Hey there :) my names nadia im 15 and i live in Massachusetts...i love witty it helps me with anything even if im not witty popular because i can relate to all of the other people.I am a big one direction fan..Niall is my favorite ♥. If your nice to me i'll be nice to you simple as that.I always follow back when people follow me.I'm really down to earth when you get to know me and will always be a person to listen if you ever need someone.Oh and one more thing every single one of you are beautiful don't let anyone tell you otherwise not even yourself ♥
I'm in a complete moment of weakness and i seem so pathetic but i don't care i'm like madly in love with my friend and everyday goes by the same where i wish he would magically ask me out and nothing happens and sometimes if i pay close attention i realize how needy and annoying i am and i amediately stop everything and go into this mode of irritation and annoyance i hate this i hate that i can't just go on like he does i hate that i have this strong passion for him and everytime i'm with him i just want to kiss him,hug him , or just have him hold me but i can't have that because i'm like a little sister to him and nothing more i can see how he looks at me and how for others he would give the world to but for me he loves to annoy me make me mad and just bother but never does he do something to make me happy or cheer me up when im sad i hate this !
It's so different between us now i feel like a bother like before and i hate it i can feel that i no longer mean anything to you again and i'm sorry for the annoying-ness i've caused you i guess i'll just go back to be quiet and looking from a distance i won't do anything for you to be bothered or mock me or just feel like complete udder crap whenever i do something ...i really am sorry that i love you and you don't feel the same i would do anything to take it all away :/
Its been one whole year today that i've lost a family friend. I can honestly say I miss her so much! and there hasn't been a day that I haven't missed her. I hope that you're resting in peace i love you Eli ♥ !
When i met you it was like love at first sight It was like my heart was soaring wile through the sky Nothing else matter you were the perfect guy. No matter what i said or did you loved me unconditionally Thats when i realized i wanted you officially. But i was too late the distance was hard and thats when your love for me fell apart i felt my whole world crash down and everything was aching the pain was coming within my heart i shouldve expected this from the start. The numbness fills me everyday i try to throw it all away. I'm too deep now the darkness is sucking me in And now i know i just can't win. -came up with this the other day :P
You know they say everything happens for a reason but who gives a hell about what "they" say? I mean honestly who are "they" and what reasons in life is good enough to make people feel worhtless or like dirt? and what reasons makies it okay for someone to go through life without someone (ANYONE) right by your side to know you're not alone ? Screw "them" and their stupid reasonings its just a bunch of crap.
I know that i say i'm fine and i act like i'm okay and happy again, but the truth is that none of that is true at all im still hurt and i don't really know if i'll recover because it's never going to be the same..i can feel it everytime we talk and it sucks cause i try to be strong and pretend to be happy so i can help you and support you but it never works i just selfishly want is to be yours again or for you to want to be mine.You told me that the love was gone or that it would be and you were right but it didnt leave me it left you and i cant blame you for it but now i just sit here numb and so lost not really knowing what to do next or why it really even matters because no matter how much i give its never returned theres always something telling me "you're not good enough" and im just so tired of hearing that or feeling it so I GIVE UP. i fought and i gave my all and i got nowhere im left with a broken heart and theres no cure for it so I QUIT. and i wish i had the guts to let you know all of this but i dont
In 2 days it will be 10 months since you've been gone . i cried for about a week when i lost you then i stopped crying but you were still in my mind for at least a month i figured maybe if i stopped thinking about you the pain would go away but the pain doesnt go away its always there its just hidden and when it comes back out it hurts it hurts so much, i thought of you today because i watched something and it reminded me of you sometimes i wish it could've been me you were too precious to die so happy and you just got taken i just wish you didnt have to go you had so much love and energy and even if i dont think of you all the time doesnt mean i dont miss you or dont care it just means it hurts too much to think of it i love you eli and i miss you so much ! i hope you've been resting in peace these past months ♥
I'm not the most beautiful girl on the outside. i'm okay with that.. Because i know that if im beautiful on the inside eventually , Someone special will come around and get to know me not for my looks but my heart and once that happens he'll look at me and see me just as beautiful on the outside as he does on the inside. ♥ - just be yourself it won't matter what you look like while you're doing it.
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I just went through all my quotes and the reasons i wrote them . i know i don't have many but the ones i do have are mostly all meaninful to me and i was thinking back to the times i was desperate for love and affection and how hurt i felt and i just cried because i can still feel that hurt inside. i tried to be positive about the things i wrote and nothing positive came out for me everything i really wanted back i still have lost and it kills me knowing i lost a 2 best friends and my first love most likely forever .. i just have this feeling in my heart where it literally aches and i dont want it any more i want it gone forever ...sometimes i feel like having no feelings at all is better than having them . but anyways theres no going backso yeah just thought i'd vent ♥
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! To my grandma who i've never met because she past away a couple months before i was born . Regardless of not knowing her i love her sooo MUCH shes one of the most beautiful and kind hearted woman that has lived and i hope that shes Resting in peace with my grandpa ♥