i know i act like i don't care at all, but i care so much more than you think
you think that i feel my life is so much better without you, but it's so much worse.
it took me until now to realize you were the only one who believed in me,
who loved me for who i am, and under no circumstances ever left my side.
you were my best friend and i hate myself for just ripping myself away
when the whole time the best thing for me to do was stay.
and every time i look over, and see you with your head down,
it kills me inside to know that i afflicted that pain onto you.
to know that i did such a terrible, terrible thing makes me want to kill myself
wish that i could go back and change it but i cant.
and now my life sucks because i pushed you out of it,
my bestfriend
i'm so sorry,
i'd do anything to make things right again.
if you're reading this, you know who you are.
and even if you don't want to forgive me,
just know that i DO care. and i DON'T hate you.
you did NOTHING wrong. it was all MY fault.
and you're the greatest friend i've EVER had.