StandingTall

Status: Starving

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Hey guys, if you ever need somebody to talk to, I'm here for you. â�¤
Demi Lovato. Seventeen years old.
Get to know me â��
Starving until I'm good enough.

StandingTall
posted a quote
August 8, 2013 7:38pm UTC

The key to true
h a p p i n e s s
is letting go of everything that is
w e i g h i n g
you down.

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StandingTall
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August 3, 2013 10:11pm UTC

I got a car :)

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StandingTall
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August 2, 2013 9:29pm UTC

Now I feel even more worthless than I already am. Thankyou. I just want to die. Goodbye everyone.

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StandingTall
posted a quote
August 2, 2013 9:22pm UTC

Does anybody want a fasting buddy ?

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StandingTall
posted a quote
August 2, 2013 9:14pm UTC

I'm bored in my room,
staring at the wall.
I do my hair,
cake on some make-up,
put on a tight shirt
& short shorts.
I take a picture,
all for a man who doesn't notice.

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StandingTall
posted a quote
April 18, 2013 8:52pm UTC

I'm fat .

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StandingTall
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April 14, 2013 9:31pm UTC

They think I only want attention.
♥ ♦ ♧
They think "Oh she's not eating again."

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StandingTall
posted a quote
April 14, 2013 9:29pm UTC

Everyday's the same;
Waking up and thinking, "tonight is going to be the night. Tonight I'll finally be free. Tonight I won't be dreading the morning."
Everyday goes the same,
Waking up extra early to drown yourself in makeup, covering your flaws.
Leaving the house in a long sleeve even on the hottest summer days. Everyone thinking your "weird," in reality, you have to hide the scars.
Don't forget the sweatpants in 80 degree weather, have to hide the legs.
Then going through the day, everyone seems to be looking at you,laughing at how pathetic you are.
Trying to read their minds. Checking youself out, making sure they can't see the cuts.
Being dizzy all through third period.
Wondering who you'll sit with at lunch,
Watching people eat fries, and fried chicken, without a care in the world.
Finally making it home, doing homework and exercising.
Everynight ending in tears,
Everyday ending the same.
Wishing you had someone.
Anyone.

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StandingTall
posted a quote
April 14, 2013 9:17pm UTC

Just know it's killing me inside..

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StandingTall
posted a quote
April 13, 2013 6:13pm UTC

Pain.
Thats all I want. I want to punish myself for all the things I failed to become.

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StandingTall
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April 13, 2013 6:10pm UTC

My friends all think I only want attention.
They. don't. know. how. bad. it. hurts.

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StandingTall
posted a quote
February 23, 2013 9:42pm UTC

I wish I could talk to Demi Lovato. -__- Has anyone ever tried to contact her in any way and been successful?! HELP.

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StandingTall
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February 23, 2013 9:18pm UTC

Crying while listening to Demi Lovato. Casual Saturday night.
I'll be rising from the ground like a skyscraper. ღ†
like a skyscraper.

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StandingTall
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February 21, 2013 10:44am UTC

Everyday I wake up, I'm hungry. I think "I can do this, just dont eat. One more day. Your stronger than this." So I don't eat. It's painful, and messes up my focus on many things: school, sports, attitude. It makes me dizzy all the time. It makes me have constant stomach pains. It makes me yell, stream, and lash out cruel words to the people I love the most. And lastly, it made me lose all my friends. I'd isolate myself on Friday nights. Stay alone. Me and the computer. I lost pretty much all my friends, except for a few. I feel like nobody cares about me. I went from 146 pounds to 124 in 5 weeks. It was bad. But hey, nobody said a word except the occational "have you lost a little weight? You look good." Well I had, but nobody seemed to care that I was starving myself. I was eating 700 or 800 calories a day and going to practice after school. Then I got in a big fight with my boyfriend and began to binge. Now I'm back up to 140 pounds and I feel disguiting. I want that 124 to read on the scale again. I promise I'll be happy with it, because before I still thought "It's not good enough. Your huge, loose MORE." But now looking at the 140 on the scale I pretty much die inside. And the worst thing is I don't care what happens. Starting today I'm going to live on nothing but water, and gum; oh, and coffee and green tea. I know this is horrible. I know all of the consequences. I know it all. But that worst part is: I just don't care. I have good grades, I know that I'll have to struggle to keep them. I do sports: I know I'll risk passingout. But when I do passout and end up in the hospital, maybe someone will care. Maybe my friends will come back, and realize I didn't just want attention. Maybe people will realize I can't do this on my own. ღ

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StandingTall
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February 16, 2013 1:31pm UTC

When people say, "starving yourself doesn't work" really, because I don't remember seeing anyone who starves themselves being fat.
>> Sighh.

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StandingTall
posted a quote
February 10, 2013 9:27pm UTC

Now people are scaring me. Will I actually end up in the hospital if I don't eat?
>>>;P

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StandingTall
posted a quote
February 10, 2013 9:10pm UTC

I can't help it.
I feel so fat and disguisting.
I wish I only wanted attention.

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StandingTall
posted a quote
February 10, 2013 10:45am UTC

Guys, I'm starting this today..
WISH ME LUCK. lol.
<<:(