Dear Joseph,
Where do i begin? I've loved you ever since i could remember. I can't stand it when we don't talk. i just love the little things you do. Kinda like yesterday, you made me sit on your lap :3. But then, when Mandy comes along, it's all about her. I had to leave one of the happiest places ever ~i was with you~ but you love Mandy. i know you do. its too obvious. i mean, you've probably known her all your life, and you've only known me for like 5 years. I know that you want to be more than friends with her, its as clear as day. I just miss you. We've stopped talking like we used to, and the dumbest part is, i still think i have a chance with you. I would kill to look like Mandy. To be her. I love the way you act around her, you're yourself with her. Your smile is to die for, gosh you're perfection. I like your friends, i wish they where my friends too. Their smart, and funny and outgoing, just like you...i love the things you say, how you don't want a girl that's perfect, that doesn't look like a model, you wouldn't want you're little girl to look like that. Those are the exact words you've said, it makes me love you even more. I wish i had the guts to tell you this, but i don't even have the guts to write this on my main account. i wish that we could be friends, just friends, that's when I'm happiest, with you. You make me feel beautiful, no one does, not even my best guy friend. I'm comfortable around you. That doesn't happen to often with me. I love the way you treat everyone around you, how you don't let anyone get to you. The way you joke around all the time. But you could be serious too. Or the way that you choose me to be your partner for that magic trick c: i wish you felt the same, oh how perfect that would be. No worries, no heartaches, just us. You and Me. that's what i wish for when the clock strikes 11:11, i don't wish for money, or one direction, or to have high self-esteem, i want you more than anything in this whole world. I've never felt this way about anyone, ever. I don't think of you as a crush. You're much more to me. I wish you felt the same, but whatever you do, just please don't forget me. Ever. I'll never forget you, and that's a promise that I've kept to myself. I've picked up my grades, as stupid as it sounds, i did it so we could be in the same classes. I want you to be a part of my life. I may sound creepy, throughout this whole letter. But it's everything that's in my heart, My heart sinks when you whisper in Mandy's ear, or when you put your arm around her, or whenever you glance her way, or whenever she's talking to a guy, you come over, and i know that she feels what you feel. It kills me inside...I'll never be good enough for you. Not for anyone. I don't know what I'd do without you. as dramatic i may sound, i really have no clue...
My1Diary