those moments; where every time you see him. You're heart stops for a second, just to make sure you're alive. Or when, holding his hand makes you feel safer. Or his smile makes your face light up. When you realize his happiness is more important to you than your own. When you're with him, and you just want to kiss him a million times over. When the feeling of his arms, not being around you keeps you up at night. When his voice is the only thing that can put you to sleep. When the kisses you share are just like the ones you've always dreamed of. When you're holding hands on a walk, and you feel like you're in a movie. When you can't stop smiling because you're with him. When you laugh uncontrollably, because he knows just how to make you do that. When you start to love yourself, because you know he does, and that's the only opinion that matters to you anymore. When his likes become yours and your dislikes become his. When he sits with you on the phone for hours, not saying a single word,because he loves hearing you talk. When he stays up all night with you, even though he completely exhausted. When you can't stop thinking about him. Or talking about him. When you could go on and on and on, about how much he loves fishing, and hunting, or how good he is with kids. those moments that make you realize you've fallen those moments that make you realize, you're going to be caught.. ♥----------♥----------♥
all my life I've never had anyone, be mean to me. no scratch that, I've never had anyone be truthful with me. I've never had anyone tell me what they really thought about me. I mean yeah, I've had people call me names, and tell me they think I'm a b*tch, but really what does that do? nothing really. I'm really not a nice person, in fact I'm a huge b*tch, and I've finally realized this- thanks to one person, on witty. and if he sees this, he'll know who he is. Throughout our entire friendship, I thought that I was the worlds best friend, that I was always there for him, and I always made him laugh, but come to find out, I was completely wrong. I was never there for him, I was always there to make sure he was there for me. I didn't help him with anything. I didn't do anything for him. and that makes me feel terrible because that kid meant everything to me. so if you see this- I really am sorry. and I don't expect you to be my friend again, and I hope things get better for you. and I didn't use names for a reason because I wasn't sure if people would b*tch you out, and you don't need that. I'm sorry for everything. and thank you for making me realize that I need to change.♥
///////////-ixn lxixfxe you'll learn that there are a lot of people that .you can't trust. && when you find out who these people are don't be mad be glad that you know exactly who not to trust with your secrets.
I wish; that i could blame everyone else for what's wrong with me. I wish I could blame society for cutting myself. I wish I could blame my stepdad for my ocd. I wish I could blame my parents for my dependancy issues. I wish I could blame guys for why I'm depressed. I wish I could blame my real dad for my anger issues. I wish I could blame all the skinny people for why I don't eat. I wish I could just throw all my problems onto other people and say "you caused this, so fix it!" but I can't. because it's not really their fault. it's mine. I let this happen to myself. we all blame society for the way we act, and yes they do have some impact. but the truth is, it's really our own fault. Society isn't my worst enemy. I'm my own worst enemy. and I created these monsters, so now I must destroy them myself.
My friends always ask me "Why don't you see how pretty you are?" my response is always the same " I dont know, I just don't." b u t. t h a t ' s. a. l i e . the real reason I don't think I'm pretty Is 'cause he doesn't. ♥
we talk from the moment we wake up, to the moment we go to sleep. I know his life story, and he knows mine. we know the best and worst things about each other, and we still stick around. We don't go a day without saying "I love you". We have cute pet names from each other like "hun, babe, sweetie, &ballgoof(inside joke)." When I'm cold he tells me he wants to cuddle. He tells me I look pretty even when I wear sweats, a t-shirt, my hair up&my glasses, even though I know he's lying. When I'm mad at him, he doesn't even argue he just says "I'm so sorry. I love you <3". For my 16th birthday he's taking me sky diving because he knows I've always wanted to go. He loves how nerdy&loserish I am. I can tell him anything, even horrible things and he never gets mad, just upset. He's there for me more than my own family. I love him, I love our relationship. But he isn't my boyfriend...he's just my bestfriend.