Do you want to kill yourself?
Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had a bad day. You're ready to give up. You go into your room, close the door and find your sxxcide letter than you have written. You take out your razor and you cut yourself for the very last time. You find the glass of pills, and you swallow them all. You lay down, holding the letter close to your chest, and y
ou close your eyes for the very last time.
A few hours later, your little brother knocks on your door to tell you dinner's ready. When you don't respond, he walks in. He sees you laying in your bed, he thinks that you're sleeping. He goes to the kitchen to tell your mom. She enters your room to wake you up. She screams your name. Your brother runs confused to your dad and tells him "Mom cries and sister wont wake up." Your dad runs to your room. He sees your mom crying, holding your letter, sitting by your lifeless body. It hits him, he realizes what has happened, he screams. He screams and grabs whatever is closest to him, throws it at the wall. He falls to the ground.
A few hours later, your little brother knocks on your door to tell you dinner's ready. When you don't respond, he walks in. He sees you laying in your bed, he thinks that you're sleeping. He goes to the kitchen to tell your mom. She enters your room to wake you up. She screams your name. Your brother runs confused to your dad and tells him "Mom cries and sister wont wake up." Your dad runs to your room. He sees your mom crying, holding your letter, sitting by your lifeless body. It hits him, he realizes what has happened, he screams. He screams and grabs whatever is closest to him, throws it at the wall. He falls to the ground.
Your friends? They all come to tears while thinking about why they did not see there was something wrong. They all wish they could have helped you before it was too late. You best friend is in shock. She can't understand. She knew what you were going through but she never thought it would come so far.. So far that you had to end it. She can't cry. She can't feel anything. She walks out of the classroom and falls to the ground. Shaking, screaming. But not one tear appears.
It is a few days later, at your funeral. The entire city came. Everybody knew you, the girl with the big smile and the exciting personality. She who was always there for them, and who always had a shoulder they could cry on. Many people talk about the many good memories they had with you. Everybody cries. Your brother can't understand that you took your own life, he is too young to understand. Your parents just said that you were dead. He is very sad. You were his big sister, you were meant to always be there for him. Your best friend seems to be cold during the entire ceremony, but right when they lower your coffin in the earth, she loses it. She cries, and cries, and doesn't stop for many days.
Two years later many of your school friends talks to the psychiatrist often. Your teachers could no longer deal with their job and had to quit. The self obsessed girls have all eating disorders now. The boy who used to tease you, cuts himself. Your ex boyfriend doesn't know how he will ever love again, and therefore sleeps with random girls. Your friends have depressions. Your best friend? She tried to take her own life. She didn't succeed like you, but she tried. Your brother? He found out the truth about you death. He is self destructive, cries at night, he does the exact same things like you did the years before your suicide. Your parents? Their marriage broke. Your dad became a work-addict to distract himself from your death. Your mom was diagnosed with a depression, and was always in bed.
People feel your choice. You might not think they will, but they do. Your choice doesn't only affect you, it affects everyone. Don't end your life like that, you have many things to live for. Things will not get better if you give up. I am here to help everyone who needs to talk, no matter who you are, because we all feel pain.
You and I, we are both humans. We go through bad times, but we always meet good times. We are all valuable, and will always be loved by the people around us, even though it might not feel like that. We cannot be without you, because you are you, and you are special.
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