Progress Report on Parking Lot Boy Because i know you're all just dying to know and care so much On the feild trip yesterday he talked to me three times. Sat in front of me on the bus and turned and stared at me. Then at Taco Bell he asked me how the play was and told me our dads are best friends. (SIDEBAR: HOW WOULD HE EVEN KNOW THAT. LIKE WOULDN'T HE HAVE TO TALK TO HIS DAD TO FIND THAT OUT?! HELP ME ANSWER THAT) Today I was walking out from school and I saw him standing there and he came up to me and was like hey so tomorrow and ME BEING THE IDIOT I AM REPLIED IS friday AND HE JUST SMILED AND WAS LIKE YEAH HAHAHAH and then proceeded so I was wondering if you wanted to go to the Grand Stands with me and a couple of friends. AND I HAD NEVER HEARD OF IT AND I THOUGHT IT WAS A FOOTBALL THING SO I WAS LIKE I've never heard of that what is it? AND THE KID REPLIES WITH It's a haunted place. SO ME NOT EVEN THNKING JUST AGREED BECAUSE THE LORD AND HIS PARENTS BLESSED HIM WITH THE SMILE EYES HAIR FACE BODY EVERYTHING I DO NOT DO WELL WITH HAUNTED THINGS. I ALWAYS SCREAM. I DON'T KNOW HOW THIS IS GOING TO WORK AND I JUST PRAY I WON'T PEE MY PANTS. Also I was explaining to my friends how excited i was and I was jumping for joy bc seriously this kid is amazing and THE ENTIRE TIME HIS FRIENDS WERE WATCHING ME AND COULD HEAR ME AND WERE MAKING FUN OF ME SO I PRAY TTO GOD THEY DON'T TELL HIM. THIS IS SO AWKWARD. WHY. WHY DO I HAVE TO BE WEIRD.
You guys wanna hear a cute story that happened to me? Probably not but I'm gonna tell it anyway So I'm the new girl at a school so I don't know anyone and no one knows me. Tomorrow all the senior english classes are going on a field trip and my government teacher wanted a list of the people who were going to be gone on the white board so I wrote my name down. After school was out I get a notification some kid was following me and I had no idea who he was. Couple days go by I've seen him around a few times or whatever and figure out his sisters in one of my classes. So today I was walking home and I could see him and his sister and his friend ACROSS THE PARKING LOT. I didn't think they saw me and I just kept my eyes glued to my phone and a few seconds later I HEARD MY NAME BEING CALLED SO I TURNED AROUND AND THOUGHT I WAS INSANE SO I TURNED BACK AROUND AND HE RAN UP TO ME AND WAS LIKE Hey you're nicole right? and I was like yeah and you're.... AND I COULDNT REMEMBER HIS NAME so he was like Hayden I followed you on insta. We should do something sometime and get to know eachother. HE RAN ACROSS THE PARKING LOT JUST TO SAY HELLO. THAT WOULD BE A GOOD FIVE MINUTE WALK FROM WHERE I WAS AND THE ENTIRE TIME HE WAS BLUSHING WHILST TALKING TO ME SO IF THATS NOT THE CUTEST THING EVER THEN I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS
You know what three words I absolutely hate? The three words that can make me cringe? You deserve better. If I deserve better why don't I have it? Why have I not had what I deserved all along?
How do you go from "let me in and I'll let you in. I love, and I don't need to fit you in. You are my gorgeous girlfriend. not a puzzle piece. You're worth so much more than that. I believe we can do this. All it takes is trust. I trust you and I just need you to trust me. I won't take advantage of you. I won't string you along. I care about you and your problems." 36 hours ago to " We're over." This is why love doesn't exist.
I crave that self confidence girls have. I am so envious how they can be so sure of themselves and look in the morning and be pleased by what they see. Because after 18 years of living I still can't.
I wish I was a boy so I could ask myself on dates Like We'd suck helium out of balloon Smash fruit, carve pumpkins, have a fight with the pumpkin guts, pet puppies, go to a movie, go get pizza and then take a walk under the stars. We'd do lots of fun stuff.
Don't fool yourself. Put down the romantic books. Look away from the romance movies. Forget the fairytales. Because this is real life. Where people are not kind. They are rough. People don't actually care. They're just starving for gossip. No relationship will ever be anything remotely close to what the media has fantasized it to be. Stop getting your hopes up because you are setting yourself up for disappointment.