I love music.
I have been hurt.
I have self-harmed.
I have been aneraxic.
I love turtles.
I wanna take risks and get my heart beating faster than it's ever beat before.
I am scared.
Of lots of things.
I have lost and been lost.
I love to write.
I love to draw.
I love my guitar.
Pointless things are my kinda thing.
I am a contradiction
Deep things are my kinda thing.
I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all.
I'm learning to let the little things make me happy.
Try it sometime.
I get attached way too easily.
i get hurt way too fast.
(If anyone ever wants to talk, I'm here. You can always come and talk to me. I'll try to help and listen.)
so... I'm not sure what to do... I've got two guys here... One doesn't know i like him and the other broke my heart... I know im getting feelings back for the one who broke my heart but if i dont try now, i might not ever get a chance at the other one... ugh what should i do?
Snuff posted a quote
September 3, 2012 12:52pm EDT
I haven't wrote in a while maybe thats cause i've found my smile this one day, i found my soul and now my heart really knows that i can let little things make me happy and live my life young, wild and free -sandra
ok... this is not ok... you can't just go and say i look good when im trying soooooo hard to be over you and i was pretty sure i was and it makes it really hard to like this other guy when you say something like that... why?! ugh i cannot like you again... im over you... well im suposed to be... gosh
The Nightmares are coming back. This morning I woke up out of breath like I'd been running and my muscles were tense and my blankets were tangled around me. There was a scream caught in my throat and my heart wasn't beating. Or maybe it was. But in my mind it stopped cold.
I don't know who I am I don't know where I've been I don't know where I ran I don't know what to believe in You know my darkest secrets You know my silly lies You know every regret Behind every butterfly These days are crumbling together Or maybe they're just falling apart The world screams through the weather Or maybe it's just my heart -Sandra
I kinda like how... Every night without you, another memory comes back and I can relive it again. And even as I cry myself to sleep every night, those memories stay with me. They play out in my bittersweet dreams. Maybe they're nightmares. But I love the feel either way. And just before I fall asleep, the words, "I love you" break the darkness.
As I sink to the bottom of the ocean All these doors closin I'm losing all of my mind Wasting at the end of time Lost in every goodbye we don't have this right But its to late, I'm sinking Just because he's been thinking That the end is close Because we're sinking this boat -sandra
I dont wanna come out of the water, I don't want to come up for air I wanna scream, I wanna rip out my hair Lay on the ocean floor Let the sand soak into my pores Let the rocks scrape against my thighs As lightning ignites the sky -sandra