Im having one of those days where i just want to lay in bed with you. Not doing anything. Just laying there, in your arms, feeling your heart beat, and your breath on my neck. While you lookat me like its the first time youve ever seen me. I just want to be next to you right now...
i wanna get out of here. i wanna be free to do what i want and be who i am instead of just doing what everyone else tells me to do or being what everyone else thinks i should be. i wanna get out of this place where all i am is a constant bother to people and an intolerable pain to everyone else. I'm tired of being a disappointment to everyone in my life.
Forcing myself to be happy just so I dont hurt anyone else... I seem to be doing a whole lot of that lately! I dont know what to do anymore. Its just easier to keep everyone else happy than to allow myself to be happy, especially when I dont feel like i deserve to be happy.
You know that girl at school The one that is friends with everyone? The one whos always smiling and laughing with her best friends? The girl who always seems so happy? Well shes dying on the inside. She cries herself to sleep almost every night. And all she wants is someone to see how broken she is, s omeone to wipe away the tears and stop all the pain. I know this, because I am that girl.