Tonight as a cry myself asleep again...
I wonder what your doing, why you dont stay up late anymore why. I. Broke your
heart...why I broke up with the most amazing guy that could've been amazing. If you still think I'm the love of your life or if you love me. Cause I
sure love you...
Tonight as I pull up my sheets over my head....
I wonder if you do too, if you can...to get some privacy, hospitals suck, they
smell weird too, I wonder if you text Jill and joke around with her, if you can. I wonder if it makes you mad that you can't go to NDCL this year, how you have to be stuck at some other school, I wonder if you miss seeing all of us like we
miss seeing you. I wonder if you'll be alright. If I'll ever see you again.ever.
Tonight as I turn over in bed not being able to sleep..
I think about the future, I think about you. I wonder if your serious you want
to be with me. I wonder if you really loved me why you'd want to date other
girls. I think about our hopes and dreams...how yours are completely different
then mine, how it'll work. I'm in love with you now and hope I always be, unless
my mind changes, which it won't...right?
Tonight as I think about my mistakes...
I think about us..our friendship. What happened to it, what I screwed up. I
wonder if you think about me, or ever miss me. How we use to talk about
everything and anything. How we'd always have a good time together. How I swore
I'd never tell anybody, and I did....how we act like everything's fine, when
it's not. How we try to make it work...when it doesn't reallly.
Tonight as I think about Pittsburgh.
Starting all over. I think how great it will all be. No one will have to know
anything. Any of my mistakes, they can't judge me, for what they don't know.
What they won't know, never will know.
Tonight I think I think about starting over...it feels great.