They tell me that I'm an average weight which is a good thing , I don't want to be an "average" weight , I want to be skinny . I want to be able to see my hip bones , I want smaller things , I don't want love handles a fat or as their calling "average" .
They tell me they love my hair , they say it's pretty and easy to style , It's not easy to style . The only reason it's easy for those people to style my hair is because they have really expensive straighteners or curlers , etc. I can't afford those products that are expensive so I barely do anything to my hair because it ends up looking aweful .
They tell me they wish they had my skin because there's " never " any acne , yea there's not , but in the summer or when there's alot of heat , and I'm always outside and swimming in like chlorine , I have acne and I use so many products to keep in under control .
They tell me they wish they had my clothes or style , if they knew that barely any of my clothes were name brand , would they still want my clothes ?
They tell me they want my life because there's " never " any drama , yea that's funny in 7th grade ALL my friends turned on me because of ONE girl .Everyone wanted to fight me and wanted me dead , I hadn't self harmed for about a month and a half , everyone told me they wanted me dead or wished I didn't exist , I started cutting again ..alot . and I had tried suicide for the first time .
They tell me I'm an attention wh*re because I have cut and attempted suicide . No I'm Not an attention wh*re . Yes I told people . I told 2 people that I trusted , we got into an argument and they told people . I didn't show off my cuts , sorry you may have seen them when it was 90 degrees so I wasn't wearing a hoodie or long sleeves to cover it and didn't have enough bracelts . So sorry if that makes me an attention wh*re.
I've over come all that ... well practically .
Sorry for writing all this I needed to vent , even tho there is no longer a vent category .
Brandi Lynn*