I like drinking Coffee alone, and reading alone. I like riding the bus alone and walking home alone. It gives me time to think and set my mind free. I like eating alone and listening to music alone. But when I see a mother with her child, a girl with her boyfriend, or someone laughing with their best friend, I realize that even though I like being alone, I dont like being L o n e l y.
So last night I was at a Wedding reception dancing out on the dance floor with my sister and this guy asked if I wanted to dance but he was drunk so I said "No thanks." and I continued to dance with my sister. (keep in mind im almost 16 and this guy is at least 21) &Even though I said no He grabbed my hands and was like "come on, dance with me. :)" and then he started grinding on me and im here trying to pull away and he kept pulling me back by my waist and I can smell the beer on him and I can feel his junk rubbing up against me and my sister is standing there not knowing what to do and finally the bride scoots me away from him and pushes him the other way. I never expected my first dance with a guy to be like that. Thank god I didnt see him for the rest of the night, I've never been more disgusted/ Violated in my life.
If My Life Were a Movie, Here's the Soundtrack: Put iPod, phone, etc. on shuffle, fill in each song, NO skipping songs. * Opening Credits- Yes I Am-Demi Lovato * Waking Up- Try- P!nk * First Day of School- Carry on- Fun. * Falling in Love- Just like heaven cover - Liz Gillies * Breaking Up- Without you- Lana Del Rey * Studying/ Working- Big city dreams - Never shout never * Life- Here's To Never Growing Up- Avril Lavigne * Mental Breakdown- broke hearted- Karmin * Sunny day- Two Pieces- Demi Lovato * Rainy Day- Never Been Hurt- Demi Lovato * Party Music- thrift shop-mackelmore * Driving- time to dance- the shoes * Sleeping- getting ready- 13 the musical (lol) * Nightmares- Anyone else but you- The Moldy Peaches * Flashback- Popular- Wicked * Wedding- Fine By me- Andy Grammer * Birth of First child- Dirty Paws -Of Monsters And Men * Final Battle- Fire Starter- Demi Lovato * Death Scene- Lucky Ones- Lana Del Rey * Funeral Song- Helena- My Chemical Romance (so weird because the actual music video is a funeral setting lol XD) * End Credits- Dark Paradise- Lana Del Rey
I want someone to come up to me and introduce themselves and maybe ask to go on a coffee date in a cute little cafe around the corner on a busy street in Ny. I want someone who loves me for who I am on the inside not because I look hot. I want someone to love me even with my many flaws and insecurities. I want someone to love me even when I dont love myself. I want someone to cuddle with me &watch my favorite movies and not complain of how girly or ridiculous they are. I want someone who will cheer me up when im feeling depressed or deal with my moodiness. I want someone to chase after me after I walk away from an argument. I want to be kissed in the pouring rain. & Lastly, I want someone who will go on crazy, unexpected adventures around the world with me. Too bad I've only seen this kind of stuff happen in movies. I can only keep dreaming. *sigh*