The fact that im always there for my best friend when she needs help. But when i need help she just thinks im being stupid about it saying well people have bigger probelms then you. WOW! This is why i dont tell her anything. Thanks for caring.
I'm sick of being sad, but after you've been sad for a while. It becomes an addiction. You don;t know how it feels to be happy, because you've been numb for so long. So you just have to convince yourself, and soon you will be.
VENT. ADVICE NEEDED!! Well I'm in a engineering class, I'm the only girl. And we are doing stuff where we have to be in groups and I was put in a group of 3 because it was an odd number. So one of the guys in my group started to talk to me which he hasn't done since early last year. And its prob because were in a group together. But to me it seemed like he was showing off by tossing things and catching them. Then he was like now I'm gonna go home and do this with knifes. And I laughed. It seemed like he just wanted to stand close to me. Then we argued about an answer (funny/teasing) and I was starting to think maybe this guy is starting to get feelings for me. So I started to like him for the 2nd time. Then yesterday I was talking about this to some of my friends but saying I wish I didn't because I know nothing will happen and they were telling me no you guys would look cute together. And that it might happen. But to me it just seems like another crush that will never happen. And that ill get hurt again. And become more depressed. And sad. And want to harm myself. Today, he talked to me this morning out of all the other guys about some homework when i was by one of my good friends who after he walked away started to smile at me. but thats it. we havent gotten into our groups for a while. i feel like me liking him is useless. he will never like me. which is my life. no guy ever likes me and i hate it. feeling not cared for. no one cares about me. i every guy ive ever liked has never liked me. but something about him just makes me hope that someday maybe he will like me