You guys can read this if you want I really don't care but for those who do read, thank you.
First of all I want to say that I never actually thought that I would have to fake a smile. I always thought it was pretty stupid how people would always post things about faking a smile when I have to do it now. And for that I am sorry. Witty is sadly the only place where I can vent and I feel really lonely about having to admit that to myself. It just proves how people are so untrustworthy these days and it's sad. I can't go to my friends because I can never be sure who is a real friend. My parents are out because they are the ones that are causing me to feel bad about myself. They literally always tell me that I will never make it in life because I'm such a witch and that I'm always mean. I'm only mean if I have to be. If they really knew who I was, then maybe they wouldn't say those things, but I just can't trust them enough to tell them about it. They always say that nobody will ever want to date me and be with me because I'm so antisocial. Yes I am very antisocial, but I'm a 14 year old girl. What else do you expect? I also don't want to be with anybody from where I'm from because there is really no one worth the time.
I have never been add suicidal as much as I have been lately. This bullying has been going on for months now and I'm sick and tired of it. I know that I won't commit suicide because I'm too chicken but I really want to. I'm just so done with the world it's not even funny. If you read my last quote about how people say I'm beautiful and then turn around and start to make fun of your body, that's my dad that does it. And it's sad because it's my family that makes fun of me too. Not just people at school, but at home. That's why I'm up in my room all day long from the moment I get home from school. I don't want to deal with them. My mother literally asked me today if she needed to get me a therapist to talk to about my problems. And she didn't just laugh afterwards. She was being legit. So now here I am, in my room venting to you guys because I trust you more than anybody else. You guys aren't judging me based on my looks, you're judging me based on what I post. And I thank you for that. I trust you guys, complete strangers, more than a therapist whom I think would just tell my mother all the things I just told them that are supposed to be secret. And for those of you who actually read this, thank you. Leave a comment, good or bad(it's not like I don't get them everyday), or don't. Just thank you for listening
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