So my ex, the one I said I was confused about with my feelings, posted a status one night saying he couldn't wait to commit suicide, he knows where he's gonna do it and what not, and I commented on it telling him not to do it because I care about him way too much. He's my first love...now...a week later...we're not even talking =/ we had a fight that night he posted the status, he told me to get out of his life, he called me a c/nt, a worthless piece of space, a b*tch, told me to die and that he wants to WATCH me die, he was drunk while saying all this too, the funny part of our whole convo? for once, I didn't cry, I didn't get upset, I just let it go, told him i'm done, and walked away, I'm not over him, I'll NEVER get over him, even though I should, BUT I have let go of what we had. He will always be the first guy I loved.
The reason i'm posting this, is because I want you all to know, if you EVER get called worthless, told to die, etc. Don't let it effect you. You're so much stronger then you give yourself credit for. My boyfriend recently noticed a change in me, a good change. I'm smiling more, i'm laughing more, all because of the fact I was told i'm worthless, it made me see, i'm far from it. Please if you ever feel down, come talk to me, i've been through a lot for only being 20 years old, I promise you there is a rainbow after the storm. You are all beautiful and amazing people. Don't give up and don't EVER let someone call you worthless because I PROMISE you're far from it