im 15 live in logansport, indiana. my race is mexican & im not ashamed of it. I love the colors blue, green,purple & orange.without music i would probaly die. being center of attention isnt my style id rather be by myself with my ipod blaring to much drama for me to want to make friends. usally if im thinking something more then likely itll come out of my mouth before i can atempt to make it sound nice lol. ive had idk how many friends lie & stab me in the back & im not sure if its the ppl i choose as friends or if the problem is me. i try to smile & be happy each & everyday but its hard to do after awhile. ):
Clawing my way up doing what i can to be better but its not enough Nothing i do for you is ever enough so im done putting myself down I'm going to do my absolute best & pray someone will love me I'm not perfect no matter how hard i try ill never come close to it I know this but maybe there's a guy out there who'll love all of me He'll want to help me better myself not tear me down like you did All of my little quirks & flaws will be saw as cute not annoying My oh so imperfect self will be seen as PERFECT to him & i might end up being his whole world just as he'll be mine I can't wait to finally meet him <3
Giving In... ~Replacing all light things with dark sadnees anger & doubt fill the air i've tried to reach out for help but it seems like you dont care ~I used to be happy but now i'm at my f*cking all time low hiding everything from everyine the me you see is only for show ~With emotions bottled up inside i feel like im alone at war fighting these dark thoughts... i just can't do it anymore ~I've seen people quit and i want to surrender too but i can't give in yet so heres just what i'll do ~I'll take one shot for my pain one drag for my sorrow get f*ucked up today and i might be okay tomorrow ~But if not i'll lock my dor get the drugs and lay in bed then swallow every last pill and wait till i'm finally dead...
They say that love is forever Your forever is all that i need Please stay as long as you need Cant promise that things wont be broken But i swear that i will never leave Please stay forever with me? <3 #If im james dean your audrey hepburn(:
im so confused... the other day my parents were worried that i was depressed or something just cuz i dont laugh or talk much & cuz im "angry" alot well today i was the complete opposite all happy smilie & giggly & they get mad at me? seriously? shut the f*uck up first youre unhappy that im sad/mad now youre mad im happy make up youre d*mn mind! -_-
My brothers & sisters funny conversation from earlier today! :) brother: hey hey you do you wanna share your cookie with me? :) sister: no -_- brother: awww come on sharing is caring! :/ sister: do i LOOK like a fricking care bear to you? -.- brother: uhhh no? o.O sister: exactly thats what i thought hum -_- (lol my siblings are so strange)
Do you know what it's like when you're scared to see yourself? Do you know what it's like when you wish you were someone else who didn't need your help to get by? Do you know what it's like to wanna... Surrender?
is there a god? i honestly want to know! cuz i doubt there is! if there was ppl wouldnt be so mean to one another, wanting to kill themselves, & all the other problems there are on Earth! i mean seriously my friend tried killing herself yesterday! i should of known something was wrong but i didnt! im such a horrible friend ):
my heart is breaking & im crying..yet what do you do? nothing. you just stand by & watch. you dont care that im sad all you care about is yourself. you said that you would never hurt me but you lied. youre the one who caused me all this pain & sadness all because of one little problem. i apparently didnt mean as much to you as you said i did. why would you lie like that to me? i tried to show you that i loved you but you never shouwed me you loved me. i should of seen it coming but i didnt & cause of that i cry myself to sleep at night. its all because of you </3
Boom Boom Boom This hypnotic beat I know I need To leave this Club but I can’t Boom Boom Boom Louder & louder Lips are moving All around me But I don’t Hear a thing Boom Boom Boom Shot after shot The pain goes Away but so Do other things Boom Boom Boom Why is the Music fading Boom Boom Boom All the people Are vanishing….. Why?