Depressions taking over. I'm done being depressed. I'm gonna overcome it. I'm gonna stomp all over it. I'm gonna smile because I deserve too. I haven't been truly happy in forever. And I'm sick of it. It's time for me to be happy. So peace depression. You're no longer in my life.
Every cut a little bit deeper Barely hurting anymore Her wrist numb Asking herself why she deserves this Finally letting them all get to her Thinking theres only one way out, Suicide, People don't understand why she does this. Well, its society's fault. All the names they called her, fat, ugly, disgusting. Because she isn't thier idea of "perfect". As she starves herself becoming smaller and smaller Until shes a size zero. Because she isn't "perfect", Face caked in make-up, She looks in the mirror, Finally "perfect". Steal this and you won't have a face..!
Well I have this bestfriend, her names Lindsay<3 Shes beautiful, and amazing. And no one could ever replace her. Shes always there for me no matter what. She listens when I cry. She doesn't always answer my texts but thats okay.(: Lolol. She understands me. She knows everything there is to know. She would be there for me, if I was in jail. She'd be the one to bail me out.<3 I love her more than my life. Yeah, this probably sounds lesbianish. I don't care. Shes my bestfriend and I'd die without her. She lives 300 miles away though..): love you bestfriend.<33
Confession When I was around 7, after my brother died, I started to become a hoarder.... I cleaned my room, for the first time last March...... I found stuff I've haven't seen in years. My room has been clean since.<3 Most of the stuff was my brothers, I felt like I was loosing every part of him, when I was cleaning my room. It was a very emotianal time for me then.):
*VENTING* Dear Dad, I miss you so much! I am sorry. I wish I could make you proud.<3 I do try my hardest. Member all the good times we have, when you get back we will have some more. All my friends love you! There not even scared of your foot.(: "Charish, The pizza is not done!" "Me dad I know!" Textes me "Charish I have to tell you something" "what?" " the pizza is not done(:" Then yells to me "Charish" "what dad! I know the pizza is not done!" "actually the pizza is done"(: I miss you picking on me.): I miss everything about you. This 5 months have been the hardest! Not being able to see your face, its just not cool. I hate it. You are an amazing father. Regardless of were you are.<3 You really are though. You member that time you found me out walking the streets at like 3 in the morning. I wanna thank you for yelling at me like you did. I haven't done anything bad since.<333 I hope your proud. I hope you get to watch me grow up. I hope you quit doing that stuff. I hope you find new friends. i'm trying to keep my grades up, the best I can, its hard though. All the teachers try and help, but I can't get it! I try hard though, just for you. I just miss you.<3 and love you.<3 Love you Daddy!<333 -Your babygirl(:
THINGS I HATE 1. When girls are like this is "our" song to another girl. And I hate it even more when the have a song that means nothing to them, like the song "shots" by lmfao. and they don't even drink? WTFFFFFFFF!