nicole🌹* · 5 years ago
Oh my gosh wow, I used to love your account back in the day. So sad how this place is basically a graveyard these days! :/
Hope all is well!
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Amenah · 7 years ago
stumbles in three weeks later
hi there sweet dandelion

i play piano and violin! i've dabbled in guitar in the past as well but i wouldn't say i'm nearly adept enough to say i can play it hahaha. and i just started learning ukulele! it's so cute oh my gosh

that's so adorable!!! good for you finding someone like that, having people you connect w and trust and love to be around is so so important and lovely. c':
how have you been this past month? have a good august? :*
also... i don't think i ever... got your name........
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Amenah · 7 years ago
(also i'm sorry it took me more than week to reply. i can't promise i'll answer your next message faster, being as i'm travelling for the next two weeks, but after that -- !!! yes)
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Amenah · 7 years ago
you perform flute? :o so cool!!! how long have you played for? i adore the flute, it's such a sweet sounding instrument. when i was younger i desperately wanted to learn but two instruments was enough for my parents' back accounts ahaha ^^;
do tell me more about this boy. the flower has grown into a tree and is now full of sap, the sappiest tree, the sappiset flower c;
ahaha thank youuu me too tbh. ever since i graduated high school it's felt at once like i've been in slow motion watching life pass me by, and in the thick of it hurtling forward at break neck speed with no moment to even catch my breath. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ such is the paradox if life,,
if you ever figure out how to do that whole time travelling please do pick me up along the way. i'll be your companion. the donna to your doctor. i promise to (try) keep all sass and snark to a minimum.

ah but i take elephant is a compliment in and of itself. they are majestic creatures. truth be told i am unworthy~~
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Amenah · 7 years ago
hiii ♡ no worries!! you know i am no poster child for prompt replies :o
but i'd love to know how you are and what you've been up to ^o^ *spies your status* is this flower having a good summer? c;
i'm well! tired and in slow-motion for the most part. i hope this summer lasts forever, i'm not looking forward to going back to uni in autumn. and i have been writing a lot recently as well, which i've loved.

p.s. i know dandelions aren't flowers but calling you a weed just wasn't.......,
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Amenah · 7 years ago
i am so mad, i thought i answered your comment so i didn't log in for ages but i hADN'T AHH
i'm sorryyyy

i am glad you've been well recently!! are you in school right now? :o
(forgive me for asking but i can't remember and i'm v embarrassed abt it -- how old are you?)
i see you on goodreads (YOU ARE INK RIGHT. I HAVEn'T BEEN LIKE. CREEPING ON SOME STRANGER RI G H T ) so in my mind you've turned into a bookworm friend. i hope you don't mind. hahaha ^^

honestly i haven't been that great for the past while, but i do believe that it's getting better. i'm working on making it better, at least. and as for the recent past, it's been good!! it was my birthday recently so that was cute :D and i've been writing a lot (i've set myself a goal of 1.5k a day. i missed yesterday,, i have to write 3k today aha nooooo) so it feels good to be productive at least haha.

have you read any good books recently? :*
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ocean pixie* · 8 years ago
I'm pretty great, thank you!
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Amenah · 8 years ago
ahaha you poor thing. it's such a pain when your internet messes up. on saturday my phone died and i was IN THE MIDDLE of travelling cross bloody country and god, i do not recommend lmao. i was at the mercy of kind strangers and convenient train times.

how are you sweet dandelion? :* i hope you've been well these past months.
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ocean pixie* · 8 years ago
Hi hello hey
How are you? :)
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SmileyFacesAreAmazing · 8 years ago
Ahahahaha. It's been SEVEN months since I replied to you. I'm sorry. College is hectic.
So a lot of stuff you commented is outdated and ah.
But I PROMISE that I'll reply sooner. I want to know everything that's happening in your life! <3
Miss you bunches and sorry for the late response.
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Amenah · 8 years ago
*bangs pots and pans* hELLO DANDELION <3
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justkiddiing · 8 years ago
It's been forever. I hope you kept making an artpiece out of yourself
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*gloomy* · 8 years ago
Sooo many apologies for not speaking to you in nearly a month! School has been keeping me all kinds of occupied.
Well you're just a few months younger, kinda crazy, that we're in the same age-group and all.
I'm alright about teaching, helping other, etc., I just don't really have to patience for it. Especially if it's to someone who doesn't want to learn. Not that I can really blame students, you're right in that the education system is godawful.
No problem, and thank you! I find that where finesse can't be found, enthusiasm always makes up for the roughness, at least when it comes to communication, for me.
Same! Although I'm starting to picture you as being tall, for some reason. Are you? I'm not, even though I've been insisting for years that I'm average height, I had to face the music eventually.
My parents are the opposite, they're pretty laid back about most things. Which is so odd, considering the type of person I turned out to be. Not that I'm a bad person or anything, just surprising, if you knew my parents. They're very impulsive and go-with-the-flow, and I'm... not. I plan things viciously and have to have control over myself, though actually, that might be a result of their parenting, as I have/had very little control in the going-on's of my life, so my choices and personal situations are kept under lock and key, where whatever I decide, I know it will be me choosing.
All of my friends have jobs... I think I want one too but I just have no idea where to even start.
I'm... the opposite, sort of. I mean, I probably don't have anymore experience in romance than you do, but personally, I'm far too observant for my own good. I know everyone who likes me and it honestly sucks. It doesn't feel good to have someone like you when you don't return the feelings, it's just awkward and leaves me feeling strangely guilty. I'm pretty turned-off from relationships at this point in my life.
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*gloomy* · 8 years ago
Ah yes... school. I got my schedule for the new school year and, although I'm happy with it, I have exactly 0 classes with my friend (the one I've been telling you about, her name's Leah).
Hmmm... May of 99' or 98'? I was born in 98', and I can't imagine you being as well, that's pretty old for grade 11, but not unheard of I suppose. Even I'm pretty old for my grade though, it would seem. But given, I don't know how things are done in Canada, age-wise.
I've always loved my teachers, but I can honestly say I've never considered being a teacher. It just never seemed like something I would enjoy, too much interaction with other people.
You're really great with words! I always feel like, outside of writing, I can never get my thoughts out right, but you seem to do it wonderfully (or it seems that way, I obviously don't know your thoughts so I can't be sure).
I don't mind the ranting at all! I, for the most part, feel the same. It's almost eerie how similar our thought processes are, and if I didn't already know we don't look similar, I'd start imagining you look like me too.
So you're the older sibling! I... can't imagine that lol. I usually think that I'm mature in most ways, but in others, it's horribly obvious that I've been babied by my family... to the point that I'm embarrassingly lacking in experience with certain social situations cropping up for people my age. That's not necessarily a bad thing... but every time I hear about something from my friends I'm just SO surprised, and they're just like "oh... Brianna... sweetie" and it's just so patronizing and embarrassing. I'm going to be 17 in a few months and that's just... wow.
I don't get it, I'm number 1 in my class dang it, and yet I can't even wrap my mind around the idea of getting a job, because I'm that used to relying on my family. Urgh, I hate it. I just seethe every time someone brings it up.
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*nerium* · 8 years ago
thank you for the birthday message :)
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*gloomy* · 8 years ago
Urghh, chocolate chip is the bomb.
Yes! Oh my god, it's the worst! Winter is a nice season, I think. Better than Summer, which I can't wait to be over. I like... the time off of school but the heat just... the heat.
Well, lets hope you don't turn 21 before me! Otherwise you might be searching for a few months. Ahh, it's so nice to hear you want to be a pediatrician too, that's just, yeah, really nice to hear.

Yep, yep. I totally understand what you're saying. I have a similar experience. Y'know how I said I kind of feel cheated out of my childhood? Well, I basically had to grow up really fast, so my good memories of it are few and far between. But, whenever I do remember aspects of it that weren't bad, just little day-to-day things that make you feel happy to come home, I want to tell people about them. About getting my brother a pocket watch for his birthday and him giving it back because I liked it so much, about playing the floor's lava, about my mom always putting my crafts on the refrigerator. Whenever I tell people about these things that I remember, they just sort of blow it off, like, of course that stuff happened, like they think every kid gets a stream-lined childhood, and normality is just a part of the package. When really, they don't and it isn't, life is a bit more complicated than that. I'm sure they know that though, maybe it's just easier to not acknowledge it. When you've never been directly affected by something I guess it's easy pretend it doesn't exist, and that it can't affect you in other ways. Sorry, this got really depressing. Anyways, I guess my point is that I don't want it to be like that for anyone else. I had a bad childhood, and honestly, it messed me up. Kids are good, they're open and receptive, they don't deserve the things they get. So if I can help that, I'm going to.

My sister and I are roughly 3-sort-of-4 years apart, her being the elder. The age difference was a lot more obvious when we were younger, but by now it's hardly noticeable, being that we're both about as mature as we're going to get. My brother is 6 years older than me (I'm the youngest in my family), and we're not nearly as close. But, the same goes with him, the age difference was more obvious when we we're younger. Also, he matured a lot slower than me, so there's that.
Yeah, she's an interesting one. I remember it used to bug me (before I really knew her and I thought she was copying me), but she's the type of person who you can't stay angry at, a special brand of oblivious that anger just rolls off of. If I were the yelling type, which I never have been, I think even that would just go right over her head. It's nice though, I'm inclined to overreacting and she keeps me grounded.

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*gloomy* · 8 years ago
Yes, poor me. Give me sympathy cookies.
Yeah, we live in an area where it doesn't get cold enough to just have frozen rain all the time, but it doesn't stay warm enough for the rain to stay... rainy.
It's just been... the worst. The last time I was this busy I worked myself into a ball of stress and became an insomniac. I'm over that now, but I'd really prefer not to take the risk of it happening again.
Nice comparison lol. I plan to get my bar-tending license actually... that way I'll be a pediatrician that can also bar-tend and I've always wanted a killer conversation starter. Lucky me that I consider myself to be wonderful at dishing out advice! Although, I know how it feels to be on the receiving end of endless venting, and you can never really underestimate the power of just being there to listen to someone.
Childhood, in my opinion, is grossly under appreciated. So much stuff happens and it's such an important time, the outcome of it lays out the rest of our future, really. I often feel sort of cheated out of mine, so being able to see someone else experience theirs to its fullest is satisfying in a very heart-warming way. Sorry I'm so off topic~ I could just talk about this all day.
Yeah, the only person who knows almost everything about me is my sister, but that's because we've had practically the same home life.
I share a few quirks with my friend as well, but I think that's more just me rubbing off on her. She's the type to naturally acclimate to and resemble her environments when she's comfortable. It wouldn't work if she forced it, and I don't think she notices her picking up on her friends' habits very often, unless it's pointed out.
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SmileyFacesAreAmazing · 8 years ago
HEY GIRL. So this time I'm only replying a month later, yay! Did you ever reply to the girl in your e-mail? I totally understand though, my future roommate always texts me and I take days to respond and she probably thinks I hate her but it's just agh. But then I get upset when she doesn't respond immediately to me, hahaha :) I honestly have no idea how I was able to keep up with some of my witty friends because of how awful I am at replying, I guess I was more motivated back then! I'm so scared to go to college because I feel like my high school friends are going to text me and like I'll respond in my head but I'll just ignore them ahah it's a struggle!

How did your exams go?! Tell me all about them :)

Oh cool! It's always so weird to me when I find out what grade/how old people are because I always assume people are the same age as me! (And I seriously thought you were older than me haha) And we say tenth grade! How do you guys say it? And yes I'm american haha :)

Tell me more about this newfound friend that likes poetry! And update me on everything :)
I have to take a math placement test for college and it's stressing me out! It's all precalculus stuff which I haven't taken in like two years, and the teacher was awful and I failed every test but ended up with an A average for the year.
Hmm.
So I'm just gonna ramble a bit because I feel like my comments to you are always really short and also I kinda have no one to talk to sigh and also you just seem really trustworthy!!
So I'm not friends with the girls that I've been friends with for the past two years (most of middle school and high school actually but we didn't start becoming best friends until junior year) and we stopped being friends the WEEK before graduation and agh it still hurts my heart and idk like all my other friends always told me they were awful and I do know that they were very toxic friends to me but they were still my friends you know? I'm just not good at letting go and ajsdlkajsdklas

Okay sorry that was like extremey personal but I just alksdj idk. It's really weird before on witty i would always type my deepest darkest feelings to people that I just met but like this past year or so I stopped and i feel like that's why I don't have as many witty friends on here! (Also most of my witty friends have left lol)

Okay aslkdj I'm sorry for the ramblings it's late and idk but sorry if this comment annoyed you!
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vivre merveilleusement* · 8 years ago
well good (-: also, sorry for going on a faving spree there, but I honestly really love everything you write/post! you're super talented.
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vivre merveilleusement* · 8 years ago
haha, thank you! i thought it was kind of cheesy and stupid, but i'm glad you like it.
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