I cant deal with this pain anymore,
yeahh you might think im lucky be-
cause i got the guy everybody dreams
of having, but look into my life and you'll
see its not so perky. My family is fall-
ing apart, divorce is a messy thing, even
if its what you wanted. Death is even worse.
But how would you feel if you never met your
father? You might just die, and want to run
up to him and hug him. Yeah, i cant do that,
3 months before i was born my father died of
liver cancer, which makes me worry, can i get
it to? &i get in a lot of verbal fights; but i wish i
hadnt. Lots of girls hate me because i was in
the popular group, but am i now? no. Ima no-
body now. People no me of who i dated, but
some dont know me at all. Ive cut myself&
tried suicide attempts. I scream when no-
ones home because i just want this pain
to be over, but all i really and truely
want is to be happy again.
♥
mine.. venting=/