SOME TIMES I SIT AND THINK ABOUT EVERY MEMORY YOU AND I MADE. WETHER THE’RE GOOD OR BAD, THEY JUST KEEP FLASHING BACK. MY FAVORITE ONE WAS WHEN WE KISSED FRESHMAN YEAR. MY LEAST WOULD BE WHEN YOU TOLD ME OFF IN GYM. SOME PART OF ME KNEW THAT YOU AND I WERENT GOING TO LAST FOREVER BUT ANOTHER PART OF ME KEPT HOLDING ON. HOLDING ONTO SOMETHING THAT WAS SO BAD FOR ME BUT I KNEW SOMETHING BETWEEN US JUS T CLICKED. ITS HARD SOMETIMES, TO JUST SEE YOU AND FEEL THIS FEELING. I DON’T KNOW IF ITS ANGER OR HAPPINESS OR A MIX OF BOTH. WHAT YOU DID TO ME WAS WRONG IS SO MANY WAYS BUT SOME HOW SOME WAY I STILL LOVED YOU. I LOVED YOU. IT WASN’T CLEAR TO ME WHY I LOVED YOU AT THE TIME BUT NOW IM KINDA REALIZEING WHY. MAYBE IT WAS THE WAY YOU UNDERSTOOD ME. MAYBE IT WAS THE WAY YOU HUGGED ME. MAYBE IT WAS THE FACT YOU WERE UNPRECTIABLE. UNPRECTIABLE, YEA I GUESS IT WAS THAT. I MEAN PARTS OF ME HATED THE FACT THAT I NEVER KNEW WHAT YOU WOULD DO. WETHER IT WAS TELL ME OFF AGAIN OR FINALLY TELL YOUR FRIENDS ABOUT US. THAT’S ONE THING I WILL NEVER GET, WHY YOU COULDN’T TELL YOUR FRIENDS ABOUT ME. IT WASN’T A BIG DEAL , I MEAN IT WASN’T LIKE WE WOULD GET MARRIED OR SOMETHING. IT WASN’T SERIOUS. YOU KEPT TELLING ME HOW I WAS “EMBARSSING”. WHAT DID THAT MEAN? HOW WAS I? THAT WAS SOMETHING YOU NEVER COULD TELL ME OR ATLEAST EXPLAIN TO ME. I DON’T THINK YOU KNEW HOW MUCH IT ATE ME UP, IT WAS DESTROYING ME MORE THEN YOU WERE. EVERYDAY I FELT LIKE I HAD TO DRESS TO IMPRESS OR BE LIKE THE “POPULARS” JUST SO YOU WOULDN’T BE AS EMBARSSED. IT WAS MAKING ME TIRED, MAKING ME GIVE UP LITTLE BY LITTLE. I GUESS YOU COULD SAY I WAS DYING INSIDE. WAKING UP EVERYDAY WITH THIS GULIT INSIDE, THE GULIT OF HAVING YOU BUT NOT BEING ABLE TO ACTUALY HAVING YOU. ITS COMPLICATED. ITS STUPID. ITS STUPID HOW YOU AND I JUST COULDN’T BE TOGETHER, IT WAS STUPID HOW YOU AND I WERE SO DAMN COMPLICATED WHEN WE COULD HAVE BEEN SO SIMPLE. YOU WERE THE PROBLEM, NOW THAT I REALIZE IT. YOU WERE THE BAD GUY IN A SUPERMAN MOVIE. IN THIS CASE I WAS THE VICTUM AND THERE WAS NO SUPERMAN. I FELT LIKE I WAS TRAPPED.YOU HAD SOME KIND OF SPELL ON ME. YOU HAD COMPLETE CONTROL OVER ME AND I HATED IT. I HATED HOW YOU HAD AN AFFECT ON ME. I WAS A PUPPET. A TOY THAT YOU CONTROLED. SOMETHING YOU PLAYED AROUND WITH ON A DAILY BAICS. I NEVER REALIZED IT TILL NOW. THE THING IS NOW ITS TO LATE. TO LATE TO RUN AWAY, TO LATE TO LEAVE, TO LATE TO FORGET EVERYTHING,I WISH I COULD THOUGH…………………
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