so i have this major crush and i really want to just tell him. he might move and i want to tell him before he goes but im aftaid how he'd act about it and monday is that last day of school. eventhough he lives down the street we still dont hang out outside of school and i really just want to come clean. i dont know what to do. but i kinda feel stupid thinking he'd like me back, just alittle but i know thats not that case and i really need advice but i cant explain this to any of my friends they just listen and tell me ot get over him but i really i honestly try but i just cant, but i guess im making a big deal out of nothing ill just forget him. but i know he cares about me since he constantly asking me personal questions but i just cant seem to open up to him i have this thick wall when i meet new people and i dont want them to not like me so i just dont talk and i try so hard to be myself but it ends up coming out like im trying to hard but im just trying to be who i really am. uhhh i dont kno i just want me and him to be really close friends not a couple but just friends and he'd be someone i cant go to when im in trouble and someone who listens. i guess i want too much form him.
this really sucks, the guy i like asked me about my scars and i couldnt answer him. i dont want him to be disappointed in me and look at me differently i dont what to do anymore i need advice about this.
am i being led on? cuz "someone" plays with my hair, always has their arm around me, always asks me about my day, always has to be touching me in some way, smiles at me in the hallway, rubs my face. lol it was weird and you older than mebut......im so being led.:((
And if you're listening, I miss you And if you hear me now, I need you Where did you go 'Cause you're not gone Everyone knows that something's wrong The wires were cut and I'm alone I know we're getting closer I know you're coming back for me this time This time And do you ever want me, do you ever need me I know that you left before goodbye And it's okay, there's always another day And anytime you want me, anytime you see me I don't think you meant to say goodbye But it's okay, there's always another day
to anyone who reads this or anyone whi cares. but i wish i were dead and nothing can really change im blnit about to commit suicide im too afraid everyone will hate me if i do so im stuck normally someone can just say something like "think about it you dont really wanna die" but honestly im done thinking i just really need an escape from everyone and everything like i have no energy to do anything i cant even cut if i wanted to i dont have the energy to kill myself and i feel like an attention w***e but what about me. lately i really feel unwanted like peopel stop talkig tor in the middle of a conversation ti talk to someone else Nd this really sucks but i wish someone wrote a song about me or dedicated something they made to me but no one cares anf hate me fro saying this but sometimes want to hurt everyone so people would give me attention for being a crazy killer or something and then i can rot in jail but at least ill know that once in my life all the attention was on me. i dont know people can be so mean and im guilty of hurting people but i cant help it. once youre hurt so many times you cant help but hurt other people too. im so dumb and no on reads these really long " qoutes" but if you do im not about to kill myself today but maybe in the near future and i just wanted to sat hey im here and i have feeling and that i was attention and someone who care all the time but anyway no one will ever know this im done with trying to meet new people on here that may can help me ill just suffer alone like always. deep breaths and no hope for tommorrow, oh well...
im having mixed feelings like my arm i hate seeing scars on it and i wish they werent there but on the other hand looking at them make me feel like i have a story an that ive been through some hard times and ive lived through it but i don't know, i need advice im confused.
i hate this this empty feeling sucks i just i meant sonething like i change peoples minds i wish i were just happy even on my birthday im not happy and i wish sometimes someone would just think about me and my feelings i feel so unwanted and lonely something igo out of my way to make other people happy and they dont even realize and i wish someone would do the same for me and here and now im drenched in tear and snot gross and no one can here me cry but i dont want to be selfish but i want to have everything ive ever wanted to happened to me and i might be content but i cant the explain the emptiness that it is causing me to cry but i wish someone anyone would just never stop trying and bother me until i listen then maybe i would feel like someone cared
is it bad that i miss you? is it bad that i cant stop thinking about all your jokes? is it bad that i kinda want you to break into my house at night and stop me crying myself to sleep? is it bad that i wanna tell you almost everything but im afraid to worry you? is it bad that i miss you?