So I was rewatching my favorite TV show, Sherlock, because I CAN'T WAIT ANOTHER 2 YEARS TO SEE JOHN AND SHERLOCK BEING SO GAY TOWARDS EACHOTHER AND THEY SHOULD JUST DROP WHATEVER THEY'RE DOING AND KISS. Uh, so yeah. This hiatus is killing me.
If i'm honest, I don't know what to say, I look at you and think how amazing it would be if you loved me too. But you don't. I mean, she's perfect, look at her, she's the definition of perfect. So why would you fall for me? I guess i'll just have to wait, for time to pass, even though deep down i know, it's too late for us.
I wish you could see how much I love you. You have no idea how much you have done for me.I can only dream of being able to tell you exactly how I feel. I can tell that this holiday will be the longest ever, all because I know I won' t see you till the end. You saved my life.And you have no idea.
To anyone who hates me, doubts me, or thinks the sun shines out of their @ss: I know i'm far from perfect. I have my flaws, my imperfections, my problems. But so do you. How can you judge me on how imperfect I am, when you have your own flaws, your own imperfections, your own problems? I shouldn't define my self worth based on the opinions of other people. I shouldn't have to. I don't need to. So, I don't. And I'm not about to start, either.
So I'm sat at my desk on Witty, and I hear someone come down the stairs, and I see in the corner of my eye a shadow, like a person by the door. I turn, and they're gone. I look around downstairs. THERE'S NOBODY IN THE HOUSE APART FROM ME. OMGOMGOMGOMGOD.
Last week i had my life saved by someone i never thought could mean so much to me now. He stopped me cutting. He stopped me going insane. He saved me. I'm still trying to find a way to say thank you to him. Hang in there, someone will save you too. Speak out, someone will hear you.