Hey wittians, so I know most of you won't care and that's fine but I had to get this off my chest because this isn't something that I can talk to my friends about. Well, a little over 4 months ago I lost my voice, like all you can hear is whispers when I talk. And for the first month or so I put up with all of the jokes and laughed about it with people as it wasn't the first time I had lost my voice around the time (it had just never been for so long), even some of the teachers joined in and I didn't mind, because it was funny. But then we're coming up to 2 months and I was getting annoyed that my voice still wasn't back and I had seen the doctor and she said it should come back on its own in a couple of weeks. But it didn't. The jokes now old and lame still carried on, and I took, because I know that they were just having a laugh and didn't realise that it was actually bothering me. 3 months and I have seen 2 more doctors, have medication and had blood taken. I have been referred to the hospital. How I have lost my voice for so long has puzzled the doctors and they aren't sure what is wrong. They said that I will have to wait and see what happens. Well now it's 4 months later and I finally have an appointment to go to hospital after waiting for 6 weeks and my mum calling and making another urgent referral. My point is that I might take the jokes and being made fun of, partly because it is kind of funny, and I know that most people don't mean anything by it. But guys, I am so scared to go to hospital. I'm not scared of hospitals or needles or anything like that, I'm scared of what they are going to say. What if I have something that they can't cure or fix or whatever? What am I supposed to do then? I just feel like I'm going to cry but I know that it won't help and it's so frustrating. And to put the cherry on the cake, one of my supposedly best friends has decided that he doesn't want to be friends with me anymore and is just completely ignoring me and acting like I don't exist and I'm trying not to let it get to me, but it is, it hurts so much knowing that he can just forget me that easily and act like we've never met. Anyway, story over. Thank you if you read that, if you didn't I don't blame you, but if you have any advice or anything I would be grateful. I'm not looking for sympathy, I just want to know that someone might know something that I don't.