Depression is like a nightmare. i 'ave no control ova whts goin on. dere is no way out nd it feels like no1 cares. no matter wht i do im neva gud enough. ill always b useless nt gud enough, worthless, nd hopless. no matter wht im doin or who im wid those feelins r always dere. it feels like an endless circle of guilt, worthlessness, pain, fear nd weakness. ya feel like deres no point in tryin anymre, t'is an endless circle of failure. u feel empty like u dnt exist. ur breathin but dat dunt mean ur still alive. depression is whn it hurts 2 smile, hurts 2 laugh..hurts 2 breath. evrythin ya do nd say hurts, nd deres no gettin away frm it. no1 understands wht ur feelin. ur silent on da outside but on da inside ur screamin as loud as u can 4 help nd no1 can save u. ur on ur own, evrythin ya do makes ya tired. things dat used 2 make ya happy thy jst make things worse now. da only things dat will bring relif is da feelin of da cold knife, da taste of alcohol, da smell of drugs. people will try nd take these things away frm ya but u dnt let thm. thy dnt undastand wht its like livin wid depression. its hopin evry night dat u aint gonna wake up again in da mornin, hopin dat mayb da pain will finally stop, evn though ya knw it wont. its lyin evrytime sum1 asks ya " how r u?" it's always feelin tired evn if uve slept 4 hours. its feelin so weak, evry muscle in ur body aches..it feels like it will neva end, 1 day it will
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