okay now, lets be honest here;
when you ose someone, someone you love, when they break your heart. its one of the hardest things you could ever go through. and no matter how much time has passed it never really goes away. you may think you're getting better, but then you get a flashback, or hear a song that rminds you of a memory, and it hits you all over again, all at once, like a stab in the chest, you fall apart for the 100th time. and you feel like you just want to crawl under a rock and never come out again. you love this person with all of your heart, even though you shouldn't. they hurt you worse than you've ever been hurt. they stole your happiness. but yet, you still want them, and only them. other people come along and give you chances to move on, but you know that you just can't. it upsets you that you might e moving on because even though they broke all of their promises, you still want to keep yours. on top of that, you're scared, scared of getting hurt again. but its not like it matters anyway, at the end of the day you're still thinking about the person who has left you broken. you don't want to miss them, you don't want to love them anymore.
but you know that no matter what, you always will.