how can a man have the heart (or lack thereof) to hurt an entire family because he was mad at one of them when he himself has a family. wife. children. I don't understand I don't understand you let your money take over your humanity there will be a special place in hell for you
never finalize negative feelings. they will make a bed in your head, feed you lies each day, and take you away from what great part of your life that could have been. as I look back on the negative posts I made years ago, I can assure you that I only feel penitence and pity for the girl who wrote them. I wish I hadn't made posts like that, because it had me believing for the longest time that it was all true - and that only validated more negativity in my life. it became a disease that corrupted my thoughts. I was diving head first into shallow end of murky waters. those feelings don't exist anymore. I had, with so much effort and many, many crazy months of self help, positivity, constant goal digging, human interaction, and hard work, gotten over it. it definitely wasn't easy and I continue to work on it, but believe me, I have gotten over the worst and I've gotten so much better now. after all this time, it leaves me to wonder what I'd have had and where I'd have been if only I'd been positive instead. but this doesn't necessarily mean I'm regretting. I have learned a lot. but you can't help but wonder if the possibilities weren't ever empty. If any one of you are in the state that I was in - my advice is not to worry, not to finalize the bad; see the good, you are a strong person. strong doesn't mean it can't break you, it means you are already broken, except that you can be fixed. you can recover.
the transition into a new year is something i've always hated because it reminds me of all the things i didn't do when i had an entire year's time, it freaks me out, makes me sick, to think so much time has gone and i'm getting older and barely getting through it all i hate this time of year.
"I would love to believe that when I die I will live again, that some thinking, feeling, remembering part of me will continue. But much as I want to believe that, and despite the ancient and worldwide cultural traditions that assert an afterlife, I know of nothing to suggest that it is more than wishful thinking. The world is so exquisite with so much love and moral depth, that there is no reason to deceive ourselves with pretty stories for which there's little good evidence. Far better it seems to me, in our vulnerability, is to look death in the eye and to be grateful every day for the brief but magnificent opportunity that life provides." — Carl Sagan, In The Valley of the Shadows
"Strip back the beliefs pasted on by governesses, schools, and states, you find indelible truths at one's core. Rome'll decline and fall again, Cortés'll lay Tenochtitlán to waste again, and later, Ewing will sail again, Adrian'll be blown to pieces again, you and I'll sleep under the Corsican stars again, I'll come to Bruges again, fall in and out of love with Eva again, you'll read this letter again, the sun'll grow cold again. Nietzsche's gramophone record. When it ends, the Old One plays it again, for an eternity of eternities." — David Mitchell, Cloud Atlas
When a band changes - either they change their sound, a member leaves, or even break apart - it is good. It is all good. ALL is good. Yup. You can be upset, you can be proud, you can be disappointed. But if you whine about any of those things, I'm telling you, you are basically devaluing their journey making music. These bands, these people, they grow up, they learn, they experience and all that is represented in their music - in themselves. Changes are brought on by growing up. If you want to stay the same, go ahead, but don't tell others whether they should or should not. plus, whining about a band is so 2006 but i guess you probably weren't there to actually know that sucks to be you sometimes