he convinced me to go out with him. told me that he loved me.
i believed him.
i fell in love with him.
we went on camp.
i found a new friend. i told her i was afraid of loosing him.
she told me that he only wanted me for my body.
i told him i didntwant to lose him.
he told me he loved me and that he wouldnteven think of leaving me.
he broke up with me the next day.
said we should just be friends.
i accepted that. he said he still liked me but that it was better this way.
i cried. i never cry but this broke me. i was in physical pain.
i worried that he liked my new friend.
she said not to worry, that even if he liked her, she wouldntdo anything with him
she said she didntlike him.
he said he didntlike her.
i was later found out that she liked him.
on the last night of camp they were sitting next to eachother.
he had his arm around her
she rested her head on his shoulder
then they were looking into eachotherseyes
he had the expression on his face that he used to get wen he wanted to kiss me
i can only guess that he wanted to kiss her
probably would have if there was no one else around
then she left to go back to sydeny.
they were both crying so hard and had to be pulled away from eachother.
we were going back to melba few hours later.
they both betrayed me
they abused my trust
he was my bestfriend
then my first boyfriend
he was the first to break me
she was the first to hurt me
i still cant believe it happened
i dontthink i will trust again
on the positive side, i now have experience and even though i am still hurting i know it will pass and, even if i have to go through this again and again with diff guys, i will one day find my 'prince charming' or 'knight in shinnigarmor'
so will you guys.
be happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!