Idk who needs to hear this but...if you’re thinking about giving up, remember in 2 years you could be marrying someone you haven’t met yet. In 2 years you could have a job at a company you haven’t heard of that makes you happy. In 2 years you could be on your way to buying a home you never thought you could afford. In 2 seconds could be happy again. In 20 years you could be watching your kids growing up. But you’ll never know unless you get there. If you want to give up don’t. Take a nap. Gather yourself and remember it’s a bad time not a bad life, you’ll get through this.
Here I am, checking in, again. I dont know what to say but I know I just want someone to talk to. I don't know how to be alone, when its just me and my thoughts I feel so empty. I feel so defeated and so lost. I don't know how to live inside my own head all the time, theres no way. I cant sit in silence, its absolute agony. I just need someone I can talk to someone I can turn to, someone I can hold onto. Each day I get further and further away and each time its harder and harder to come back. I really just need something, anything to hold onto.