Today was pretty much my last day of school, and I don't think it's fully hit me yet. I've been tearing for the last few weeks, and I welled up in assembly, but that's it. I guess it's because the majority of the people, I'll see a few more times, because of exams and revision sessions, and other little things that will be happening before prom, and I think that's when it will hit me. When everyone is at prom, saying goodbye, and I'm sat at home because I decided not to go.
I'm honestly having second thoughts, but now it's too late. Mint. My mentor asked me the other day if I'd changed my mind, because she changed hers and decided to buy a ticket, but I can't. The prom is in 1 month, and there's no way I could get everything in that amount of time. I actually wished she'd have changed her mind sooner, because then I probably would have gone, and probably sat with her all night, making jokes and talking like we always do.
I don't actually see her as a teacher, I never have. We have the kind of relationship that involves her pulling faces at me whenever I see her, and forcing me to attend revision and then laughing at my misery because she knows I respect her too much to say no. She's extremely annoying, but I swear she's so much like me it's unreal. Practically everyone has said that when I'm her age, I'll be exactly like her and some people have even said we look alike.. I don't consider that a bad thing though, because I think she's actually amazing. She's pretty much the only reason this year has been bearable and she has helped me so much. I'm actually going to miss her. Which sounds so sad considering she's a teacher, but she's actually a teacher that I don't mind being stuck with, because whenever we meet, all we do is sit and talk.
I talk to her how I talk to my sister, so I guess she's actually more like a sister than a teacher. She looks after me, talks to me, gives me hugs and gives me a kick up the backside when I need it. I never thought I'd ever get that close to a teacher.. I honestly thought that every teacher hated me, and had totally given up, and that was it.
I guess I was wrong.
Love from, me. xo