I need little reminders that I matter. I get lonely easily. I find meaning in the small things.
People are more important to me than I am to them. I need hugs. I need "I love you's" I need
proof that you care. I forgive in a heartbeat. I apologize even faster. I constantly wonder
who would miss me if I left. I need people to understand me, or at least to try. Sometimes
I try to hard. I need people to love me. I need to know it. I don't cry over things people do
I cry over what they don't do. I'm crushed daily by the things people don't say. I'd never
show this though. I hate people to see me cry. I act confident. I hold in my feelings. Maybe
I'm more fragile than I let on. Its because my heart is so easily broken. I hate not knowing
what to say. I hate it when nobody knows what to say to me. I see through empty words. The
constant contradiction kills me, why can't I ever be right? When I try to be strong I realize how
weak I really am. I do everything I can and I'm sick of trying. Sick of putting on a happy face.
I put myself through to much. I put up with abuse. Because it's become routine? Or because
it's an easy lie to believe? I hate being ignored and misunderstood. I take them both personally.
It makes me feel, just bad. I always need somebody to talk to, and somebody who actually wants
to listen. I do care what people think about me. Hearing somebody say something good about me
makes a world of difference. Seeing happy families makes me want to cry. I wish I could fix mine.
What I hate is how hard I try, and how much I cry. What I hate is how pathetic I feel. What I hate is
how I care so much. I wish I could be strong, and that nothing could hurt me. No, actually I don't care
if I get hurt, I just wish I could find a way not to show it, so everyone would think I was strong, even
if I do have to suffer. I'm sick of caring so much more about others than they care about me. I think
something must be wrong with me. I wish somebody would tell me what I'm doing wrong, so I could
change. Yes, I am willing to change myself for others. I love myself but I love other people more.
Some say that's unhealthy, some say it's pathetic. Very few understand. I wish I could change.
I don't care
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I need you to care.
Sundance_Kidz