Why do you say you want to run far away? Why do you say you rather die? Why do you enjoy breaking me? I love you more than anything and everytime you say those things, I have to prove you wrong. But it feels like I just can't. You are so convinced your life is worthless and has no meaning. How many times do I need to prove that wrong? You're fuccking gorgeous. The most beautiful girl I've ever laid my eyes upon. I fell in love with you a year ago and those feelings haven't changed a single bit. We've been through so much. You fell into your depression.Your parents forbidding you from seeing me. Your friend making you choose between her and I.. I've never judged you on everything, I was never the one slamming you down, I was never the one looking down upon you; unless I was helping you up. I was always here for you; through literally everything. Remember the day you told me about you cutting? Remember how I didn't hesitate to run my asss over there? Remember the day you told me you might be moving? We cried together for hours on the park bench just holding eachother. Remember the day you told me about Lucy? I comforted you as much as I can. Remember the day you left for your dad's house and we couldn't see eachother for a month? Saying goodbye was the hardest thing. We wrote letters, facetimed, we even sent selfies to eachother to remind eachother what we're missing. Remember the day you came back though. We held eachother for hours and our faces hurt for smiling the whole damnn time. Not only am I your boyfriend, I'm your best friend. And that's all it takes to save a life; a best friend. Think about what you will put me through if you proceeded with death or running away. Just think about when we grow up together and how we will throw pillows and blankets in the back of my truck. We will just sleep under the stars just holding eachother outside to the noise of a crickets and the smell of a campfire. Think about our wedding we keep talking about, and how you will walk down the isle to Imperial March from Star Wars. Think about waking up and rolling over to seeing me sound asleep and finally feeling safe. Everyone is gonna go through tough times in their life. And I'm obligated to stay through every second of it. No matter how much we are forced farther and farther away from eachother. Do your parents get some sick kick out of tearing us apart? Last time we were aloud to hang out was back in November. Nobody wants to go through this much pain and distance. But guess what. I'm still here. Still with a smile on my face everytime I do get to see you. And that will probably be the only time a real smile will ever come onto my face. I love you so much. Please don't ever forget that.
JustinDPN