i can't begi n to tell you
How much i want to leave this chaotic place i call "home"
How much i wish my "friends "
wern't
judgemental, two faced, backstabbers.
I wish i had someone to talk to,
a shoulder to cry on. Because i've learned that a lot of people arn't who they say they are
i would give anything
for him to fall for me
like i fell for him.
i just wish he would hold me close when i'm cold
wipe away my tears when i'm sad,
randomly come and give me hugs,
let me fall asleep in his arms,
and tell me he thought i was beautiful.
i just want to be able to look in the mirror and be proud of the girl staring back at me
instead of fighting back the tears everytime i look at her .
I wish i would smile.
a REAL smile,
not that fake one,
I wish i could laugh, a REAL laugh,
not that forced one
i'm so ashamed of wh o i am,
i wish i was confident.
I wish i didn't have to fake the person i really am.
Because to be quite honest
im terrified of whats supposed to happen next in this crazy game of life.