heeeeey guys! My name is shannay but my friends call me Shay or NayNay
15 years young ;)
My music is my life and keeps my preoccupied and if you know me you will always see me with earphone in my ears.
My Family is my Support system
My Friends are my Partners in crime
Music is my counselor!
I love my friends dearly. Taylor, Dani, Becky, Brooke && Bee without these girl i wouldnt be alive today.
They are my world and i love them to bits!
Don't live life with any regrets because life is too short!
16.6.07 - The worst day of my life! The day i lost my brother. I love him and miss him so much!
Okay Witty i need you help! My school is having our year 10 formal at the end of the year but the thing is we need to fundraise. But here is the catch, our principle wont let us fundraise in school. So please can you guys give me and the committee some ideas for fundraising. Please we really need your help!
3 years ago: The first time i started cutting. By the end of the year i had 11 scars covering my leg 2 years ago: I continued cutting but this time deeper. By the end of the year i had 21 scars covering my thighs. Last year: I continued cutting but this time being hospitalized for them. By the end of the year i had 82 scars on my wrist This year: I am still cutting but i am now carving words into my body. I am sporting over 110 scars on my body. To all those who think cutting is going to help them with their problems or they just want to start cutting, please dont! It becomes an addicting which has no cure. If i could go back i wish i had never done it because now my body looks even more horrible than it usually is. Please dont cut, you are too beautiful to have to wear those kind of scars.
Okay so lately i have been starving myself. I nevr used to and i never used to care about what people thought of me or what people would say about my body weight. But i dont know lately i have just been getting sick and tired of it. So i started to starve myself and it worked. I have lost weight and i love it. Before just a few hours ago i hadnt eaten in a few days but then i ate something today and i couldnt stand it so i went and threw it up. I always swore to myself that i would never do that but now i can't seem to stop. Please, can somebody help me. I don't know what to do.
She sits there broken not moving just breathing watching the liquid flow down her canvas. "Why?" she asks to no one "Why does everything have to be so hard?" Watching the liquid splash onto the floor forming a puddle Sitting broken on her chair she wonders what life would be like if she didnt have the life she did. Still flowing, she starts to become numb the pain that she feels vanishes her heartbeat slows Her eyes flutter shut And the last thing to go through her head Why wasn't i strong enough?
I never once thought, that i would be the girl picking up the razor. The girl cutting every inch of her body. The girl wantig to die. The girl trying so hard to kill herself. The girl crying herself to sleep. The girl that never felt anything but pain and grief. The girl going through life without a smile on her face or a purpose in life. I never thought that girl would be me. But looks like that girl underestimated life.