardest to picture myself with someone else, its not going to happen. all those times i said i want you to be happy, even if that means im out of your lifes plan, i meant it. i couldnt be happy if youre not happy! i want whats best for you, even if that means i dont get whats best for me. i just need you to be happy. i dont wanna keep playing your games because its driving me crazy, im dying inside. i need to know do you still want to be with me? i need your honest to God truth, no friends opinions or family, i need to know whats really on your mind, because if im wasting my time then i just need to move on. i need to try my hardest to be happy, and right now, im miserable, constantly waiting for those words i want to break up, i just need to know. do you still feel the way you once did about me? i sure hope so, i dont want to be heart broken, but i need the truth! :(
**sorry, just venting, ive been crying for hours and i needed to get this off of my chest. also, if anyone wants to talk, PLEASE!!!!!!!!