Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
shoot shoot shoot. I was going to text you but I forgot my phone in my locker. ASDFGHJKL I'AM SORRY. BNDFKNkzxdkjzcvjnzdj I'am so stupid lol reply
Wheeling
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1 decade ago
It's all good. xD everyone forgets things. reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah, I usually dont get to know many people on the internet, I dont know why it bothers me to know that people I dont know, knows who I’am.. Ive only actually talked to about 3 people and actually got to know them. I have actually been talking to this one girl for 5 years now, she is like a best friend haha. But yah, its really nice to talk to you and kind of get to know you. And yah same here lol. Yah, thats horrible. I just always think you're going to be friends with someone forever and I get so bothered when friends break up, even though thats how it mostly goes. And yeah, it did. I didnt know why he would just do that, and I still dont but I’am trying to just forget about it. :P And omg thats so hilarious haha, if thats how your friendship is then its definitely a good one. :D And yah, its really lucky of you, and then you get the moola, lol, to me its always nicer to work hard for money then to have handed to you. So yah. :] And yah, it was horrible lol, but I just got the last paper finished so maybe I can start responding at least every day, and I’am actually half watching a movie now lol reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
I guess because they could be anyone and not necessarily who they say they are? It's ok to not just trust anyone on the internet. lol But that's really cool you found someone that you love talking to so much. I think I usually miss her more than she misses me if we can't talk, but oh well, I probably am too attached or something. But she tries to make me take care of myself... lol haha, Yes, this is true. I spent most of last week's paycheck on a shopping splurge, but I'll try to save most of it from here on out. lol And yes, I always grew up learning that I guess, because we have such a big family and never were given whatever we want like some spoiled kids. lol And never got allowances or anything like that. So, we had to work to get money if we wanted something. So, I guess it's ingrained in me now. Sorry you had so much to do, and yah if I would reply every day, then you could too. I've been insanely tired myself and had too much to do to write a reply very soon. But, practically all of my friends have been extremely busy lately. lol One took two weeks off of school for a mission trip to Africa, and now she's trying to catch up on her work. My best friend had 8 days off of school recovering from a surgery, so she had stuff to catch up on... Everyone is so busy. Including me, for once. ...Oh, goodness. Ok, so I was completely falling asleep as I was trying to write some of this at 4 in the morning. And my finger was resting on "j" apparently.... I typed about a million of them. lol And then I didn't finish writing the rest until today. Movie... sounds like a good idea. :P reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Oh haha its okay, and sorry it took so long to respond. Ive been busy. Oh okay, thats fine haha. My number is 5416700026. Its really late at night where I live right now so I will probably text ya later. :D reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
shoot shoot shoot. I was going to text you but I forgot my phone in my locker. ASDFGHJKL I'AM SORRY. BNDFKNkzxdkjzcvjnzdj I'am so stupid lol reply
Wheeling
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1 decade ago
It's all good. xD everyone forgets things. reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Oh yah, and thanks that means a lot :D aha, and yah I have a cell phone, if thats what youre talking about. I can give you my number if you want it :] reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
OH DEAR GOD THE PROFILE PICTURE IAM DYING LOL reply
NicolasCage
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1 decade ago
thanks its my fav pic. reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Naw, yay. :’] someone cares for me. lol I care for you too, its like the internet care you know? When you don't know each other but you still do know each other lol. And yah, I know that, no matter what I Always feel like I’am explaining myself bad so I usually just dont even try and let them assume whatever, which yah is bad lol. and oh, yah, that must have been terrible. Reminds me when I was friends with someone for years then they turned really mean and I felt like I never really knew them at all, or that someone thing was wrong with me or something. Anyway yah, I sure hope one of you turn nasty and end up splitting up your friendship, but I doubt that would happen, from what you've told me it seems like you guys have helped each other so much, it seems like even if you stopped talking for a period of time you guys would eventually start talking to each other again cause you needed each other. I dont know thats what happens in the books! lol and yah it seems like opposite gendered friends always fall for each other, but yah. Kinda did lol. And oh, wow. Thats really good though, your first week was completely packed, I guess it also shows them youre a hard worker too. Its good youre still alive though, it would be terrible to die your first week of work lol. And yes money. Thats the best part, that probably sounds greedy but I jsut like being able to have money on me lol. And yah, the reason the past few weeks I have been like major slow at replying is because 2 teachers now have forgotten to put my assignments in the gradebook so I have 5 science packets to do, even though I already did them, got A’s on them, then threw them away 2 weeks later. Uhg but I guess its my fault because I still threw them away. Ill try to get faster though. reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Mhmmm. :) Well I never put a lot of stock in getting to know someone completely on the internet, and of course you have to be kinda careful with that lol, but I've really enjoyed getting to know you and found that it was really nice after all. Yeah, sounds like me. lol Plus I can't even speak coherently half the time. ha. Yeah, I felt so bad for my friend for being ditched like that by her "best friend". That must've been really awful, and made you really confused and depressed. Well, my best friend was one of the ones that went through "Josiah withdrawal" when I was visiting relatives, so no, I don't think we could just stop talking for very long and be able to stand it. Yeah, I guess it's something to be thankful for considering our economy and how difficult it was to for me to find anything. So, its good that they can use me that much, even though I'm not experienced... or used to working that much. lol Get paid tomorrow finally for last week. Yay. lol It'll just be nice to see something good coming out of all those hours of time. And I have to pay for gas anyway, so. Well, that must've been extremely upsetting. :/ And gave you a lot of extra work you didn't need. But you can respond whenever you get the chance. I can't be on as much either because I'm gone all day and then get home and am too tired to do much besides watch a movie or something. lol. reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah, I usually dont get to know many people on the internet, I dont know why it bothers me to know that people I dont know, knows who I’am.. Ive only actually talked to about 3 people and actually got to know them. I have actually been talking to this one girl for 5 years now, she is like a best friend haha. But yah, its really nice to talk to you and kind of get to know you. And yah same here lol. Yah, thats horrible. I just always think you're going to be friends with someone forever and I get so bothered when friends break up, even though thats how it mostly goes. And yeah, it did. I didnt know why he would just do that, and I still dont but I’am trying to just forget about it. :P And omg thats so hilarious haha, if thats how your friendship is then its definitely a good one. :D And yah, its really lucky of you, and then you get the moola, lol, to me its always nicer to work hard for money then to have handed to you. So yah. :] And yah, it was horrible lol, but I just got the last paper finished so maybe I can start responding at least every day, and I’am actually half watching a movie now lol reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
I guess because they could be anyone and not necessarily who they say they are? It's ok to not just trust anyone on the internet. lol But that's really cool you found someone that you love talking to so much. I think I usually miss her more than she misses me if we can't talk, but oh well, I probably am too attached or something. But she tries to make me take care of myself... lol haha, Yes, this is true. I spent most of last week's paycheck on a shopping splurge, but I'll try to save most of it from here on out. lol And yes, I always grew up learning that I guess, because we have such a big family and never were given whatever we want like some spoiled kids. lol And never got allowances or anything like that. So, we had to work to get money if we wanted something. So, I guess it's ingrained in me now. Sorry you had so much to do, and yah if I would reply every day, then you could too. I've been insanely tired myself and had too much to do to write a reply very soon. But, practically all of my friends have been extremely busy lately. lol One took two weeks off of school for a mission trip to Africa, and now she's trying to catch up on her work. My best friend had 8 days off of school recovering from a surgery, so she had stuff to catch up on... Everyone is so busy. Including me, for once. ...Oh, goodness. Ok, so I was completely falling asleep as I was trying to write some of this at 4 in the morning. And my finger was resting on "j" apparently.... I typed about a million of them. lol And then I didn't finish writing the rest until today. Movie... sounds like a good idea. :P reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
KEEP THE BEST DELETE THE REST reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Haha yah same, messages like that make me feel like decent people are still alive. :’] lol. And oh, from that picture I think your hair looks awesome, I love long hair and I just have like shoulder length hair so I always get all jealous lol. And we should definitely start talking and start hating together, and then we shall rule thy world. reply
Wheeling
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1 decade ago
I'm really picky about hair. I only like some people's hair. From what I can see in the picture, I like yours! :D Do you have texting or something? reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Oh yah, and thanks that means a lot :D aha, and yah I have a cell phone, if thats what youre talking about. I can give you my number if you want it :] reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
aw aw aw! This isn't creepy its so adorable, gah it made me so happy. I love messages like this. And dude I just read your profile and I’am positive that we are suppose to be friends somehow. You have such an amazing taste in music, and not to mention but I’am jealous of your hair. It looks so long.lol. Also, if you hate everyone too then we can just sit and hate everyone else together. xD reply
Wheeling
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1 decade ago
Messages like this make my life a better thing. Haha. I enjoy writing them as well. My hair looks so crappy. It used to look way better. My bangs are all screwy. -.- and yeah. It is long. I want to chop some of if off. Haha. And yes. I need a hating buddy. xD We should start talking brooo. reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Haha yah same, messages like that make me feel like decent people are still alive. :’] lol. And oh, from that picture I think your hair looks awesome, I love long hair and I just have like shoulder length hair so I always get all jealous lol. And we should definitely start talking and start hating together, and then we shall rule thy world. reply
Wheeling
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1 decade ago
I'm really picky about hair. I only like some people's hair. From what I can see in the picture, I like yours! :D Do you have texting or something? reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Oh yah, and thanks that means a lot :D aha, and yah I have a cell phone, if thats what youre talking about. I can give you my number if you want it :] reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah its better than not having anybody I guess. haha. :] Yah, I hope they will start seeing that you’re responsible now that you have a job and stuff. Yah, I tend to do that too, for me it just feels like its easier to just blame myself rather then realize that its someone elses fault. I dont know if that makes sense but i don't know. Yah, maybe it doesn't matter whose fault it is it just matters that someday you and your parents will be able to fix the problem. And yah, I always think that its impossible to lose touch with someone who has helped you so much unless something dramatic happened between the 2 people. And yah lol, Whenever I hear that saying I think of a boyfriend girlfriend type relationship when I hear that but ive seen people who are complete opposites be the best of friends, so ya lol. Oh well thats good. I guess that kind of is proof that good things come after the bad lol, but yah its good the church got new, better things. Yah same haha, we just had some school assembly about having a “Tigger” attitude rather than an “Eeyore” one, and it was horrible for me because I will never have a Tigger attitude lol. And oh, how did the first day go? haha, Ive been responding really slow. reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Well, hey, I care about you, and maybe that shows a little. lol But it's not like you've ever met me or anything, so it's different. It kinda makes sense... or it's like you don't want to go through all the trouble of explaining to make yourself sound better... Or you feel like you're viewed in a bad light no matter what, so you might as well look as bad as possible... even though that's not a good thing to think, of course. lol Well, it depends on both people. I know people that were "best friends" that barely keep up with each other anymore. But that was one of them deciding to be nasty all of the sudden for no apparent reason. But I don't think either my best friend or me would ever do that to the other. Of course, it's supposed to be likely that best friends of opposite genders would end up "liking" each other. lol hahhaha, that sounds kinda like a funny talk though. But maybe it made you feel guilty or something, idk. It was better than I expected because I was kinda nervous. I ended up working 6 days though, which was maybe a little much for my first week, and I quite wore myself out, plus I was sick all week, but I made it and I'm still alive, ha. Kinda, anyway. But I think it'll work out pretty good for me, so I'll not complain. I'll just be glad once I get paid for all those 44 hours. lol Yeah, a little slow. :P But that's ok. I now remember what it's like to be busy. ha. And I took a day or two to finish writing a response, so I'll let it slide. :P reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Naw, yay. :’] someone cares for me. lol I care for you too, its like the internet care you know? When you don't know each other but you still do know each other lol. And yah, I know that, no matter what I Always feel like I’am explaining myself bad so I usually just dont even try and let them assume whatever, which yah is bad lol. and oh, yah, that must have been terrible. Reminds me when I was friends with someone for years then they turned really mean and I felt like I never really knew them at all, or that someone thing was wrong with me or something. Anyway yah, I sure hope one of you turn nasty and end up splitting up your friendship, but I doubt that would happen, from what you've told me it seems like you guys have helped each other so much, it seems like even if you stopped talking for a period of time you guys would eventually start talking to each other again cause you needed each other. I dont know thats what happens in the books! lol and yah it seems like opposite gendered friends always fall for each other, but yah. Kinda did lol. And oh, wow. Thats really good though, your first week was completely packed, I guess it also shows them youre a hard worker too. Its good youre still alive though, it would be terrible to die your first week of work lol. And yes money. Thats the best part, that probably sounds greedy but I jsut like being able to have money on me lol. And yah, the reason the past few weeks I have been like major slow at replying is because 2 teachers now have forgotten to put my assignments in the gradebook so I have 5 science packets to do, even though I already did them, got A’s on them, then threw them away 2 weeks later. Uhg but I guess its my fault because I still threw them away. Ill try to get faster though. reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Mhmmm. :) Well I never put a lot of stock in getting to know someone completely on the internet, and of course you have to be kinda careful with that lol, but I've really enjoyed getting to know you and found that it was really nice after all. Yeah, sounds like me. lol Plus I can't even speak coherently half the time. ha. Yeah, I felt so bad for my friend for being ditched like that by her "best friend". That must've been really awful, and made you really confused and depressed. Well, my best friend was one of the ones that went through "Josiah withdrawal" when I was visiting relatives, so no, I don't think we could just stop talking for very long and be able to stand it. Yeah, I guess it's something to be thankful for considering our economy and how difficult it was to for me to find anything. So, its good that they can use me that much, even though I'm not experienced... or used to working that much. lol Get paid tomorrow finally for last week. Yay. lol It'll just be nice to see something good coming out of all those hours of time. And I have to pay for gas anyway, so. Well, that must've been extremely upsetting. :/ And gave you a lot of extra work you didn't need. But you can respond whenever you get the chance. I can't be on as much either because I'm gone all day and then get home and am too tired to do much besides watch a movie or something. lol. reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah, I usually dont get to know many people on the internet, I dont know why it bothers me to know that people I dont know, knows who I’am.. Ive only actually talked to about 3 people and actually got to know them. I have actually been talking to this one girl for 5 years now, she is like a best friend haha. But yah, its really nice to talk to you and kind of get to know you. And yah same here lol. Yah, thats horrible. I just always think you're going to be friends with someone forever and I get so bothered when friends break up, even though thats how it mostly goes. And yeah, it did. I didnt know why he would just do that, and I still dont but I’am trying to just forget about it. :P And omg thats so hilarious haha, if thats how your friendship is then its definitely a good one. :D And yah, its really lucky of you, and then you get the moola, lol, to me its always nicer to work hard for money then to have handed to you. So yah. :] And yah, it was horrible lol, but I just got the last paper finished so maybe I can start responding at least every day, and I’am actually half watching a movie now lol reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
I guess because they could be anyone and not necessarily who they say they are? It's ok to not just trust anyone on the internet. lol But that's really cool you found someone that you love talking to so much. I think I usually miss her more than she misses me if we can't talk, but oh well, I probably am too attached or something. But she tries to make me take care of myself... lol haha, Yes, this is true. I spent most of last week's paycheck on a shopping splurge, but I'll try to save most of it from here on out. lol And yes, I always grew up learning that I guess, because we have such a big family and never were given whatever we want like some spoiled kids. lol And never got allowances or anything like that. So, we had to work to get money if we wanted something. So, I guess it's ingrained in me now. Sorry you had so much to do, and yah if I would reply every day, then you could too. I've been insanely tired myself and had too much to do to write a reply very soon. But, practically all of my friends have been extremely busy lately. lol One took two weeks off of school for a mission trip to Africa, and now she's trying to catch up on her work. My best friend had 8 days off of school recovering from a surgery, so she had stuff to catch up on... Everyone is so busy. Including me, for once. ...Oh, goodness. Ok, so I was completely falling asleep as I was trying to write some of this at 4 in the morning. And my finger was resting on "j" apparently.... I typed about a million of them. lol And then I didn't finish writing the rest until today. Movie... sounds like a good idea. :P reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Aw omg Bless you for saying that darling. It means a lot, truly <3 reply
Wheeling
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1 decade ago
It's true! :3 Anytime. reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
psh I know you would. I mean come on, you kick me even if i dont kick you first lol. And oh Kami, already has formed her hit list. Well if you need help with the others to kidnap I'am here. Until then Will wait to be kidnapped lol reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Thanks and I know, but I do have some pretty good friends who I know care about me, even if they don’t show it haha. So I’am thankful for them. And exactly some things can only be learned the rough way. Wow, that sucks. But maybe since you got that job (congrats by the way) they will realize that youre responsible and maybe they will stop being so strict with you. And oh yah, that makes sense for why they stopped, but still they should have at least attempted or done something, I dont know but yah. From what youve told me I dont really think it is your fault, I mean youre the child (well I guess not anymore but still) and they should be the ones trying to communicate with you, or at least thats how I see it, I dont really know if that makes sense though. Yeah, you guys sound like amazing friends, and really good friends always manage to keep in touch so I bet you will. And hey, they do say that opposites attract lol. And oh yah, that really sucks, but I guess it makes sense why someone might steal from a church because most churches have a lot of expensive things and a lot of the time no one is there. I hope it doesnt happen again though. And yah I know that, I always manage to twist things to make them negative. ITs one of my worst habits :P And oooh yah, I’am sorry. lol. Youll have to actually have some type of a sleep schedule now lol. reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Well, that's a good thing, although it's nicer if people actually show it. But at least you have some. Thanks, maybe after awhile it'll change some and I'll be able to have some more freedom and they won't mind me doing stuff as much because I'll be able to drive myself places. I don't know... I don't want to say I'm not at all at fault for how things are, but then too, sometimes I take blame that isn't really mine, so I don't know. I guess it doesn't matter so much "who's fault" it is. I certainly hope so; I'm not going to drop out of her life as long as she lets me be there for her. Yes, this is true. But I guess I didn't know that works for friends as well as other relationships you'd normally think of when you hear that saying. Yeah, it does. But it wasn't too bad because the sound system was really ancient and we needed a new one, and insurance covered the projector and stuff. And now we have an alarm system, so it's pretty unlikely it'll happen again. Oh, yeah, I'm a natural pessimist too. Eeyore could be my nickname. lol. Yeah, speaking of which, I should go to bed soon so I won't be dead my first day. reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah its better than not having anybody I guess. haha. :] Yah, I hope they will start seeing that you’re responsible now that you have a job and stuff. Yah, I tend to do that too, for me it just feels like its easier to just blame myself rather then realize that its someone elses fault. I dont know if that makes sense but i don't know. Yah, maybe it doesn't matter whose fault it is it just matters that someday you and your parents will be able to fix the problem. And yah, I always think that its impossible to lose touch with someone who has helped you so much unless something dramatic happened between the 2 people. And yah lol, Whenever I hear that saying I think of a boyfriend girlfriend type relationship when I hear that but ive seen people who are complete opposites be the best of friends, so ya lol. Oh well thats good. I guess that kind of is proof that good things come after the bad lol, but yah its good the church got new, better things. Yah same haha, we just had some school assembly about having a “Tigger” attitude rather than an “Eeyore” one, and it was horrible for me because I will never have a Tigger attitude lol. And oh, how did the first day go? haha, Ive been responding really slow. reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Well, hey, I care about you, and maybe that shows a little. lol But it's not like you've ever met me or anything, so it's different. It kinda makes sense... or it's like you don't want to go through all the trouble of explaining to make yourself sound better... Or you feel like you're viewed in a bad light no matter what, so you might as well look as bad as possible... even though that's not a good thing to think, of course. lol Well, it depends on both people. I know people that were "best friends" that barely keep up with each other anymore. But that was one of them deciding to be nasty all of the sudden for no apparent reason. But I don't think either my best friend or me would ever do that to the other. Of course, it's supposed to be likely that best friends of opposite genders would end up "liking" each other. lol hahhaha, that sounds kinda like a funny talk though. But maybe it made you feel guilty or something, idk. It was better than I expected because I was kinda nervous. I ended up working 6 days though, which was maybe a little much for my first week, and I quite wore myself out, plus I was sick all week, but I made it and I'm still alive, ha. Kinda, anyway. But I think it'll work out pretty good for me, so I'll not complain. I'll just be glad once I get paid for all those 44 hours. lol Yeah, a little slow. :P But that's ok. I now remember what it's like to be busy. ha. And I took a day or two to finish writing a response, so I'll let it slide. :P reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Naw, yay. :’] someone cares for me. lol I care for you too, its like the internet care you know? When you don't know each other but you still do know each other lol. And yah, I know that, no matter what I Always feel like I’am explaining myself bad so I usually just dont even try and let them assume whatever, which yah is bad lol. and oh, yah, that must have been terrible. Reminds me when I was friends with someone for years then they turned really mean and I felt like I never really knew them at all, or that someone thing was wrong with me or something. Anyway yah, I sure hope one of you turn nasty and end up splitting up your friendship, but I doubt that would happen, from what you've told me it seems like you guys have helped each other so much, it seems like even if you stopped talking for a period of time you guys would eventually start talking to each other again cause you needed each other. I dont know thats what happens in the books! lol and yah it seems like opposite gendered friends always fall for each other, but yah. Kinda did lol. And oh, wow. Thats really good though, your first week was completely packed, I guess it also shows them youre a hard worker too. Its good youre still alive though, it would be terrible to die your first week of work lol. And yes money. Thats the best part, that probably sounds greedy but I jsut like being able to have money on me lol. And yah, the reason the past few weeks I have been like major slow at replying is because 2 teachers now have forgotten to put my assignments in the gradebook so I have 5 science packets to do, even though I already did them, got A’s on them, then threw them away 2 weeks later. Uhg but I guess its my fault because I still threw them away. Ill try to get faster though. reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Mhmmm. :) Well I never put a lot of stock in getting to know someone completely on the internet, and of course you have to be kinda careful with that lol, but I've really enjoyed getting to know you and found that it was really nice after all. Yeah, sounds like me. lol Plus I can't even speak coherently half the time. ha. Yeah, I felt so bad for my friend for being ditched like that by her "best friend". That must've been really awful, and made you really confused and depressed. Well, my best friend was one of the ones that went through "Josiah withdrawal" when I was visiting relatives, so no, I don't think we could just stop talking for very long and be able to stand it. Yeah, I guess it's something to be thankful for considering our economy and how difficult it was to for me to find anything. So, its good that they can use me that much, even though I'm not experienced... or used to working that much. lol Get paid tomorrow finally for last week. Yay. lol It'll just be nice to see something good coming out of all those hours of time. And I have to pay for gas anyway, so. Well, that must've been extremely upsetting. :/ And gave you a lot of extra work you didn't need. But you can respond whenever you get the chance. I can't be on as much either because I'm gone all day and then get home and am too tired to do much besides watch a movie or something. lol. reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah, I usually dont get to know many people on the internet, I dont know why it bothers me to know that people I dont know, knows who I’am.. Ive only actually talked to about 3 people and actually got to know them. I have actually been talking to this one girl for 5 years now, she is like a best friend haha. But yah, its really nice to talk to you and kind of get to know you. And yah same here lol. Yah, thats horrible. I just always think you're going to be friends with someone forever and I get so bothered when friends break up, even though thats how it mostly goes. And yeah, it did. I didnt know why he would just do that, and I still dont but I’am trying to just forget about it. :P And omg thats so hilarious haha, if thats how your friendship is then its definitely a good one. :D And yah, its really lucky of you, and then you get the moola, lol, to me its always nicer to work hard for money then to have handed to you. So yah. :] And yah, it was horrible lol, but I just got the last paper finished so maybe I can start responding at least every day, and I’am actually half watching a movie now lol reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
I guess because they could be anyone and not necessarily who they say they are? It's ok to not just trust anyone on the internet. lol But that's really cool you found someone that you love talking to so much. I think I usually miss her more than she misses me if we can't talk, but oh well, I probably am too attached or something. But she tries to make me take care of myself... lol haha, Yes, this is true. I spent most of last week's paycheck on a shopping splurge, but I'll try to save most of it from here on out. lol And yes, I always grew up learning that I guess, because we have such a big family and never were given whatever we want like some spoiled kids. lol And never got allowances or anything like that. So, we had to work to get money if we wanted something. So, I guess it's ingrained in me now. Sorry you had so much to do, and yah if I would reply every day, then you could too. I've been insanely tired myself and had too much to do to write a reply very soon. But, practically all of my friends have been extremely busy lately. lol One took two weeks off of school for a mission trip to Africa, and now she's trying to catch up on her work. My best friend had 8 days off of school recovering from a surgery, so she had stuff to catch up on... Everyone is so busy. Including me, for once. ...Oh, goodness. Ok, so I was completely falling asleep as I was trying to write some of this at 4 in the morning. And my finger was resting on "j" apparently.... I typed about a million of them. lol And then I didn't finish writing the rest until today. Movie... sounds like a good idea. :P reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Aw thank you so much darling that means a lot <3 reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah, I don't know what happened, I just know they just stopped caring all of a sudden. But yah, even with them letting me do whatever I want and not caring I still didn't do anything, I don't know....Yes, I mean we need some experience, and exactly, I mean if you do happen to make some simple mistakes i just stops you from making them again while you're older. But yah, I guess there really isn't a perfect parent. Hm, even with you being 18 they are strict with you? My parents are kind of strict with my brother who is 18, stricter than they are with me which is weird but I don't know. lol. And oh yah, And plus if you are 18 it seems like they would have tried getting like closer to you while you were younger, but yah I don’t blame you. Its hard to build something with people when they weren’t there for you when you needed them. I’am glad you got what you did get through though even if you didn't have your parents. Yah that is awesome haha. Its always nice to have that person you can just let it all out to, especially for me when I’ve been holding everything in and I just need let someone know. But its really cool you have each other thats awesome. I hope you guys manage to have one another in your lives forever its sounds like you guys are really good for each other, if that makes sense lol. And yah I know, out of everywhere why a church? But we have a lot of electronics in there. I guess they stole the 2 wii’s, an electric guitar, laptop, tv, and then they just trashed the place but I guess they got them on camera which is good. Ooh yah I forgot Vampires are supposed to run like super speed. Yah, It would be a good place to get started for money or what not I guess lol. And oh okay good, I didn't want to upset you lol. And yah it was because you always seem to be up real super late. lol reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Well, I'm sorry about that because it doens't help with how you feel about yourself when people, especially family, stop caring. :/ Mhm, I mean, you can learn some things from other people who have been through stuff, but some things you can only learn the hard way. Yeah, they are rather strict and controlling. Not really allowed to do much and can't anyway since I don't have my licence because they can't pay the additional insurance and I can't without a job. But, hey, I'll be starting at the place I told you about on Monday, so I should finally be able to get somewhere. But, anyway, I think my parents did when I was younger, but stopped as much when I started to shut them out because they didn't know how to deal with that, and I guess I can't blame them for that. Yeah, it wouldn't bother me so much except that they don't even know why I can't talk to them now, and I don't really want to tell them, so I end up feeling like maybe it's my problem. Yeah, she asked me once if I'd ever leave her like almost everyone else has. So I hope we'll still be able to talk all our lives, even if we go separate ways. I think we are good for each other, even though it's amazing that we even became friends because we're really different. lol. Yeah, that's what they went for at our church. Took remotes, the whole sound system, and a really expensive projector, among other things. No idea who did it or anything. Well, I don't get upset too easily, unless I overthink people's reactions or something, that can be bad bc I can't let it go and imagine the worst. lol Well, I guess I'll have to go to bed earlier because of my new job... not sure how hard that will be to get used to... lol reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Thanks and I know, but I do have some pretty good friends who I know care about me, even if they don’t show it haha. So I’am thankful for them. And exactly some things can only be learned the rough way. Wow, that sucks. But maybe since you got that job (congrats by the way) they will realize that youre responsible and maybe they will stop being so strict with you. And oh yah, that makes sense for why they stopped, but still they should have at least attempted or done something, I dont know but yah. From what youve told me I dont really think it is your fault, I mean youre the child (well I guess not anymore but still) and they should be the ones trying to communicate with you, or at least thats how I see it, I dont really know if that makes sense though. Yeah, you guys sound like amazing friends, and really good friends always manage to keep in touch so I bet you will. And hey, they do say that opposites attract lol. And oh yah, that really sucks, but I guess it makes sense why someone might steal from a church because most churches have a lot of expensive things and a lot of the time no one is there. I hope it doesnt happen again though. And yah I know that, I always manage to twist things to make them negative. ITs one of my worst habits :P And oooh yah, I’am sorry. lol. Youll have to actually have some type of a sleep schedule now lol. reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Well, that's a good thing, although it's nicer if people actually show it. But at least you have some. Thanks, maybe after awhile it'll change some and I'll be able to have some more freedom and they won't mind me doing stuff as much because I'll be able to drive myself places. I don't know... I don't want to say I'm not at all at fault for how things are, but then too, sometimes I take blame that isn't really mine, so I don't know. I guess it doesn't matter so much "who's fault" it is. I certainly hope so; I'm not going to drop out of her life as long as she lets me be there for her. Yes, this is true. But I guess I didn't know that works for friends as well as other relationships you'd normally think of when you hear that saying. Yeah, it does. But it wasn't too bad because the sound system was really ancient and we needed a new one, and insurance covered the projector and stuff. And now we have an alarm system, so it's pretty unlikely it'll happen again. Oh, yeah, I'm a natural pessimist too. Eeyore could be my nickname. lol. Yeah, speaking of which, I should go to bed soon so I won't be dead my first day. reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah its better than not having anybody I guess. haha. :] Yah, I hope they will start seeing that you’re responsible now that you have a job and stuff. Yah, I tend to do that too, for me it just feels like its easier to just blame myself rather then realize that its someone elses fault. I dont know if that makes sense but i don't know. Yah, maybe it doesn't matter whose fault it is it just matters that someday you and your parents will be able to fix the problem. And yah, I always think that its impossible to lose touch with someone who has helped you so much unless something dramatic happened between the 2 people. And yah lol, Whenever I hear that saying I think of a boyfriend girlfriend type relationship when I hear that but ive seen people who are complete opposites be the best of friends, so ya lol. Oh well thats good. I guess that kind of is proof that good things come after the bad lol, but yah its good the church got new, better things. Yah same haha, we just had some school assembly about having a “Tigger” attitude rather than an “Eeyore” one, and it was horrible for me because I will never have a Tigger attitude lol. And oh, how did the first day go? haha, Ive been responding really slow. reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Well, hey, I care about you, and maybe that shows a little. lol But it's not like you've ever met me or anything, so it's different. It kinda makes sense... or it's like you don't want to go through all the trouble of explaining to make yourself sound better... Or you feel like you're viewed in a bad light no matter what, so you might as well look as bad as possible... even though that's not a good thing to think, of course. lol Well, it depends on both people. I know people that were "best friends" that barely keep up with each other anymore. But that was one of them deciding to be nasty all of the sudden for no apparent reason. But I don't think either my best friend or me would ever do that to the other. Of course, it's supposed to be likely that best friends of opposite genders would end up "liking" each other. lol hahhaha, that sounds kinda like a funny talk though. But maybe it made you feel guilty or something, idk. It was better than I expected because I was kinda nervous. I ended up working 6 days though, which was maybe a little much for my first week, and I quite wore myself out, plus I was sick all week, but I made it and I'm still alive, ha. Kinda, anyway. But I think it'll work out pretty good for me, so I'll not complain. I'll just be glad once I get paid for all those 44 hours. lol Yeah, a little slow. :P But that's ok. I now remember what it's like to be busy. ha. And I took a day or two to finish writing a response, so I'll let it slide. :P reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Naw, yay. :’] someone cares for me. lol I care for you too, its like the internet care you know? When you don't know each other but you still do know each other lol. And yah, I know that, no matter what I Always feel like I’am explaining myself bad so I usually just dont even try and let them assume whatever, which yah is bad lol. and oh, yah, that must have been terrible. Reminds me when I was friends with someone for years then they turned really mean and I felt like I never really knew them at all, or that someone thing was wrong with me or something. Anyway yah, I sure hope one of you turn nasty and end up splitting up your friendship, but I doubt that would happen, from what you've told me it seems like you guys have helped each other so much, it seems like even if you stopped talking for a period of time you guys would eventually start talking to each other again cause you needed each other. I dont know thats what happens in the books! lol and yah it seems like opposite gendered friends always fall for each other, but yah. Kinda did lol. And oh, wow. Thats really good though, your first week was completely packed, I guess it also shows them youre a hard worker too. Its good youre still alive though, it would be terrible to die your first week of work lol. And yes money. Thats the best part, that probably sounds greedy but I jsut like being able to have money on me lol. And yah, the reason the past few weeks I have been like major slow at replying is because 2 teachers now have forgotten to put my assignments in the gradebook so I have 5 science packets to do, even though I already did them, got A’s on them, then threw them away 2 weeks later. Uhg but I guess its my fault because I still threw them away. Ill try to get faster though. reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Mhmmm. :) Well I never put a lot of stock in getting to know someone completely on the internet, and of course you have to be kinda careful with that lol, but I've really enjoyed getting to know you and found that it was really nice after all. Yeah, sounds like me. lol Plus I can't even speak coherently half the time. ha. Yeah, I felt so bad for my friend for being ditched like that by her "best friend". That must've been really awful, and made you really confused and depressed. Well, my best friend was one of the ones that went through "Josiah withdrawal" when I was visiting relatives, so no, I don't think we could just stop talking for very long and be able to stand it. Yeah, I guess it's something to be thankful for considering our economy and how difficult it was to for me to find anything. So, its good that they can use me that much, even though I'm not experienced... or used to working that much. lol Get paid tomorrow finally for last week. Yay. lol It'll just be nice to see something good coming out of all those hours of time. And I have to pay for gas anyway, so. Well, that must've been extremely upsetting. :/ And gave you a lot of extra work you didn't need. But you can respond whenever you get the chance. I can't be on as much either because I'm gone all day and then get home and am too tired to do much besides watch a movie or something. lol. reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah, I usually dont get to know many people on the internet, I dont know why it bothers me to know that people I dont know, knows who I’am.. Ive only actually talked to about 3 people and actually got to know them. I have actually been talking to this one girl for 5 years now, she is like a best friend haha. But yah, its really nice to talk to you and kind of get to know you. And yah same here lol. Yah, thats horrible. I just always think you're going to be friends with someone forever and I get so bothered when friends break up, even though thats how it mostly goes. And yeah, it did. I didnt know why he would just do that, and I still dont but I’am trying to just forget about it. :P And omg thats so hilarious haha, if thats how your friendship is then its definitely a good one. :D And yah, its really lucky of you, and then you get the moola, lol, to me its always nicer to work hard for money then to have handed to you. So yah. :] And yah, it was horrible lol, but I just got the last paper finished so maybe I can start responding at least every day, and I’am actually half watching a movie now lol reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
I guess because they could be anyone and not necessarily who they say they are? It's ok to not just trust anyone on the internet. lol But that's really cool you found someone that you love talking to so much. I think I usually miss her more than she misses me if we can't talk, but oh well, I probably am too attached or something. But she tries to make me take care of myself... lol haha, Yes, this is true. I spent most of last week's paycheck on a shopping splurge, but I'll try to save most of it from here on out. lol And yes, I always grew up learning that I guess, because we have such a big family and never were given whatever we want like some spoiled kids. lol And never got allowances or anything like that. So, we had to work to get money if we wanted something. So, I guess it's ingrained in me now. Sorry you had so much to do, and yah if I would reply every day, then you could too. I've been insanely tired myself and had too much to do to write a reply very soon. But, practically all of my friends have been extremely busy lately. lol One took two weeks off of school for a mission trip to Africa, and now she's trying to catch up on her work. My best friend had 8 days off of school recovering from a surgery, so she had stuff to catch up on... Everyone is so busy. Including me, for once. ...Oh, goodness. Ok, so I was completely falling asleep as I was trying to write some of this at 4 in the morning. And my finger was resting on "j" apparently.... I typed about a million of them. lol And then I didn't finish writing the rest until today. Movie... sounds like a good idea. :P reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah, my youth group played it a few times:] And that is spot on. That is exactly why I have had the hardest time with my differences and I get scared of what others will think of me. But yah, it helps knowing God loves us and accepts us no matter what. And yah I know, and its so frustrating that they don't see it. :| And yah, I’am sorry you’ve had that issue you too with going back into old habits but its good you're getting better at not going back too.:] Yah, and I use to have controlling parents but I don't know what happened this past year its like they just stopped caring about anything I do which is nice but also sad. But yah, I mean its nice to have sheltering parents when youre growing up and when you're younger but when you start to get older you need to be trusted and allowed more freedom so you have a better idea of the real world and so you can learn to hold a bigger responsibility and I think more parents should realize that there kid isn't a kid forever but I dont know, thats how I see it. And wow, the one-sided part sounds a lot like what my parents do. I know how that is and a lot of times they think they understand the situation and they just don't get it and they dont let you explain it further because they know they're right and blah :P But I’am sorry your parents are like that, hopefully they will loosen up a bit eventually. And yah, no matter how little the problem is they shouldn't ignore it because its still a problem so I’am sorry they did ignore it. And yah sometimes you just want people to try, whether they fail or not its nice to know they're still at least trying. And its awesome you have a friend like that who cares for you so much and notices when youre down and stuff. Thats just really amazing, and its good you try to do the same for her:] And oh ok, that sounds funny xD but I’am sorry you died for nothing lol. And yah, I never understand why people steal from a church. Well actually its wrong to steal t all but why out of all places a church? lol And I haven't fainted yet lol. And omg haha, I guess you just need to roll in glitter and you will have the whole look down. And oh well then I was off lol. Okay then so you just kind of stay up till you pass out lol. Oh thats pretty cool, it sounds like a job that would keep you pretty busy, I guess haha. And oh, I’am sorry if it bothered you then. You just keep saying you stay up till like 3 in the morning so yah, I was guessing that you were a night owl but okay then. :P reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Huh, I wonder what happened to change your parents. That is pretty sad when you think about it (even though it would be nice at first), because I guess the controlling at least helps you know they still care even if they go about it in wrong ways sometimes. And I know my parents mean it for good, but I think you're right that you have to learn how to live in the real world and sure you'll make some mistakes along the way if your parents stop being as sheltering, but you'll never be prepared for real life otherwise. I'm sure it's hard to know how to be a parent though, so I guess we should give them some slack. I don't know if they will or not, since I've been 18 for nearly a year and nothing ever really changed even thought I'm "legal". But, I guess I'll have to learn how to get along better, even thought I find it terribly difficult to talk with them. Yeah, it just bothers me a lot because they act like they want to be involved now and like I can and should tell them anything, but they weren't interested enough when I really needed someone, or else I just didn't notice... Anyway, I'm glad I got through but that's part of why things aren't the best between us and they of course don't know that. Yeah, it is awesome. Today it seemed like we both really needed each other to talk to about all the crappy stuff going on in our lives. It helps a lot to just let it out, and she's the only one who I can tell some things to. I guess it is kinda funny in retrospect. lol Just would take a lot to get me to do it again probably. Yeah, I know it's wrong period, but it seems so much worse that they would rob a church... lol Maybe so, except I can't exactly run like lightning or anything either. lol Yeah, I don't know if I'll be hired or not, but it seemed like it would be pretty decent. Oh, no it doesn't bother me. lol I just was teasing. I was just curious if it was because I would say how late I stayed up, or something else that made you guess it. lol It's chill. reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah, I don't know what happened, I just know they just stopped caring all of a sudden. But yah, even with them letting me do whatever I want and not caring I still didn't do anything, I don't know....Yes, I mean we need some experience, and exactly, I mean if you do happen to make some simple mistakes i just stops you from making them again while you're older. But yah, I guess there really isn't a perfect parent. Hm, even with you being 18 they are strict with you? My parents are kind of strict with my brother who is 18, stricter than they are with me which is weird but I don't know. lol. And oh yah, And plus if you are 18 it seems like they would have tried getting like closer to you while you were younger, but yah I don’t blame you. Its hard to build something with people when they weren’t there for you when you needed them. I’am glad you got what you did get through though even if you didn't have your parents. Yah that is awesome haha. Its always nice to have that person you can just let it all out to, especially for me when I’ve been holding everything in and I just need let someone know. But its really cool you have each other thats awesome. I hope you guys manage to have one another in your lives forever its sounds like you guys are really good for each other, if that makes sense lol. And yah I know, out of everywhere why a church? But we have a lot of electronics in there. I guess they stole the 2 wii’s, an electric guitar, laptop, tv, and then they just trashed the place but I guess they got them on camera which is good. Ooh yah I forgot Vampires are supposed to run like super speed. Yah, It would be a good place to get started for money or what not I guess lol. And oh okay good, I didn't want to upset you lol. And yah it was because you always seem to be up real super late. lol reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Well, I'm sorry about that because it doens't help with how you feel about yourself when people, especially family, stop caring. :/ Mhm, I mean, you can learn some things from other people who have been through stuff, but some things you can only learn the hard way. Yeah, they are rather strict and controlling. Not really allowed to do much and can't anyway since I don't have my licence because they can't pay the additional insurance and I can't without a job. But, hey, I'll be starting at the place I told you about on Monday, so I should finally be able to get somewhere. But, anyway, I think my parents did when I was younger, but stopped as much when I started to shut them out because they didn't know how to deal with that, and I guess I can't blame them for that. Yeah, it wouldn't bother me so much except that they don't even know why I can't talk to them now, and I don't really want to tell them, so I end up feeling like maybe it's my problem. Yeah, she asked me once if I'd ever leave her like almost everyone else has. So I hope we'll still be able to talk all our lives, even if we go separate ways. I think we are good for each other, even though it's amazing that we even became friends because we're really different. lol. Yeah, that's what they went for at our church. Took remotes, the whole sound system, and a really expensive projector, among other things. No idea who did it or anything. Well, I don't get upset too easily, unless I overthink people's reactions or something, that can be bad bc I can't let it go and imagine the worst. lol Well, I guess I'll have to go to bed earlier because of my new job... not sure how hard that will be to get used to... lol reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Thanks and I know, but I do have some pretty good friends who I know care about me, even if they don’t show it haha. So I’am thankful for them. And exactly some things can only be learned the rough way. Wow, that sucks. But maybe since you got that job (congrats by the way) they will realize that youre responsible and maybe they will stop being so strict with you. And oh yah, that makes sense for why they stopped, but still they should have at least attempted or done something, I dont know but yah. From what youve told me I dont really think it is your fault, I mean youre the child (well I guess not anymore but still) and they should be the ones trying to communicate with you, or at least thats how I see it, I dont really know if that makes sense though. Yeah, you guys sound like amazing friends, and really good friends always manage to keep in touch so I bet you will. And hey, they do say that opposites attract lol. And oh yah, that really sucks, but I guess it makes sense why someone might steal from a church because most churches have a lot of expensive things and a lot of the time no one is there. I hope it doesnt happen again though. And yah I know that, I always manage to twist things to make them negative. ITs one of my worst habits :P And oooh yah, I’am sorry. lol. Youll have to actually have some type of a sleep schedule now lol. reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Well, that's a good thing, although it's nicer if people actually show it. But at least you have some. Thanks, maybe after awhile it'll change some and I'll be able to have some more freedom and they won't mind me doing stuff as much because I'll be able to drive myself places. I don't know... I don't want to say I'm not at all at fault for how things are, but then too, sometimes I take blame that isn't really mine, so I don't know. I guess it doesn't matter so much "who's fault" it is. I certainly hope so; I'm not going to drop out of her life as long as she lets me be there for her. Yes, this is true. But I guess I didn't know that works for friends as well as other relationships you'd normally think of when you hear that saying. Yeah, it does. But it wasn't too bad because the sound system was really ancient and we needed a new one, and insurance covered the projector and stuff. And now we have an alarm system, so it's pretty unlikely it'll happen again. Oh, yeah, I'm a natural pessimist too. Eeyore could be my nickname. lol. Yeah, speaking of which, I should go to bed soon so I won't be dead my first day. reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah its better than not having anybody I guess. haha. :] Yah, I hope they will start seeing that you’re responsible now that you have a job and stuff. Yah, I tend to do that too, for me it just feels like its easier to just blame myself rather then realize that its someone elses fault. I dont know if that makes sense but i don't know. Yah, maybe it doesn't matter whose fault it is it just matters that someday you and your parents will be able to fix the problem. And yah, I always think that its impossible to lose touch with someone who has helped you so much unless something dramatic happened between the 2 people. And yah lol, Whenever I hear that saying I think of a boyfriend girlfriend type relationship when I hear that but ive seen people who are complete opposites be the best of friends, so ya lol. Oh well thats good. I guess that kind of is proof that good things come after the bad lol, but yah its good the church got new, better things. Yah same haha, we just had some school assembly about having a “Tigger” attitude rather than an “Eeyore” one, and it was horrible for me because I will never have a Tigger attitude lol. And oh, how did the first day go? haha, Ive been responding really slow. reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Well, hey, I care about you, and maybe that shows a little. lol But it's not like you've ever met me or anything, so it's different. It kinda makes sense... or it's like you don't want to go through all the trouble of explaining to make yourself sound better... Or you feel like you're viewed in a bad light no matter what, so you might as well look as bad as possible... even though that's not a good thing to think, of course. lol Well, it depends on both people. I know people that were "best friends" that barely keep up with each other anymore. But that was one of them deciding to be nasty all of the sudden for no apparent reason. But I don't think either my best friend or me would ever do that to the other. Of course, it's supposed to be likely that best friends of opposite genders would end up "liking" each other. lol hahhaha, that sounds kinda like a funny talk though. But maybe it made you feel guilty or something, idk. It was better than I expected because I was kinda nervous. I ended up working 6 days though, which was maybe a little much for my first week, and I quite wore myself out, plus I was sick all week, but I made it and I'm still alive, ha. Kinda, anyway. But I think it'll work out pretty good for me, so I'll not complain. I'll just be glad once I get paid for all those 44 hours. lol Yeah, a little slow. :P But that's ok. I now remember what it's like to be busy. ha. And I took a day or two to finish writing a response, so I'll let it slide. :P reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Naw, yay. :’] someone cares for me. lol I care for you too, its like the internet care you know? When you don't know each other but you still do know each other lol. And yah, I know that, no matter what I Always feel like I’am explaining myself bad so I usually just dont even try and let them assume whatever, which yah is bad lol. and oh, yah, that must have been terrible. Reminds me when I was friends with someone for years then they turned really mean and I felt like I never really knew them at all, or that someone thing was wrong with me or something. Anyway yah, I sure hope one of you turn nasty and end up splitting up your friendship, but I doubt that would happen, from what you've told me it seems like you guys have helped each other so much, it seems like even if you stopped talking for a period of time you guys would eventually start talking to each other again cause you needed each other. I dont know thats what happens in the books! lol and yah it seems like opposite gendered friends always fall for each other, but yah. Kinda did lol. And oh, wow. Thats really good though, your first week was completely packed, I guess it also shows them youre a hard worker too. Its good youre still alive though, it would be terrible to die your first week of work lol. And yes money. Thats the best part, that probably sounds greedy but I jsut like being able to have money on me lol. And yah, the reason the past few weeks I have been like major slow at replying is because 2 teachers now have forgotten to put my assignments in the gradebook so I have 5 science packets to do, even though I already did them, got A’s on them, then threw them away 2 weeks later. Uhg but I guess its my fault because I still threw them away. Ill try to get faster though. reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Mhmmm. :) Well I never put a lot of stock in getting to know someone completely on the internet, and of course you have to be kinda careful with that lol, but I've really enjoyed getting to know you and found that it was really nice after all. Yeah, sounds like me. lol Plus I can't even speak coherently half the time. ha. Yeah, I felt so bad for my friend for being ditched like that by her "best friend". That must've been really awful, and made you really confused and depressed. Well, my best friend was one of the ones that went through "Josiah withdrawal" when I was visiting relatives, so no, I don't think we could just stop talking for very long and be able to stand it. Yeah, I guess it's something to be thankful for considering our economy and how difficult it was to for me to find anything. So, its good that they can use me that much, even though I'm not experienced... or used to working that much. lol Get paid tomorrow finally for last week. Yay. lol It'll just be nice to see something good coming out of all those hours of time. And I have to pay for gas anyway, so. Well, that must've been extremely upsetting. :/ And gave you a lot of extra work you didn't need. But you can respond whenever you get the chance. I can't be on as much either because I'm gone all day and then get home and am too tired to do much besides watch a movie or something. lol. reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah, I usually dont get to know many people on the internet, I dont know why it bothers me to know that people I dont know, knows who I’am.. Ive only actually talked to about 3 people and actually got to know them. I have actually been talking to this one girl for 5 years now, she is like a best friend haha. But yah, its really nice to talk to you and kind of get to know you. And yah same here lol. Yah, thats horrible. I just always think you're going to be friends with someone forever and I get so bothered when friends break up, even though thats how it mostly goes. And yeah, it did. I didnt know why he would just do that, and I still dont but I’am trying to just forget about it. :P And omg thats so hilarious haha, if thats how your friendship is then its definitely a good one. :D And yah, its really lucky of you, and then you get the moola, lol, to me its always nicer to work hard for money then to have handed to you. So yah. :] And yah, it was horrible lol, but I just got the last paper finished so maybe I can start responding at least every day, and I’am actually half watching a movie now lol reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
I guess because they could be anyone and not necessarily who they say they are? It's ok to not just trust anyone on the internet. lol But that's really cool you found someone that you love talking to so much. I think I usually miss her more than she misses me if we can't talk, but oh well, I probably am too attached or something. But she tries to make me take care of myself... lol haha, Yes, this is true. I spent most of last week's paycheck on a shopping splurge, but I'll try to save most of it from here on out. lol And yes, I always grew up learning that I guess, because we have such a big family and never were given whatever we want like some spoiled kids. lol And never got allowances or anything like that. So, we had to work to get money if we wanted something. So, I guess it's ingrained in me now. Sorry you had so much to do, and yah if I would reply every day, then you could too. I've been insanely tired myself and had too much to do to write a reply very soon. But, practically all of my friends have been extremely busy lately. lol One took two weeks off of school for a mission trip to Africa, and now she's trying to catch up on her work. My best friend had 8 days off of school recovering from a surgery, so she had stuff to catch up on... Everyone is so busy. Including me, for once. ...Oh, goodness. Ok, so I was completely falling asleep as I was trying to write some of this at 4 in the morning. And my finger was resting on "j" apparently.... I typed about a million of them. lol And then I didn't finish writing the rest until today. Movie... sounds like a good idea. :P reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah and I adore that song, and I agree with you 100%. I always felt uncomfortable being different from people but when I started going to my youth and I saw how different all of the people there were it made me realize that just because others don’t like my differences God loves them and it really opened my eyes I guess. But yah.:] And yah I know that, and I hate when I feel like I haven’t gotten anywhere, it makes me just fall back into old habits and stuff, but I’ve been getting better at not doing that. And yah its great you have people who believe in you and help you also believe in yourself because you deserve that. And I’am really sorry your parents have noticed how much youve changed, I hope they will eventually see that. But yah, thats one thing I don’t like about my parents, they always say I can trust them and they will listen but they never actually do. And yah, I dont know, I always thought the reason my parents never mentioned depression to me or whatever is because they didnt want to think that I had problems, but I dont know. I really hoped they would at least acknowledge it. I’am sorry your parents didnt notice or show they noticed either because I know how that feels and I hope you got the help you need. :] And yah, same, besides just trusting them I feel horrible with them knowing about my issues because I feel like they might worry about me too much or it would trouble them so I have got into habit of not telling them as much as I use to. But no matter what I do know that I have Jesus with me and yah he never does forsake us. :] And oh haha, record the food? I would die, whether If I was hungry or not I love food. :P And yah, when I tell people where I live they always think I live in a city and they are surprised I live in a small town haha. And wow. That reminds me our youth group got robbed for the second time a couple nights ago. And wow, its sad knowing that the world is getting, like, meaner. You know? More criminals and stuff. Its sad and kind of scary:P WOAH. I would have never guessed you were a vampire. This is a big shock. I dont know if I can handle it lol. And oh wow. I picture you just laying in bed but the lights still on and even though you are really tired you dont want to get up to turn the light off so you just stay up a few more hours lol. And thats cool, if you dont mind me asking what did you apply for? And yah, I can tell you are a night owl. Its pretty obvious now lol :P reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Oh you've heard it? :) Yeah, I guess it's because we want acceptance from other people so bad that we can't be ourselves or have trouble following Jesus because we're afraid of how it will look to others. But, yeah, God does love us the way we are and wants us to become more like Him in our own unique way. It's really cool the way God showed you that kind of thing. Mhm, I know I have, but when other people refuse to see it it makes me feel as if I haven't, you know? But I have done that plenty of times myself. Gone back to those old habits that I was in the process of breaking free from, mostly because I didn't feel like all the effort was worth anything when I was treated the exact same way. I've done better with that though, and I'm glad you have too. Maybe they will one day, I don't know. They are kinda controlling anyway, so maybe it just seems like they still hold stuff against me when they're being normal. I know they think they're doing it for my own good, I just think the whole sheltering thing is way overdone... I find it very hard to talk with my parents and it's usually more of a one-sided "sermon" and then they're like, "Don't you have anything to say?" But when they think they're right and it seems like they believe they in no way could be wrong or misunderstanding, I just can't defend myself against that... Don't even try usually. That's quite possible. Ignore it because they don't want to believe it... My parents probably noticed to some extent, but didn't have a clue how bad it was and I guess it just hurt that they never tried hard enough to figure out what was wrong. Maybe I wouldn't have talked to them, and they probably said nothing because they knew that, but I wish I could say they tried... True, it makes you feel like a burden to dump stuff on others. My best friend is really amazing though in that she will know when I'm not ok and basically force me to tell her what's going on even if I try to avoid it. Of course, she's not always around to talk to, but I'm really thankful for her and try to be the same way for her. Glad you've found that out. :) Well, he had some movie idea where we were arguing over the food or something? I'm sure it was ridiculous, and he never edited it so I almost died for nothing... lol :P Yeah, it's really sad, especially when people have such deadened consciences that they don't care if they're stealing from a youth group or church... but, I guess it just shows what happens as more and more people reject God. lol Well, please don't faint or anything out of shock... lol One of my sisters said I kinda look like Edward Cullen... well, when I stick my hair up. lol haha Well, no I fall asleep with the lights on if I'm tired enough. So, it's more like I stay on my laptop in the dark until my eyes just shut out of exhaustion. It's some kind of a hardwood store. I'm not sure of what all they do, but I think besides selling a bunch of wood products, they may also do some installation, like of wood paneling, flooring, trim, doors, etc. I'm always taken off guard when someone says something is obvious about me. lol. It's like I need to be more secretive. lol :P reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah, my youth group played it a few times:] And that is spot on. That is exactly why I have had the hardest time with my differences and I get scared of what others will think of me. But yah, it helps knowing God loves us and accepts us no matter what. And yah I know, and its so frustrating that they don't see it. :| And yah, I’am sorry you’ve had that issue you too with going back into old habits but its good you're getting better at not going back too.:] Yah, and I use to have controlling parents but I don't know what happened this past year its like they just stopped caring about anything I do which is nice but also sad. But yah, I mean its nice to have sheltering parents when youre growing up and when you're younger but when you start to get older you need to be trusted and allowed more freedom so you have a better idea of the real world and so you can learn to hold a bigger responsibility and I think more parents should realize that there kid isn't a kid forever but I dont know, thats how I see it. And wow, the one-sided part sounds a lot like what my parents do. I know how that is and a lot of times they think they understand the situation and they just don't get it and they dont let you explain it further because they know they're right and blah :P But I’am sorry your parents are like that, hopefully they will loosen up a bit eventually. And yah, no matter how little the problem is they shouldn't ignore it because its still a problem so I’am sorry they did ignore it. And yah sometimes you just want people to try, whether they fail or not its nice to know they're still at least trying. And its awesome you have a friend like that who cares for you so much and notices when youre down and stuff. Thats just really amazing, and its good you try to do the same for her:] And oh ok, that sounds funny xD but I’am sorry you died for nothing lol. And yah, I never understand why people steal from a church. Well actually its wrong to steal t all but why out of all places a church? lol And I haven't fainted yet lol. And omg haha, I guess you just need to roll in glitter and you will have the whole look down. And oh well then I was off lol. Okay then so you just kind of stay up till you pass out lol. Oh thats pretty cool, it sounds like a job that would keep you pretty busy, I guess haha. And oh, I’am sorry if it bothered you then. You just keep saying you stay up till like 3 in the morning so yah, I was guessing that you were a night owl but okay then. :P reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Huh, I wonder what happened to change your parents. That is pretty sad when you think about it (even though it would be nice at first), because I guess the controlling at least helps you know they still care even if they go about it in wrong ways sometimes. And I know my parents mean it for good, but I think you're right that you have to learn how to live in the real world and sure you'll make some mistakes along the way if your parents stop being as sheltering, but you'll never be prepared for real life otherwise. I'm sure it's hard to know how to be a parent though, so I guess we should give them some slack. I don't know if they will or not, since I've been 18 for nearly a year and nothing ever really changed even thought I'm "legal". But, I guess I'll have to learn how to get along better, even thought I find it terribly difficult to talk with them. Yeah, it just bothers me a lot because they act like they want to be involved now and like I can and should tell them anything, but they weren't interested enough when I really needed someone, or else I just didn't notice... Anyway, I'm glad I got through but that's part of why things aren't the best between us and they of course don't know that. Yeah, it is awesome. Today it seemed like we both really needed each other to talk to about all the crappy stuff going on in our lives. It helps a lot to just let it out, and she's the only one who I can tell some things to. I guess it is kinda funny in retrospect. lol Just would take a lot to get me to do it again probably. Yeah, I know it's wrong period, but it seems so much worse that they would rob a church... lol Maybe so, except I can't exactly run like lightning or anything either. lol Yeah, I don't know if I'll be hired or not, but it seemed like it would be pretty decent. Oh, no it doesn't bother me. lol I just was teasing. I was just curious if it was because I would say how late I stayed up, or something else that made you guess it. lol It's chill. reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah, I don't know what happened, I just know they just stopped caring all of a sudden. But yah, even with them letting me do whatever I want and not caring I still didn't do anything, I don't know....Yes, I mean we need some experience, and exactly, I mean if you do happen to make some simple mistakes i just stops you from making them again while you're older. But yah, I guess there really isn't a perfect parent. Hm, even with you being 18 they are strict with you? My parents are kind of strict with my brother who is 18, stricter than they are with me which is weird but I don't know. lol. And oh yah, And plus if you are 18 it seems like they would have tried getting like closer to you while you were younger, but yah I don’t blame you. Its hard to build something with people when they weren’t there for you when you needed them. I’am glad you got what you did get through though even if you didn't have your parents. Yah that is awesome haha. Its always nice to have that person you can just let it all out to, especially for me when I’ve been holding everything in and I just need let someone know. But its really cool you have each other thats awesome. I hope you guys manage to have one another in your lives forever its sounds like you guys are really good for each other, if that makes sense lol. And yah I know, out of everywhere why a church? But we have a lot of electronics in there. I guess they stole the 2 wii’s, an electric guitar, laptop, tv, and then they just trashed the place but I guess they got them on camera which is good. Ooh yah I forgot Vampires are supposed to run like super speed. Yah, It would be a good place to get started for money or what not I guess lol. And oh okay good, I didn't want to upset you lol. And yah it was because you always seem to be up real super late. lol reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Well, I'm sorry about that because it doens't help with how you feel about yourself when people, especially family, stop caring. :/ Mhm, I mean, you can learn some things from other people who have been through stuff, but some things you can only learn the hard way. Yeah, they are rather strict and controlling. Not really allowed to do much and can't anyway since I don't have my licence because they can't pay the additional insurance and I can't without a job. But, hey, I'll be starting at the place I told you about on Monday, so I should finally be able to get somewhere. But, anyway, I think my parents did when I was younger, but stopped as much when I started to shut them out because they didn't know how to deal with that, and I guess I can't blame them for that. Yeah, it wouldn't bother me so much except that they don't even know why I can't talk to them now, and I don't really want to tell them, so I end up feeling like maybe it's my problem. Yeah, she asked me once if I'd ever leave her like almost everyone else has. So I hope we'll still be able to talk all our lives, even if we go separate ways. I think we are good for each other, even though it's amazing that we even became friends because we're really different. lol. Yeah, that's what they went for at our church. Took remotes, the whole sound system, and a really expensive projector, among other things. No idea who did it or anything. Well, I don't get upset too easily, unless I overthink people's reactions or something, that can be bad bc I can't let it go and imagine the worst. lol Well, I guess I'll have to go to bed earlier because of my new job... not sure how hard that will be to get used to... lol reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Thanks and I know, but I do have some pretty good friends who I know care about me, even if they don’t show it haha. So I’am thankful for them. And exactly some things can only be learned the rough way. Wow, that sucks. But maybe since you got that job (congrats by the way) they will realize that youre responsible and maybe they will stop being so strict with you. And oh yah, that makes sense for why they stopped, but still they should have at least attempted or done something, I dont know but yah. From what youve told me I dont really think it is your fault, I mean youre the child (well I guess not anymore but still) and they should be the ones trying to communicate with you, or at least thats how I see it, I dont really know if that makes sense though. Yeah, you guys sound like amazing friends, and really good friends always manage to keep in touch so I bet you will. And hey, they do say that opposites attract lol. And oh yah, that really sucks, but I guess it makes sense why someone might steal from a church because most churches have a lot of expensive things and a lot of the time no one is there. I hope it doesnt happen again though. And yah I know that, I always manage to twist things to make them negative. ITs one of my worst habits :P And oooh yah, I’am sorry. lol. Youll have to actually have some type of a sleep schedule now lol. reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Well, that's a good thing, although it's nicer if people actually show it. But at least you have some. Thanks, maybe after awhile it'll change some and I'll be able to have some more freedom and they won't mind me doing stuff as much because I'll be able to drive myself places. I don't know... I don't want to say I'm not at all at fault for how things are, but then too, sometimes I take blame that isn't really mine, so I don't know. I guess it doesn't matter so much "who's fault" it is. I certainly hope so; I'm not going to drop out of her life as long as she lets me be there for her. Yes, this is true. But I guess I didn't know that works for friends as well as other relationships you'd normally think of when you hear that saying. Yeah, it does. But it wasn't too bad because the sound system was really ancient and we needed a new one, and insurance covered the projector and stuff. And now we have an alarm system, so it's pretty unlikely it'll happen again. Oh, yeah, I'm a natural pessimist too. Eeyore could be my nickname. lol. Yeah, speaking of which, I should go to bed soon so I won't be dead my first day. reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah its better than not having anybody I guess. haha. :] Yah, I hope they will start seeing that you’re responsible now that you have a job and stuff. Yah, I tend to do that too, for me it just feels like its easier to just blame myself rather then realize that its someone elses fault. I dont know if that makes sense but i don't know. Yah, maybe it doesn't matter whose fault it is it just matters that someday you and your parents will be able to fix the problem. And yah, I always think that its impossible to lose touch with someone who has helped you so much unless something dramatic happened between the 2 people. And yah lol, Whenever I hear that saying I think of a boyfriend girlfriend type relationship when I hear that but ive seen people who are complete opposites be the best of friends, so ya lol. Oh well thats good. I guess that kind of is proof that good things come after the bad lol, but yah its good the church got new, better things. Yah same haha, we just had some school assembly about having a “Tigger” attitude rather than an “Eeyore” one, and it was horrible for me because I will never have a Tigger attitude lol. And oh, how did the first day go? haha, Ive been responding really slow. reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Well, hey, I care about you, and maybe that shows a little. lol But it's not like you've ever met me or anything, so it's different. It kinda makes sense... or it's like you don't want to go through all the trouble of explaining to make yourself sound better... Or you feel like you're viewed in a bad light no matter what, so you might as well look as bad as possible... even though that's not a good thing to think, of course. lol Well, it depends on both people. I know people that were "best friends" that barely keep up with each other anymore. But that was one of them deciding to be nasty all of the sudden for no apparent reason. But I don't think either my best friend or me would ever do that to the other. Of course, it's supposed to be likely that best friends of opposite genders would end up "liking" each other. lol hahhaha, that sounds kinda like a funny talk though. But maybe it made you feel guilty or something, idk. It was better than I expected because I was kinda nervous. I ended up working 6 days though, which was maybe a little much for my first week, and I quite wore myself out, plus I was sick all week, but I made it and I'm still alive, ha. Kinda, anyway. But I think it'll work out pretty good for me, so I'll not complain. I'll just be glad once I get paid for all those 44 hours. lol Yeah, a little slow. :P But that's ok. I now remember what it's like to be busy. ha. And I took a day or two to finish writing a response, so I'll let it slide. :P reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Naw, yay. :’] someone cares for me. lol I care for you too, its like the internet care you know? When you don't know each other but you still do know each other lol. And yah, I know that, no matter what I Always feel like I’am explaining myself bad so I usually just dont even try and let them assume whatever, which yah is bad lol. and oh, yah, that must have been terrible. Reminds me when I was friends with someone for years then they turned really mean and I felt like I never really knew them at all, or that someone thing was wrong with me or something. Anyway yah, I sure hope one of you turn nasty and end up splitting up your friendship, but I doubt that would happen, from what you've told me it seems like you guys have helped each other so much, it seems like even if you stopped talking for a period of time you guys would eventually start talking to each other again cause you needed each other. I dont know thats what happens in the books! lol and yah it seems like opposite gendered friends always fall for each other, but yah. Kinda did lol. And oh, wow. Thats really good though, your first week was completely packed, I guess it also shows them youre a hard worker too. Its good youre still alive though, it would be terrible to die your first week of work lol. And yes money. Thats the best part, that probably sounds greedy but I jsut like being able to have money on me lol. And yah, the reason the past few weeks I have been like major slow at replying is because 2 teachers now have forgotten to put my assignments in the gradebook so I have 5 science packets to do, even though I already did them, got A’s on them, then threw them away 2 weeks later. Uhg but I guess its my fault because I still threw them away. Ill try to get faster though. reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Mhmmm. :) Well I never put a lot of stock in getting to know someone completely on the internet, and of course you have to be kinda careful with that lol, but I've really enjoyed getting to know you and found that it was really nice after all. Yeah, sounds like me. lol Plus I can't even speak coherently half the time. ha. Yeah, I felt so bad for my friend for being ditched like that by her "best friend". That must've been really awful, and made you really confused and depressed. Well, my best friend was one of the ones that went through "Josiah withdrawal" when I was visiting relatives, so no, I don't think we could just stop talking for very long and be able to stand it. Yeah, I guess it's something to be thankful for considering our economy and how difficult it was to for me to find anything. So, its good that they can use me that much, even though I'm not experienced... or used to working that much. lol Get paid tomorrow finally for last week. Yay. lol It'll just be nice to see something good coming out of all those hours of time. And I have to pay for gas anyway, so. Well, that must've been extremely upsetting. :/ And gave you a lot of extra work you didn't need. But you can respond whenever you get the chance. I can't be on as much either because I'm gone all day and then get home and am too tired to do much besides watch a movie or something. lol. reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah, I usually dont get to know many people on the internet, I dont know why it bothers me to know that people I dont know, knows who I’am.. Ive only actually talked to about 3 people and actually got to know them. I have actually been talking to this one girl for 5 years now, she is like a best friend haha. But yah, its really nice to talk to you and kind of get to know you. And yah same here lol. Yah, thats horrible. I just always think you're going to be friends with someone forever and I get so bothered when friends break up, even though thats how it mostly goes. And yeah, it did. I didnt know why he would just do that, and I still dont but I’am trying to just forget about it. :P And omg thats so hilarious haha, if thats how your friendship is then its definitely a good one. :D And yah, its really lucky of you, and then you get the moola, lol, to me its always nicer to work hard for money then to have handed to you. So yah. :] And yah, it was horrible lol, but I just got the last paper finished so maybe I can start responding at least every day, and I’am actually half watching a movie now lol reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
I guess because they could be anyone and not necessarily who they say they are? It's ok to not just trust anyone on the internet. lol But that's really cool you found someone that you love talking to so much. I think I usually miss her more than she misses me if we can't talk, but oh well, I probably am too attached or something. But she tries to make me take care of myself... lol haha, Yes, this is true. I spent most of last week's paycheck on a shopping splurge, but I'll try to save most of it from here on out. lol And yes, I always grew up learning that I guess, because we have such a big family and never were given whatever we want like some spoiled kids. lol And never got allowances or anything like that. So, we had to work to get money if we wanted something. So, I guess it's ingrained in me now. Sorry you had so much to do, and yah if I would reply every day, then you could too. I've been insanely tired myself and had too much to do to write a reply very soon. But, practically all of my friends have been extremely busy lately. lol One took two weeks off of school for a mission trip to Africa, and now she's trying to catch up on her work. My best friend had 8 days off of school recovering from a surgery, so she had stuff to catch up on... Everyone is so busy. Including me, for once. ...Oh, goodness. Ok, so I was completely falling asleep as I was trying to write some of this at 4 in the morning. And my finger was resting on "j" apparently.... I typed about a million of them. lol And then I didn't finish writing the rest until today. Movie... sounds like a good idea. :P reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Hey I just wanted to stop buy and say sorry about whats going on your quote. I don't completely agree with it but I still hate the fact the people are commenting such rude things just because your opinion contrast's theirs. Don't let it get to you too much some people just cant accept others opinions. :] reply
darkeyeangel
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1 decade ago
Your support means the world :) reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah, and thats good that you try to be as good as possible and follow Jesus, even if it is different. I think more people should be more like that. And exactly, when people keep bringing up what you use to do and what happened it makes it harder to move on, and by just talking to you now it seems like you’re a very nice person and changed yourself from whatever it was you did. And I its fine, its good you are trying not to let people walk all over you. Its unhealthy to be in situations like that. And yah, I know how that is. Its really hard to give people chances but exactly, some people can’t handle the responsibility of knowing a lot of personal things about another person, or maybe they are just curious and don’t really care what actually goes on, they just want to know. I dont know, thats what I see. but yah, I’am so happy he never gives up on us no matter what. And same for me, I don’t even know if I would be here today without him. Its just so reassuring to know that when everyone else gives up on you He is always there, no matter how big of a struggle. And oh wow, I would imagine you would be pretty sore from that and very tired haha. And actually no the nearest city is somewhere around 80 miles away. I live in a small town and then there are bigger towns around us but there are a lot of potheads where we live. THats what we are known for actually:\ and then we have, like, a lot of mental health people who are messed up from a bunch of different drugs and then on top of that we have the most lazy cops. So yah, haha. Not the best place to live, but there are still some nice people around. And oh lol, okay then. :] And yah, thats why, but I try to reply as fast as possible. And what? How were you not tired? Are you like superhuman and no matter how tired you get you cant still not sleep. Uhg that just seems so impossible. Even after a party and such. Thats awesome, oh wait though, I guess it would kind of suck to be tired and not to be able to sleep. So I’am sorry I guess. hmm. reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Yeah, it's the best way to be different. I love "Stranger in this Land" by Robert Pierre and it kinda talks about that concept. It can be hard sometimes because you feel like people think you're odd and you stick out and as humans we don't like that, but it's worth any of that. Yeah, it makes you feel like you haven't gotten anywhere even if you have. But then I have other people who I know believe in me so that helps me be able to believe in myself. And I have changed a lot through God's grace, but I just wish my parents would notice that a little more. True, I hate it when I find out that a good friend is getting walked all over. It's just that my parents are always acting like they want to help and talk about anything and that they won't judge and that kind of thing, but I feel like that's not completely true and that I can't do that when there's so much they were never even aware of. Like, they have no idea how bad I was depressed and everything, or, if they did notice, they didn't do anything about it. And yeah, I know I don't tell stuff to just anyone because I have to trust them enough first that they really care and that they won't feel terrible on account of knowing all about my problems. So I think you're right with that. Mhm. God will never leave us or forsake us. :) That's one thing we can be sure of. Yeah, and then my brother had some crazy idea to record this video thing with our food and so I had to wait to eat until we had finished... lol It was kinda ridiculous. Oh, I see. It just sounded like a bad city or something. But I know crime has picked up a lot more around here recently; our church was robbed at one point. But it's mostly homes and churches getting hit when the criminals think no one's there, not people attacking others. And that's pretty sad. Apparently some people grow drugs around here in their cornfields and never get caught. lol Well, I'm a vampire actually, but I wouldn't have expected you to know that. :P ...Well, actually I just don't have the motivation to go bed most of the time and take care of myself unless I have something to do in the morning earlier than 11 which isn't very often. lol But I had a job interview yesterday, so maybe I'll get a job and have to wake up in the morning and thus actually go to bed before 4 or so in the morning. lol So, it's not like I can't sleep if I try, although I know how that can feel. But I truly am somewhat of a night owl, so I guess it's kinda cool. reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah and I adore that song, and I agree with you 100%. I always felt uncomfortable being different from people but when I started going to my youth and I saw how different all of the people there were it made me realize that just because others don’t like my differences God loves them and it really opened my eyes I guess. But yah.:] And yah I know that, and I hate when I feel like I haven’t gotten anywhere, it makes me just fall back into old habits and stuff, but I’ve been getting better at not doing that. And yah its great you have people who believe in you and help you also believe in yourself because you deserve that. And I’am really sorry your parents have noticed how much youve changed, I hope they will eventually see that. But yah, thats one thing I don’t like about my parents, they always say I can trust them and they will listen but they never actually do. And yah, I dont know, I always thought the reason my parents never mentioned depression to me or whatever is because they didnt want to think that I had problems, but I dont know. I really hoped they would at least acknowledge it. I’am sorry your parents didnt notice or show they noticed either because I know how that feels and I hope you got the help you need. :] And yah, same, besides just trusting them I feel horrible with them knowing about my issues because I feel like they might worry about me too much or it would trouble them so I have got into habit of not telling them as much as I use to. But no matter what I do know that I have Jesus with me and yah he never does forsake us. :] And oh haha, record the food? I would die, whether If I was hungry or not I love food. :P And yah, when I tell people where I live they always think I live in a city and they are surprised I live in a small town haha. And wow. That reminds me our youth group got robbed for the second time a couple nights ago. And wow, its sad knowing that the world is getting, like, meaner. You know? More criminals and stuff. Its sad and kind of scary:P WOAH. I would have never guessed you were a vampire. This is a big shock. I dont know if I can handle it lol. And oh wow. I picture you just laying in bed but the lights still on and even though you are really tired you dont want to get up to turn the light off so you just stay up a few more hours lol. And thats cool, if you dont mind me asking what did you apply for? And yah, I can tell you are a night owl. Its pretty obvious now lol :P reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Oh you've heard it? :) Yeah, I guess it's because we want acceptance from other people so bad that we can't be ourselves or have trouble following Jesus because we're afraid of how it will look to others. But, yeah, God does love us the way we are and wants us to become more like Him in our own unique way. It's really cool the way God showed you that kind of thing. Mhm, I know I have, but when other people refuse to see it it makes me feel as if I haven't, you know? But I have done that plenty of times myself. Gone back to those old habits that I was in the process of breaking free from, mostly because I didn't feel like all the effort was worth anything when I was treated the exact same way. I've done better with that though, and I'm glad you have too. Maybe they will one day, I don't know. They are kinda controlling anyway, so maybe it just seems like they still hold stuff against me when they're being normal. I know they think they're doing it for my own good, I just think the whole sheltering thing is way overdone... I find it very hard to talk with my parents and it's usually more of a one-sided "sermon" and then they're like, "Don't you have anything to say?" But when they think they're right and it seems like they believe they in no way could be wrong or misunderstanding, I just can't defend myself against that... Don't even try usually. That's quite possible. Ignore it because they don't want to believe it... My parents probably noticed to some extent, but didn't have a clue how bad it was and I guess it just hurt that they never tried hard enough to figure out what was wrong. Maybe I wouldn't have talked to them, and they probably said nothing because they knew that, but I wish I could say they tried... True, it makes you feel like a burden to dump stuff on others. My best friend is really amazing though in that she will know when I'm not ok and basically force me to tell her what's going on even if I try to avoid it. Of course, she's not always around to talk to, but I'm really thankful for her and try to be the same way for her. Glad you've found that out. :) Well, he had some movie idea where we were arguing over the food or something? I'm sure it was ridiculous, and he never edited it so I almost died for nothing... lol :P Yeah, it's really sad, especially when people have such deadened consciences that they don't care if they're stealing from a youth group or church... but, I guess it just shows what happens as more and more people reject God. lol Well, please don't faint or anything out of shock... lol One of my sisters said I kinda look like Edward Cullen... well, when I stick my hair up. lol haha Well, no I fall asleep with the lights on if I'm tired enough. So, it's more like I stay on my laptop in the dark until my eyes just shut out of exhaustion. It's some kind of a hardwood store. I'm not sure of what all they do, but I think besides selling a bunch of wood products, they may also do some installation, like of wood paneling, flooring, trim, doors, etc. I'm always taken off guard when someone says something is obvious about me. lol. It's like I need to be more secretive. lol :P reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah, my youth group played it a few times:] And that is spot on. That is exactly why I have had the hardest time with my differences and I get scared of what others will think of me. But yah, it helps knowing God loves us and accepts us no matter what. And yah I know, and its so frustrating that they don't see it. :| And yah, I’am sorry you’ve had that issue you too with going back into old habits but its good you're getting better at not going back too.:] Yah, and I use to have controlling parents but I don't know what happened this past year its like they just stopped caring about anything I do which is nice but also sad. But yah, I mean its nice to have sheltering parents when youre growing up and when you're younger but when you start to get older you need to be trusted and allowed more freedom so you have a better idea of the real world and so you can learn to hold a bigger responsibility and I think more parents should realize that there kid isn't a kid forever but I dont know, thats how I see it. And wow, the one-sided part sounds a lot like what my parents do. I know how that is and a lot of times they think they understand the situation and they just don't get it and they dont let you explain it further because they know they're right and blah :P But I’am sorry your parents are like that, hopefully they will loosen up a bit eventually. And yah, no matter how little the problem is they shouldn't ignore it because its still a problem so I’am sorry they did ignore it. And yah sometimes you just want people to try, whether they fail or not its nice to know they're still at least trying. And its awesome you have a friend like that who cares for you so much and notices when youre down and stuff. Thats just really amazing, and its good you try to do the same for her:] And oh ok, that sounds funny xD but I’am sorry you died for nothing lol. And yah, I never understand why people steal from a church. Well actually its wrong to steal t all but why out of all places a church? lol And I haven't fainted yet lol. And omg haha, I guess you just need to roll in glitter and you will have the whole look down. And oh well then I was off lol. Okay then so you just kind of stay up till you pass out lol. Oh thats pretty cool, it sounds like a job that would keep you pretty busy, I guess haha. And oh, I’am sorry if it bothered you then. You just keep saying you stay up till like 3 in the morning so yah, I was guessing that you were a night owl but okay then. :P reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Huh, I wonder what happened to change your parents. That is pretty sad when you think about it (even though it would be nice at first), because I guess the controlling at least helps you know they still care even if they go about it in wrong ways sometimes. And I know my parents mean it for good, but I think you're right that you have to learn how to live in the real world and sure you'll make some mistakes along the way if your parents stop being as sheltering, but you'll never be prepared for real life otherwise. I'm sure it's hard to know how to be a parent though, so I guess we should give them some slack. I don't know if they will or not, since I've been 18 for nearly a year and nothing ever really changed even thought I'm "legal". But, I guess I'll have to learn how to get along better, even thought I find it terribly difficult to talk with them. Yeah, it just bothers me a lot because they act like they want to be involved now and like I can and should tell them anything, but they weren't interested enough when I really needed someone, or else I just didn't notice... Anyway, I'm glad I got through but that's part of why things aren't the best between us and they of course don't know that. Yeah, it is awesome. Today it seemed like we both really needed each other to talk to about all the crappy stuff going on in our lives. It helps a lot to just let it out, and she's the only one who I can tell some things to. I guess it is kinda funny in retrospect. lol Just would take a lot to get me to do it again probably. Yeah, I know it's wrong period, but it seems so much worse that they would rob a church... lol Maybe so, except I can't exactly run like lightning or anything either. lol Yeah, I don't know if I'll be hired or not, but it seemed like it would be pretty decent. Oh, no it doesn't bother me. lol I just was teasing. I was just curious if it was because I would say how late I stayed up, or something else that made you guess it. lol It's chill. reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah, I don't know what happened, I just know they just stopped caring all of a sudden. But yah, even with them letting me do whatever I want and not caring I still didn't do anything, I don't know....Yes, I mean we need some experience, and exactly, I mean if you do happen to make some simple mistakes i just stops you from making them again while you're older. But yah, I guess there really isn't a perfect parent. Hm, even with you being 18 they are strict with you? My parents are kind of strict with my brother who is 18, stricter than they are with me which is weird but I don't know. lol. And oh yah, And plus if you are 18 it seems like they would have tried getting like closer to you while you were younger, but yah I don’t blame you. Its hard to build something with people when they weren’t there for you when you needed them. I’am glad you got what you did get through though even if you didn't have your parents. Yah that is awesome haha. Its always nice to have that person you can just let it all out to, especially for me when I’ve been holding everything in and I just need let someone know. But its really cool you have each other thats awesome. I hope you guys manage to have one another in your lives forever its sounds like you guys are really good for each other, if that makes sense lol. And yah I know, out of everywhere why a church? But we have a lot of electronics in there. I guess they stole the 2 wii’s, an electric guitar, laptop, tv, and then they just trashed the place but I guess they got them on camera which is good. Ooh yah I forgot Vampires are supposed to run like super speed. Yah, It would be a good place to get started for money or what not I guess lol. And oh okay good, I didn't want to upset you lol. And yah it was because you always seem to be up real super late. lol reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Well, I'm sorry about that because it doens't help with how you feel about yourself when people, especially family, stop caring. :/ Mhm, I mean, you can learn some things from other people who have been through stuff, but some things you can only learn the hard way. Yeah, they are rather strict and controlling. Not really allowed to do much and can't anyway since I don't have my licence because they can't pay the additional insurance and I can't without a job. But, hey, I'll be starting at the place I told you about on Monday, so I should finally be able to get somewhere. But, anyway, I think my parents did when I was younger, but stopped as much when I started to shut them out because they didn't know how to deal with that, and I guess I can't blame them for that. Yeah, it wouldn't bother me so much except that they don't even know why I can't talk to them now, and I don't really want to tell them, so I end up feeling like maybe it's my problem. Yeah, she asked me once if I'd ever leave her like almost everyone else has. So I hope we'll still be able to talk all our lives, even if we go separate ways. I think we are good for each other, even though it's amazing that we even became friends because we're really different. lol. Yeah, that's what they went for at our church. Took remotes, the whole sound system, and a really expensive projector, among other things. No idea who did it or anything. Well, I don't get upset too easily, unless I overthink people's reactions or something, that can be bad bc I can't let it go and imagine the worst. lol Well, I guess I'll have to go to bed earlier because of my new job... not sure how hard that will be to get used to... lol reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Thanks and I know, but I do have some pretty good friends who I know care about me, even if they don’t show it haha. So I’am thankful for them. And exactly some things can only be learned the rough way. Wow, that sucks. But maybe since you got that job (congrats by the way) they will realize that youre responsible and maybe they will stop being so strict with you. And oh yah, that makes sense for why they stopped, but still they should have at least attempted or done something, I dont know but yah. From what youve told me I dont really think it is your fault, I mean youre the child (well I guess not anymore but still) and they should be the ones trying to communicate with you, or at least thats how I see it, I dont really know if that makes sense though. Yeah, you guys sound like amazing friends, and really good friends always manage to keep in touch so I bet you will. And hey, they do say that opposites attract lol. And oh yah, that really sucks, but I guess it makes sense why someone might steal from a church because most churches have a lot of expensive things and a lot of the time no one is there. I hope it doesnt happen again though. And yah I know that, I always manage to twist things to make them negative. ITs one of my worst habits :P And oooh yah, I’am sorry. lol. Youll have to actually have some type of a sleep schedule now lol. reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Well, that's a good thing, although it's nicer if people actually show it. But at least you have some. Thanks, maybe after awhile it'll change some and I'll be able to have some more freedom and they won't mind me doing stuff as much because I'll be able to drive myself places. I don't know... I don't want to say I'm not at all at fault for how things are, but then too, sometimes I take blame that isn't really mine, so I don't know. I guess it doesn't matter so much "who's fault" it is. I certainly hope so; I'm not going to drop out of her life as long as she lets me be there for her. Yes, this is true. But I guess I didn't know that works for friends as well as other relationships you'd normally think of when you hear that saying. Yeah, it does. But it wasn't too bad because the sound system was really ancient and we needed a new one, and insurance covered the projector and stuff. And now we have an alarm system, so it's pretty unlikely it'll happen again. Oh, yeah, I'm a natural pessimist too. Eeyore could be my nickname. lol. Yeah, speaking of which, I should go to bed soon so I won't be dead my first day. reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah its better than not having anybody I guess. haha. :] Yah, I hope they will start seeing that you’re responsible now that you have a job and stuff. Yah, I tend to do that too, for me it just feels like its easier to just blame myself rather then realize that its someone elses fault. I dont know if that makes sense but i don't know. Yah, maybe it doesn't matter whose fault it is it just matters that someday you and your parents will be able to fix the problem. And yah, I always think that its impossible to lose touch with someone who has helped you so much unless something dramatic happened between the 2 people. And yah lol, Whenever I hear that saying I think of a boyfriend girlfriend type relationship when I hear that but ive seen people who are complete opposites be the best of friends, so ya lol. Oh well thats good. I guess that kind of is proof that good things come after the bad lol, but yah its good the church got new, better things. Yah same haha, we just had some school assembly about having a “Tigger” attitude rather than an “Eeyore” one, and it was horrible for me because I will never have a Tigger attitude lol. And oh, how did the first day go? haha, Ive been responding really slow. reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Well, hey, I care about you, and maybe that shows a little. lol But it's not like you've ever met me or anything, so it's different. It kinda makes sense... or it's like you don't want to go through all the trouble of explaining to make yourself sound better... Or you feel like you're viewed in a bad light no matter what, so you might as well look as bad as possible... even though that's not a good thing to think, of course. lol Well, it depends on both people. I know people that were "best friends" that barely keep up with each other anymore. But that was one of them deciding to be nasty all of the sudden for no apparent reason. But I don't think either my best friend or me would ever do that to the other. Of course, it's supposed to be likely that best friends of opposite genders would end up "liking" each other. lol hahhaha, that sounds kinda like a funny talk though. But maybe it made you feel guilty or something, idk. It was better than I expected because I was kinda nervous. I ended up working 6 days though, which was maybe a little much for my first week, and I quite wore myself out, plus I was sick all week, but I made it and I'm still alive, ha. Kinda, anyway. But I think it'll work out pretty good for me, so I'll not complain. I'll just be glad once I get paid for all those 44 hours. lol Yeah, a little slow. :P But that's ok. I now remember what it's like to be busy. ha. And I took a day or two to finish writing a response, so I'll let it slide. :P reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Naw, yay. :’] someone cares for me. lol I care for you too, its like the internet care you know? When you don't know each other but you still do know each other lol. And yah, I know that, no matter what I Always feel like I’am explaining myself bad so I usually just dont even try and let them assume whatever, which yah is bad lol. and oh, yah, that must have been terrible. Reminds me when I was friends with someone for years then they turned really mean and I felt like I never really knew them at all, or that someone thing was wrong with me or something. Anyway yah, I sure hope one of you turn nasty and end up splitting up your friendship, but I doubt that would happen, from what you've told me it seems like you guys have helped each other so much, it seems like even if you stopped talking for a period of time you guys would eventually start talking to each other again cause you needed each other. I dont know thats what happens in the books! lol and yah it seems like opposite gendered friends always fall for each other, but yah. Kinda did lol. And oh, wow. Thats really good though, your first week was completely packed, I guess it also shows them youre a hard worker too. Its good youre still alive though, it would be terrible to die your first week of work lol. And yes money. Thats the best part, that probably sounds greedy but I jsut like being able to have money on me lol. And yah, the reason the past few weeks I have been like major slow at replying is because 2 teachers now have forgotten to put my assignments in the gradebook so I have 5 science packets to do, even though I already did them, got A’s on them, then threw them away 2 weeks later. Uhg but I guess its my fault because I still threw them away. Ill try to get faster though. reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
Mhmmm. :) Well I never put a lot of stock in getting to know someone completely on the internet, and of course you have to be kinda careful with that lol, but I've really enjoyed getting to know you and found that it was really nice after all. Yeah, sounds like me. lol Plus I can't even speak coherently half the time. ha. Yeah, I felt so bad for my friend for being ditched like that by her "best friend". That must've been really awful, and made you really confused and depressed. Well, my best friend was one of the ones that went through "Josiah withdrawal" when I was visiting relatives, so no, I don't think we could just stop talking for very long and be able to stand it. Yeah, I guess it's something to be thankful for considering our economy and how difficult it was to for me to find anything. So, its good that they can use me that much, even though I'm not experienced... or used to working that much. lol Get paid tomorrow finally for last week. Yay. lol It'll just be nice to see something good coming out of all those hours of time. And I have to pay for gas anyway, so. Well, that must've been extremely upsetting. :/ And gave you a lot of extra work you didn't need. But you can respond whenever you get the chance. I can't be on as much either because I'm gone all day and then get home and am too tired to do much besides watch a movie or something. lol. reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
Yah, I usually dont get to know many people on the internet, I dont know why it bothers me to know that people I dont know, knows who I’am.. Ive only actually talked to about 3 people and actually got to know them. I have actually been talking to this one girl for 5 years now, she is like a best friend haha. But yah, its really nice to talk to you and kind of get to know you. And yah same here lol. Yah, thats horrible. I just always think you're going to be friends with someone forever and I get so bothered when friends break up, even though thats how it mostly goes. And yeah, it did. I didnt know why he would just do that, and I still dont but I’am trying to just forget about it. :P And omg thats so hilarious haha, if thats how your friendship is then its definitely a good one. :D And yah, its really lucky of you, and then you get the moola, lol, to me its always nicer to work hard for money then to have handed to you. So yah. :] And yah, it was horrible lol, but I just got the last paper finished so maybe I can start responding at least every day, and I’am actually half watching a movie now lol reply
J0s14h
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1 decade ago
I guess because they could be anyone and not necessarily who they say they are? It's ok to not just trust anyone on the internet. lol But that's really cool you found someone that you love talking to so much. I think I usually miss her more than she misses me if we can't talk, but oh well, I probably am too attached or something. But she tries to make me take care of myself... lol haha, Yes, this is true. I spent most of last week's paycheck on a shopping splurge, but I'll try to save most of it from here on out. lol And yes, I always grew up learning that I guess, because we have such a big family and never were given whatever we want like some spoiled kids. lol And never got allowances or anything like that. So, we had to work to get money if we wanted something. So, I guess it's ingrained in me now. Sorry you had so much to do, and yah if I would reply every day, then you could too. I've been insanely tired myself and had too much to do to write a reply very soon. But, practically all of my friends have been extremely busy lately. lol One took two weeks off of school for a mission trip to Africa, and now she's trying to catch up on her work. My best friend had 8 days off of school recovering from a surgery, so she had stuff to catch up on... Everyone is so busy. Including me, for once. ...Oh, goodness. Ok, so I was completely falling asleep as I was trying to write some of this at 4 in the morning. And my finger was resting on "j" apparently.... I typed about a million of them. lol And then I didn't finish writing the rest until today. Movie... sounds like a good idea. :P reply
Jahyvie
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1 decade ago
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DUDE. There is like a little birthday present by your username its awesome haha. :D reply
Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
shoot shoot shoot. I was going to text you but I forgot my phone in my locker. ASDFGHJKL I'AM SORRY. BNDFKNkzxdkjzcvjnzdj I'am so stupid lol
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Wheeling · 1 decade ago
It's all good. xD everyone forgets things.
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah, I usually dont get to know many people on the internet, I dont know why it bothers me to know that people I dont know, knows who I’am.. Ive only actually talked to about 3 people and actually got to know them. I have actually been talking to this one girl for 5 years now, she is like a best friend haha. But yah, its really nice to talk to you and kind of get to know you. And yah same here lol. Yah, thats horrible. I just always think you're going to be friends with someone forever and I get so bothered when friends break up, even though thats how it mostly goes. And yeah, it did. I didnt know why he would just do that, and I still dont but I’am trying to just forget about it. :P And omg thats so hilarious haha, if thats how your friendship is then its definitely a good one. :D And yah, its really lucky of you, and then you get the moola, lol, to me its always nicer to work hard for money then to have handed to you. So yah. :] And yah, it was horrible lol, but I just got the last paper finished so maybe I can start responding at least every day, and I’am actually half watching a movie now lol
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
I guess because they could be anyone and not necessarily who they say they are? It's ok to not just trust anyone on the internet. lol But that's really cool you found someone that you love talking to so much. I think I usually miss her more than she misses me if we can't talk, but oh well, I probably am too attached or something. But she tries to make me take care of myself... lol haha, Yes, this is true. I spent most of last week's paycheck on a shopping splurge, but I'll try to save most of it from here on out. lol And yes, I always grew up learning that I guess, because we have such a big family and never were given whatever we want like some spoiled kids. lol And never got allowances or anything like that. So, we had to work to get money if we wanted something. So, I guess it's ingrained in me now. Sorry you had so much to do, and yah if I would reply every day, then you could too. I've been insanely tired myself and had too much to do to write a reply very soon. But, practically all of my friends have been extremely busy lately. lol One took two weeks off of school for a mission trip to Africa, and now she's trying to catch up on her work. My best friend had 8 days off of school recovering from a surgery, so she had stuff to catch up on... Everyone is so busy. Including me, for once. ...Oh, goodness. Ok, so I was completely falling asleep as I was trying to write some of this at 4 in the morning. And my finger was resting on "j" apparently.... I typed about a million of them. lol And then I didn't finish writing the rest until today. Movie... sounds like a good idea. :P
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Oh haha its okay, and sorry it took so long to respond. Ive been busy. Oh okay, thats fine haha. My number is 5416700026. Its really late at night where I live right now so I will probably text ya later. :D
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Wheeling · 1 decade ago
Okay. :D
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
shoot shoot shoot. I was going to text you but I forgot my phone in my locker. ASDFGHJKL I'AM SORRY. BNDFKNkzxdkjzcvjnzdj I'am so stupid lol
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Wheeling · 1 decade ago
It's all good. xD everyone forgets things.
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Oh yah, and thanks that means a lot :D aha, and yah I have a cell phone, if thats what youre talking about. I can give you my number if you want it :]
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
OH DEAR GOD THE PROFILE PICTURE IAM DYING LOL
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NicolasCage · 1 decade ago
thanks its my fav pic.
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Naw, yay. :’] someone cares for me. lol I care for you too, its like the internet care you know? When you don't know each other but you still do know each other lol. And yah, I know that, no matter what I Always feel like I’am explaining myself bad so I usually just dont even try and let them assume whatever, which yah is bad lol. and oh, yah, that must have been terrible. Reminds me when I was friends with someone for years then they turned really mean and I felt like I never really knew them at all, or that someone thing was wrong with me or something. Anyway yah, I sure hope one of you turn nasty and end up splitting up your friendship, but I doubt that would happen, from what you've told me it seems like you guys have helped each other so much, it seems like even if you stopped talking for a period of time you guys would eventually start talking to each other again cause you needed each other. I dont know thats what happens in the books! lol and yah it seems like opposite gendered friends always fall for each other, but yah. Kinda did lol. And oh, wow. Thats really good though, your first week was completely packed, I guess it also shows them youre a hard worker too. Its good youre still alive though, it would be terrible to die your first week of work lol. And yes money. Thats the best part, that probably sounds greedy but I jsut like being able to have money on me lol. And yah, the reason the past few weeks I have been like major slow at replying is because 2 teachers now have forgotten to put my assignments in the gradebook so I have 5 science packets to do, even though I already did them, got A’s on them, then threw them away 2 weeks later. Uhg but I guess its my fault because I still threw them away. Ill try to get faster though.
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Mhmmm. :) Well I never put a lot of stock in getting to know someone completely on the internet, and of course you have to be kinda careful with that lol, but I've really enjoyed getting to know you and found that it was really nice after all. Yeah, sounds like me. lol Plus I can't even speak coherently half the time. ha. Yeah, I felt so bad for my friend for being ditched like that by her "best friend". That must've been really awful, and made you really confused and depressed. Well, my best friend was one of the ones that went through "Josiah withdrawal" when I was visiting relatives, so no, I don't think we could just stop talking for very long and be able to stand it. Yeah, I guess it's something to be thankful for considering our economy and how difficult it was to for me to find anything. So, its good that they can use me that much, even though I'm not experienced... or used to working that much. lol Get paid tomorrow finally for last week. Yay. lol It'll just be nice to see something good coming out of all those hours of time. And I have to pay for gas anyway, so. Well, that must've been extremely upsetting. :/ And gave you a lot of extra work you didn't need. But you can respond whenever you get the chance. I can't be on as much either because I'm gone all day and then get home and am too tired to do much besides watch a movie or something. lol.
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah, I usually dont get to know many people on the internet, I dont know why it bothers me to know that people I dont know, knows who I’am.. Ive only actually talked to about 3 people and actually got to know them. I have actually been talking to this one girl for 5 years now, she is like a best friend haha. But yah, its really nice to talk to you and kind of get to know you. And yah same here lol. Yah, thats horrible. I just always think you're going to be friends with someone forever and I get so bothered when friends break up, even though thats how it mostly goes. And yeah, it did. I didnt know why he would just do that, and I still dont but I’am trying to just forget about it. :P And omg thats so hilarious haha, if thats how your friendship is then its definitely a good one. :D And yah, its really lucky of you, and then you get the moola, lol, to me its always nicer to work hard for money then to have handed to you. So yah. :] And yah, it was horrible lol, but I just got the last paper finished so maybe I can start responding at least every day, and I’am actually half watching a movie now lol
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
I guess because they could be anyone and not necessarily who they say they are? It's ok to not just trust anyone on the internet. lol But that's really cool you found someone that you love talking to so much. I think I usually miss her more than she misses me if we can't talk, but oh well, I probably am too attached or something. But she tries to make me take care of myself... lol haha, Yes, this is true. I spent most of last week's paycheck on a shopping splurge, but I'll try to save most of it from here on out. lol And yes, I always grew up learning that I guess, because we have such a big family and never were given whatever we want like some spoiled kids. lol And never got allowances or anything like that. So, we had to work to get money if we wanted something. So, I guess it's ingrained in me now. Sorry you had so much to do, and yah if I would reply every day, then you could too. I've been insanely tired myself and had too much to do to write a reply very soon. But, practically all of my friends have been extremely busy lately. lol One took two weeks off of school for a mission trip to Africa, and now she's trying to catch up on her work. My best friend had 8 days off of school recovering from a surgery, so she had stuff to catch up on... Everyone is so busy. Including me, for once. ...Oh, goodness. Ok, so I was completely falling asleep as I was trying to write some of this at 4 in the morning. And my finger was resting on "j" apparently.... I typed about a million of them. lol And then I didn't finish writing the rest until today. Movie... sounds like a good idea. :P
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
KEEP THE BEST DELETE THE REST
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Haha yah same, messages like that make me feel like decent people are still alive. :’] lol. And oh, from that picture I think your hair looks awesome, I love long hair and I just have like shoulder length hair so I always get all jealous lol. And we should definitely start talking and start hating together, and then we shall rule thy world.
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Wheeling · 1 decade ago
I'm really picky about hair. I only like some people's hair. From what I can see in the picture, I like yours! :D Do you have texting or something?
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Oh yah, and thanks that means a lot :D aha, and yah I have a cell phone, if thats what youre talking about. I can give you my number if you want it :]
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
aw aw aw! This isn't creepy its so adorable, gah it made me so happy. I love messages like this. And dude I just read your profile and I’am positive that we are suppose to be friends somehow. You have such an amazing taste in music, and not to mention but I’am jealous of your hair. It looks so long.lol. Also, if you hate everyone too then we can just sit and hate everyone else together. xD
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Wheeling · 1 decade ago
Messages like this make my life a better thing. Haha. I enjoy writing them as well. My hair looks so crappy. It used to look way better. My bangs are all screwy. -.- and yeah. It is long. I want to chop some of if off. Haha. And yes. I need a hating buddy. xD We should start talking brooo.
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Haha yah same, messages like that make me feel like decent people are still alive. :’] lol. And oh, from that picture I think your hair looks awesome, I love long hair and I just have like shoulder length hair so I always get all jealous lol. And we should definitely start talking and start hating together, and then we shall rule thy world.
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Wheeling · 1 decade ago
I'm really picky about hair. I only like some people's hair. From what I can see in the picture, I like yours! :D Do you have texting or something?
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Oh yah, and thanks that means a lot :D aha, and yah I have a cell phone, if thats what youre talking about. I can give you my number if you want it :]
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah its better than not having anybody I guess. haha. :] Yah, I hope they will start seeing that you’re responsible now that you have a job and stuff. Yah, I tend to do that too, for me it just feels like its easier to just blame myself rather then realize that its someone elses fault. I dont know if that makes sense but i don't know. Yah, maybe it doesn't matter whose fault it is it just matters that someday you and your parents will be able to fix the problem. And yah, I always think that its impossible to lose touch with someone who has helped you so much unless something dramatic happened between the 2 people. And yah lol, Whenever I hear that saying I think of a boyfriend girlfriend type relationship when I hear that but ive seen people who are complete opposites be the best of friends, so ya lol. Oh well thats good. I guess that kind of is proof that good things come after the bad lol, but yah its good the church got new, better things. Yah same haha, we just had some school assembly about having a “Tigger” attitude rather than an “Eeyore” one, and it was horrible for me because I will never have a Tigger attitude lol. And oh, how did the first day go? haha, Ive been responding really slow.
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Well, hey, I care about you, and maybe that shows a little. lol But it's not like you've ever met me or anything, so it's different. It kinda makes sense... or it's like you don't want to go through all the trouble of explaining to make yourself sound better... Or you feel like you're viewed in a bad light no matter what, so you might as well look as bad as possible... even though that's not a good thing to think, of course. lol Well, it depends on both people. I know people that were "best friends" that barely keep up with each other anymore. But that was one of them deciding to be nasty all of the sudden for no apparent reason. But I don't think either my best friend or me would ever do that to the other. Of course, it's supposed to be likely that best friends of opposite genders would end up "liking" each other. lol hahhaha, that sounds kinda like a funny talk though. But maybe it made you feel guilty or something, idk. It was better than I expected because I was kinda nervous. I ended up working 6 days though, which was maybe a little much for my first week, and I quite wore myself out, plus I was sick all week, but I made it and I'm still alive, ha. Kinda, anyway. But I think it'll work out pretty good for me, so I'll not complain. I'll just be glad once I get paid for all those 44 hours. lol Yeah, a little slow. :P But that's ok. I now remember what it's like to be busy. ha. And I took a day or two to finish writing a response, so I'll let it slide. :P
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Naw, yay. :’] someone cares for me. lol I care for you too, its like the internet care you know? When you don't know each other but you still do know each other lol. And yah, I know that, no matter what I Always feel like I’am explaining myself bad so I usually just dont even try and let them assume whatever, which yah is bad lol. and oh, yah, that must have been terrible. Reminds me when I was friends with someone for years then they turned really mean and I felt like I never really knew them at all, or that someone thing was wrong with me or something. Anyway yah, I sure hope one of you turn nasty and end up splitting up your friendship, but I doubt that would happen, from what you've told me it seems like you guys have helped each other so much, it seems like even if you stopped talking for a period of time you guys would eventually start talking to each other again cause you needed each other. I dont know thats what happens in the books! lol and yah it seems like opposite gendered friends always fall for each other, but yah. Kinda did lol. And oh, wow. Thats really good though, your first week was completely packed, I guess it also shows them youre a hard worker too. Its good youre still alive though, it would be terrible to die your first week of work lol. And yes money. Thats the best part, that probably sounds greedy but I jsut like being able to have money on me lol. And yah, the reason the past few weeks I have been like major slow at replying is because 2 teachers now have forgotten to put my assignments in the gradebook so I have 5 science packets to do, even though I already did them, got A’s on them, then threw them away 2 weeks later. Uhg but I guess its my fault because I still threw them away. Ill try to get faster though.
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Mhmmm. :) Well I never put a lot of stock in getting to know someone completely on the internet, and of course you have to be kinda careful with that lol, but I've really enjoyed getting to know you and found that it was really nice after all. Yeah, sounds like me. lol Plus I can't even speak coherently half the time. ha. Yeah, I felt so bad for my friend for being ditched like that by her "best friend". That must've been really awful, and made you really confused and depressed. Well, my best friend was one of the ones that went through "Josiah withdrawal" when I was visiting relatives, so no, I don't think we could just stop talking for very long and be able to stand it. Yeah, I guess it's something to be thankful for considering our economy and how difficult it was to for me to find anything. So, its good that they can use me that much, even though I'm not experienced... or used to working that much. lol Get paid tomorrow finally for last week. Yay. lol It'll just be nice to see something good coming out of all those hours of time. And I have to pay for gas anyway, so. Well, that must've been extremely upsetting. :/ And gave you a lot of extra work you didn't need. But you can respond whenever you get the chance. I can't be on as much either because I'm gone all day and then get home and am too tired to do much besides watch a movie or something. lol.
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah, I usually dont get to know many people on the internet, I dont know why it bothers me to know that people I dont know, knows who I’am.. Ive only actually talked to about 3 people and actually got to know them. I have actually been talking to this one girl for 5 years now, she is like a best friend haha. But yah, its really nice to talk to you and kind of get to know you. And yah same here lol. Yah, thats horrible. I just always think you're going to be friends with someone forever and I get so bothered when friends break up, even though thats how it mostly goes. And yeah, it did. I didnt know why he would just do that, and I still dont but I’am trying to just forget about it. :P And omg thats so hilarious haha, if thats how your friendship is then its definitely a good one. :D And yah, its really lucky of you, and then you get the moola, lol, to me its always nicer to work hard for money then to have handed to you. So yah. :] And yah, it was horrible lol, but I just got the last paper finished so maybe I can start responding at least every day, and I’am actually half watching a movie now lol
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
I guess because they could be anyone and not necessarily who they say they are? It's ok to not just trust anyone on the internet. lol But that's really cool you found someone that you love talking to so much. I think I usually miss her more than she misses me if we can't talk, but oh well, I probably am too attached or something. But she tries to make me take care of myself... lol haha, Yes, this is true. I spent most of last week's paycheck on a shopping splurge, but I'll try to save most of it from here on out. lol And yes, I always grew up learning that I guess, because we have such a big family and never were given whatever we want like some spoiled kids. lol And never got allowances or anything like that. So, we had to work to get money if we wanted something. So, I guess it's ingrained in me now. Sorry you had so much to do, and yah if I would reply every day, then you could too. I've been insanely tired myself and had too much to do to write a reply very soon. But, practically all of my friends have been extremely busy lately. lol One took two weeks off of school for a mission trip to Africa, and now she's trying to catch up on her work. My best friend had 8 days off of school recovering from a surgery, so she had stuff to catch up on... Everyone is so busy. Including me, for once. ...Oh, goodness. Ok, so I was completely falling asleep as I was trying to write some of this at 4 in the morning. And my finger was resting on "j" apparently.... I typed about a million of them. lol And then I didn't finish writing the rest until today. Movie... sounds like a good idea. :P
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Aw omg Bless you for saying that darling. It means a lot, truly <3
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Wheeling · 1 decade ago
It's true! :3 Anytime.
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
psh I know you would. I mean come on, you kick me even if i dont kick you first lol. And oh Kami, already has formed her hit list. Well if you need help with the others to kidnap I'am here. Until then Will wait to be kidnapped lol
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Thanks and I know, but I do have some pretty good friends who I know care about me, even if they don’t show it haha. So I’am thankful for them. And exactly some things can only be learned the rough way. Wow, that sucks. But maybe since you got that job (congrats by the way) they will realize that youre responsible and maybe they will stop being so strict with you. And oh yah, that makes sense for why they stopped, but still they should have at least attempted or done something, I dont know but yah. From what youve told me I dont really think it is your fault, I mean youre the child (well I guess not anymore but still) and they should be the ones trying to communicate with you, or at least thats how I see it, I dont really know if that makes sense though. Yeah, you guys sound like amazing friends, and really good friends always manage to keep in touch so I bet you will. And hey, they do say that opposites attract lol. And oh yah, that really sucks, but I guess it makes sense why someone might steal from a church because most churches have a lot of expensive things and a lot of the time no one is there. I hope it doesnt happen again though. And yah I know that, I always manage to twist things to make them negative. ITs one of my worst habits :P And oooh yah, I’am sorry. lol. Youll have to actually have some type of a sleep schedule now lol.
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Well, that's a good thing, although it's nicer if people actually show it. But at least you have some. Thanks, maybe after awhile it'll change some and I'll be able to have some more freedom and they won't mind me doing stuff as much because I'll be able to drive myself places. I don't know... I don't want to say I'm not at all at fault for how things are, but then too, sometimes I take blame that isn't really mine, so I don't know. I guess it doesn't matter so much "who's fault" it is. I certainly hope so; I'm not going to drop out of her life as long as she lets me be there for her. Yes, this is true. But I guess I didn't know that works for friends as well as other relationships you'd normally think of when you hear that saying. Yeah, it does. But it wasn't too bad because the sound system was really ancient and we needed a new one, and insurance covered the projector and stuff. And now we have an alarm system, so it's pretty unlikely it'll happen again. Oh, yeah, I'm a natural pessimist too. Eeyore could be my nickname. lol. Yeah, speaking of which, I should go to bed soon so I won't be dead my first day.
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah its better than not having anybody I guess. haha. :] Yah, I hope they will start seeing that you’re responsible now that you have a job and stuff. Yah, I tend to do that too, for me it just feels like its easier to just blame myself rather then realize that its someone elses fault. I dont know if that makes sense but i don't know. Yah, maybe it doesn't matter whose fault it is it just matters that someday you and your parents will be able to fix the problem. And yah, I always think that its impossible to lose touch with someone who has helped you so much unless something dramatic happened between the 2 people. And yah lol, Whenever I hear that saying I think of a boyfriend girlfriend type relationship when I hear that but ive seen people who are complete opposites be the best of friends, so ya lol. Oh well thats good. I guess that kind of is proof that good things come after the bad lol, but yah its good the church got new, better things. Yah same haha, we just had some school assembly about having a “Tigger” attitude rather than an “Eeyore” one, and it was horrible for me because I will never have a Tigger attitude lol. And oh, how did the first day go? haha, Ive been responding really slow.
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Well, hey, I care about you, and maybe that shows a little. lol But it's not like you've ever met me or anything, so it's different. It kinda makes sense... or it's like you don't want to go through all the trouble of explaining to make yourself sound better... Or you feel like you're viewed in a bad light no matter what, so you might as well look as bad as possible... even though that's not a good thing to think, of course. lol Well, it depends on both people. I know people that were "best friends" that barely keep up with each other anymore. But that was one of them deciding to be nasty all of the sudden for no apparent reason. But I don't think either my best friend or me would ever do that to the other. Of course, it's supposed to be likely that best friends of opposite genders would end up "liking" each other. lol hahhaha, that sounds kinda like a funny talk though. But maybe it made you feel guilty or something, idk. It was better than I expected because I was kinda nervous. I ended up working 6 days though, which was maybe a little much for my first week, and I quite wore myself out, plus I was sick all week, but I made it and I'm still alive, ha. Kinda, anyway. But I think it'll work out pretty good for me, so I'll not complain. I'll just be glad once I get paid for all those 44 hours. lol Yeah, a little slow. :P But that's ok. I now remember what it's like to be busy. ha. And I took a day or two to finish writing a response, so I'll let it slide. :P
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Naw, yay. :’] someone cares for me. lol I care for you too, its like the internet care you know? When you don't know each other but you still do know each other lol. And yah, I know that, no matter what I Always feel like I’am explaining myself bad so I usually just dont even try and let them assume whatever, which yah is bad lol. and oh, yah, that must have been terrible. Reminds me when I was friends with someone for years then they turned really mean and I felt like I never really knew them at all, or that someone thing was wrong with me or something. Anyway yah, I sure hope one of you turn nasty and end up splitting up your friendship, but I doubt that would happen, from what you've told me it seems like you guys have helped each other so much, it seems like even if you stopped talking for a period of time you guys would eventually start talking to each other again cause you needed each other. I dont know thats what happens in the books! lol and yah it seems like opposite gendered friends always fall for each other, but yah. Kinda did lol. And oh, wow. Thats really good though, your first week was completely packed, I guess it also shows them youre a hard worker too. Its good youre still alive though, it would be terrible to die your first week of work lol. And yes money. Thats the best part, that probably sounds greedy but I jsut like being able to have money on me lol. And yah, the reason the past few weeks I have been like major slow at replying is because 2 teachers now have forgotten to put my assignments in the gradebook so I have 5 science packets to do, even though I already did them, got A’s on them, then threw them away 2 weeks later. Uhg but I guess its my fault because I still threw them away. Ill try to get faster though.
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Mhmmm. :) Well I never put a lot of stock in getting to know someone completely on the internet, and of course you have to be kinda careful with that lol, but I've really enjoyed getting to know you and found that it was really nice after all. Yeah, sounds like me. lol Plus I can't even speak coherently half the time. ha. Yeah, I felt so bad for my friend for being ditched like that by her "best friend". That must've been really awful, and made you really confused and depressed. Well, my best friend was one of the ones that went through "Josiah withdrawal" when I was visiting relatives, so no, I don't think we could just stop talking for very long and be able to stand it. Yeah, I guess it's something to be thankful for considering our economy and how difficult it was to for me to find anything. So, its good that they can use me that much, even though I'm not experienced... or used to working that much. lol Get paid tomorrow finally for last week. Yay. lol It'll just be nice to see something good coming out of all those hours of time. And I have to pay for gas anyway, so. Well, that must've been extremely upsetting. :/ And gave you a lot of extra work you didn't need. But you can respond whenever you get the chance. I can't be on as much either because I'm gone all day and then get home and am too tired to do much besides watch a movie or something. lol.
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah, I usually dont get to know many people on the internet, I dont know why it bothers me to know that people I dont know, knows who I’am.. Ive only actually talked to about 3 people and actually got to know them. I have actually been talking to this one girl for 5 years now, she is like a best friend haha. But yah, its really nice to talk to you and kind of get to know you. And yah same here lol. Yah, thats horrible. I just always think you're going to be friends with someone forever and I get so bothered when friends break up, even though thats how it mostly goes. And yeah, it did. I didnt know why he would just do that, and I still dont but I’am trying to just forget about it. :P And omg thats so hilarious haha, if thats how your friendship is then its definitely a good one. :D And yah, its really lucky of you, and then you get the moola, lol, to me its always nicer to work hard for money then to have handed to you. So yah. :] And yah, it was horrible lol, but I just got the last paper finished so maybe I can start responding at least every day, and I’am actually half watching a movie now lol
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
I guess because they could be anyone and not necessarily who they say they are? It's ok to not just trust anyone on the internet. lol But that's really cool you found someone that you love talking to so much. I think I usually miss her more than she misses me if we can't talk, but oh well, I probably am too attached or something. But she tries to make me take care of myself... lol haha, Yes, this is true. I spent most of last week's paycheck on a shopping splurge, but I'll try to save most of it from here on out. lol And yes, I always grew up learning that I guess, because we have such a big family and never were given whatever we want like some spoiled kids. lol And never got allowances or anything like that. So, we had to work to get money if we wanted something. So, I guess it's ingrained in me now. Sorry you had so much to do, and yah if I would reply every day, then you could too. I've been insanely tired myself and had too much to do to write a reply very soon. But, practically all of my friends have been extremely busy lately. lol One took two weeks off of school for a mission trip to Africa, and now she's trying to catch up on her work. My best friend had 8 days off of school recovering from a surgery, so she had stuff to catch up on... Everyone is so busy. Including me, for once. ...Oh, goodness. Ok, so I was completely falling asleep as I was trying to write some of this at 4 in the morning. And my finger was resting on "j" apparently.... I typed about a million of them. lol And then I didn't finish writing the rest until today. Movie... sounds like a good idea. :P
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Aw thank you so much darling that means a lot <3
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah, I don't know what happened, I just know they just stopped caring all of a sudden. But yah, even with them letting me do whatever I want and not caring I still didn't do anything, I don't know....Yes, I mean we need some experience, and exactly, I mean if you do happen to make some simple mistakes i just stops you from making them again while you're older. But yah, I guess there really isn't a perfect parent. Hm, even with you being 18 they are strict with you? My parents are kind of strict with my brother who is 18, stricter than they are with me which is weird but I don't know. lol. And oh yah, And plus if you are 18 it seems like they would have tried getting like closer to you while you were younger, but yah I don’t blame you. Its hard to build something with people when they weren’t there for you when you needed them. I’am glad you got what you did get through though even if you didn't have your parents. Yah that is awesome haha. Its always nice to have that person you can just let it all out to, especially for me when I’ve been holding everything in and I just need let someone know. But its really cool you have each other thats awesome. I hope you guys manage to have one another in your lives forever its sounds like you guys are really good for each other, if that makes sense lol. And yah I know, out of everywhere why a church? But we have a lot of electronics in there. I guess they stole the 2 wii’s, an electric guitar, laptop, tv, and then they just trashed the place but I guess they got them on camera which is good. Ooh yah I forgot Vampires are supposed to run like super speed. Yah, It would be a good place to get started for money or what not I guess lol. And oh okay good, I didn't want to upset you lol. And yah it was because you always seem to be up real super late. lol
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Well, I'm sorry about that because it doens't help with how you feel about yourself when people, especially family, stop caring. :/ Mhm, I mean, you can learn some things from other people who have been through stuff, but some things you can only learn the hard way. Yeah, they are rather strict and controlling. Not really allowed to do much and can't anyway since I don't have my licence because they can't pay the additional insurance and I can't without a job. But, hey, I'll be starting at the place I told you about on Monday, so I should finally be able to get somewhere. But, anyway, I think my parents did when I was younger, but stopped as much when I started to shut them out because they didn't know how to deal with that, and I guess I can't blame them for that. Yeah, it wouldn't bother me so much except that they don't even know why I can't talk to them now, and I don't really want to tell them, so I end up feeling like maybe it's my problem. Yeah, she asked me once if I'd ever leave her like almost everyone else has. So I hope we'll still be able to talk all our lives, even if we go separate ways. I think we are good for each other, even though it's amazing that we even became friends because we're really different. lol. Yeah, that's what they went for at our church. Took remotes, the whole sound system, and a really expensive projector, among other things. No idea who did it or anything. Well, I don't get upset too easily, unless I overthink people's reactions or something, that can be bad bc I can't let it go and imagine the worst. lol Well, I guess I'll have to go to bed earlier because of my new job... not sure how hard that will be to get used to... lol
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Thanks and I know, but I do have some pretty good friends who I know care about me, even if they don’t show it haha. So I’am thankful for them. And exactly some things can only be learned the rough way. Wow, that sucks. But maybe since you got that job (congrats by the way) they will realize that youre responsible and maybe they will stop being so strict with you. And oh yah, that makes sense for why they stopped, but still they should have at least attempted or done something, I dont know but yah. From what youve told me I dont really think it is your fault, I mean youre the child (well I guess not anymore but still) and they should be the ones trying to communicate with you, or at least thats how I see it, I dont really know if that makes sense though. Yeah, you guys sound like amazing friends, and really good friends always manage to keep in touch so I bet you will. And hey, they do say that opposites attract lol. And oh yah, that really sucks, but I guess it makes sense why someone might steal from a church because most churches have a lot of expensive things and a lot of the time no one is there. I hope it doesnt happen again though. And yah I know that, I always manage to twist things to make them negative. ITs one of my worst habits :P And oooh yah, I’am sorry. lol. Youll have to actually have some type of a sleep schedule now lol.
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Well, that's a good thing, although it's nicer if people actually show it. But at least you have some. Thanks, maybe after awhile it'll change some and I'll be able to have some more freedom and they won't mind me doing stuff as much because I'll be able to drive myself places. I don't know... I don't want to say I'm not at all at fault for how things are, but then too, sometimes I take blame that isn't really mine, so I don't know. I guess it doesn't matter so much "who's fault" it is. I certainly hope so; I'm not going to drop out of her life as long as she lets me be there for her. Yes, this is true. But I guess I didn't know that works for friends as well as other relationships you'd normally think of when you hear that saying. Yeah, it does. But it wasn't too bad because the sound system was really ancient and we needed a new one, and insurance covered the projector and stuff. And now we have an alarm system, so it's pretty unlikely it'll happen again. Oh, yeah, I'm a natural pessimist too. Eeyore could be my nickname. lol. Yeah, speaking of which, I should go to bed soon so I won't be dead my first day.
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah its better than not having anybody I guess. haha. :] Yah, I hope they will start seeing that you’re responsible now that you have a job and stuff. Yah, I tend to do that too, for me it just feels like its easier to just blame myself rather then realize that its someone elses fault. I dont know if that makes sense but i don't know. Yah, maybe it doesn't matter whose fault it is it just matters that someday you and your parents will be able to fix the problem. And yah, I always think that its impossible to lose touch with someone who has helped you so much unless something dramatic happened between the 2 people. And yah lol, Whenever I hear that saying I think of a boyfriend girlfriend type relationship when I hear that but ive seen people who are complete opposites be the best of friends, so ya lol. Oh well thats good. I guess that kind of is proof that good things come after the bad lol, but yah its good the church got new, better things. Yah same haha, we just had some school assembly about having a “Tigger” attitude rather than an “Eeyore” one, and it was horrible for me because I will never have a Tigger attitude lol. And oh, how did the first day go? haha, Ive been responding really slow.
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Well, hey, I care about you, and maybe that shows a little. lol But it's not like you've ever met me or anything, so it's different. It kinda makes sense... or it's like you don't want to go through all the trouble of explaining to make yourself sound better... Or you feel like you're viewed in a bad light no matter what, so you might as well look as bad as possible... even though that's not a good thing to think, of course. lol Well, it depends on both people. I know people that were "best friends" that barely keep up with each other anymore. But that was one of them deciding to be nasty all of the sudden for no apparent reason. But I don't think either my best friend or me would ever do that to the other. Of course, it's supposed to be likely that best friends of opposite genders would end up "liking" each other. lol hahhaha, that sounds kinda like a funny talk though. But maybe it made you feel guilty or something, idk. It was better than I expected because I was kinda nervous. I ended up working 6 days though, which was maybe a little much for my first week, and I quite wore myself out, plus I was sick all week, but I made it and I'm still alive, ha. Kinda, anyway. But I think it'll work out pretty good for me, so I'll not complain. I'll just be glad once I get paid for all those 44 hours. lol Yeah, a little slow. :P But that's ok. I now remember what it's like to be busy. ha. And I took a day or two to finish writing a response, so I'll let it slide. :P
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Naw, yay. :’] someone cares for me. lol I care for you too, its like the internet care you know? When you don't know each other but you still do know each other lol. And yah, I know that, no matter what I Always feel like I’am explaining myself bad so I usually just dont even try and let them assume whatever, which yah is bad lol. and oh, yah, that must have been terrible. Reminds me when I was friends with someone for years then they turned really mean and I felt like I never really knew them at all, or that someone thing was wrong with me or something. Anyway yah, I sure hope one of you turn nasty and end up splitting up your friendship, but I doubt that would happen, from what you've told me it seems like you guys have helped each other so much, it seems like even if you stopped talking for a period of time you guys would eventually start talking to each other again cause you needed each other. I dont know thats what happens in the books! lol and yah it seems like opposite gendered friends always fall for each other, but yah. Kinda did lol. And oh, wow. Thats really good though, your first week was completely packed, I guess it also shows them youre a hard worker too. Its good youre still alive though, it would be terrible to die your first week of work lol. And yes money. Thats the best part, that probably sounds greedy but I jsut like being able to have money on me lol. And yah, the reason the past few weeks I have been like major slow at replying is because 2 teachers now have forgotten to put my assignments in the gradebook so I have 5 science packets to do, even though I already did them, got A’s on them, then threw them away 2 weeks later. Uhg but I guess its my fault because I still threw them away. Ill try to get faster though.
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Mhmmm. :) Well I never put a lot of stock in getting to know someone completely on the internet, and of course you have to be kinda careful with that lol, but I've really enjoyed getting to know you and found that it was really nice after all. Yeah, sounds like me. lol Plus I can't even speak coherently half the time. ha. Yeah, I felt so bad for my friend for being ditched like that by her "best friend". That must've been really awful, and made you really confused and depressed. Well, my best friend was one of the ones that went through "Josiah withdrawal" when I was visiting relatives, so no, I don't think we could just stop talking for very long and be able to stand it. Yeah, I guess it's something to be thankful for considering our economy and how difficult it was to for me to find anything. So, its good that they can use me that much, even though I'm not experienced... or used to working that much. lol Get paid tomorrow finally for last week. Yay. lol It'll just be nice to see something good coming out of all those hours of time. And I have to pay for gas anyway, so. Well, that must've been extremely upsetting. :/ And gave you a lot of extra work you didn't need. But you can respond whenever you get the chance. I can't be on as much either because I'm gone all day and then get home and am too tired to do much besides watch a movie or something. lol.
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah, I usually dont get to know many people on the internet, I dont know why it bothers me to know that people I dont know, knows who I’am.. Ive only actually talked to about 3 people and actually got to know them. I have actually been talking to this one girl for 5 years now, she is like a best friend haha. But yah, its really nice to talk to you and kind of get to know you. And yah same here lol. Yah, thats horrible. I just always think you're going to be friends with someone forever and I get so bothered when friends break up, even though thats how it mostly goes. And yeah, it did. I didnt know why he would just do that, and I still dont but I’am trying to just forget about it. :P And omg thats so hilarious haha, if thats how your friendship is then its definitely a good one. :D And yah, its really lucky of you, and then you get the moola, lol, to me its always nicer to work hard for money then to have handed to you. So yah. :] And yah, it was horrible lol, but I just got the last paper finished so maybe I can start responding at least every day, and I’am actually half watching a movie now lol
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
I guess because they could be anyone and not necessarily who they say they are? It's ok to not just trust anyone on the internet. lol But that's really cool you found someone that you love talking to so much. I think I usually miss her more than she misses me if we can't talk, but oh well, I probably am too attached or something. But she tries to make me take care of myself... lol haha, Yes, this is true. I spent most of last week's paycheck on a shopping splurge, but I'll try to save most of it from here on out. lol And yes, I always grew up learning that I guess, because we have such a big family and never were given whatever we want like some spoiled kids. lol And never got allowances or anything like that. So, we had to work to get money if we wanted something. So, I guess it's ingrained in me now. Sorry you had so much to do, and yah if I would reply every day, then you could too. I've been insanely tired myself and had too much to do to write a reply very soon. But, practically all of my friends have been extremely busy lately. lol One took two weeks off of school for a mission trip to Africa, and now she's trying to catch up on her work. My best friend had 8 days off of school recovering from a surgery, so she had stuff to catch up on... Everyone is so busy. Including me, for once. ...Oh, goodness. Ok, so I was completely falling asleep as I was trying to write some of this at 4 in the morning. And my finger was resting on "j" apparently.... I typed about a million of them. lol And then I didn't finish writing the rest until today. Movie... sounds like a good idea. :P
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah, my youth group played it a few times:] And that is spot on. That is exactly why I have had the hardest time with my differences and I get scared of what others will think of me. But yah, it helps knowing God loves us and accepts us no matter what. And yah I know, and its so frustrating that they don't see it. :| And yah, I’am sorry you’ve had that issue you too with going back into old habits but its good you're getting better at not going back too.:] Yah, and I use to have controlling parents but I don't know what happened this past year its like they just stopped caring about anything I do which is nice but also sad. But yah, I mean its nice to have sheltering parents when youre growing up and when you're younger but when you start to get older you need to be trusted and allowed more freedom so you have a better idea of the real world and so you can learn to hold a bigger responsibility and I think more parents should realize that there kid isn't a kid forever but I dont know, thats how I see it. And wow, the one-sided part sounds a lot like what my parents do. I know how that is and a lot of times they think they understand the situation and they just don't get it and they dont let you explain it further because they know they're right and blah :P But I’am sorry your parents are like that, hopefully they will loosen up a bit eventually. And yah, no matter how little the problem is they shouldn't ignore it because its still a problem so I’am sorry they did ignore it. And yah sometimes you just want people to try, whether they fail or not its nice to know they're still at least trying. And its awesome you have a friend like that who cares for you so much and notices when youre down and stuff. Thats just really amazing, and its good you try to do the same for her:] And oh ok, that sounds funny xD but I’am sorry you died for nothing lol. And yah, I never understand why people steal from a church. Well actually its wrong to steal t all but why out of all places a church? lol And I haven't fainted yet lol. And omg haha, I guess you just need to roll in glitter and you will have the whole look down. And oh well then I was off lol. Okay then so you just kind of stay up till you pass out lol. Oh thats pretty cool, it sounds like a job that would keep you pretty busy, I guess haha. And oh, I’am sorry if it bothered you then. You just keep saying you stay up till like 3 in the morning so yah, I was guessing that you were a night owl but okay then. :P
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Huh, I wonder what happened to change your parents. That is pretty sad when you think about it (even though it would be nice at first), because I guess the controlling at least helps you know they still care even if they go about it in wrong ways sometimes. And I know my parents mean it for good, but I think you're right that you have to learn how to live in the real world and sure you'll make some mistakes along the way if your parents stop being as sheltering, but you'll never be prepared for real life otherwise. I'm sure it's hard to know how to be a parent though, so I guess we should give them some slack. I don't know if they will or not, since I've been 18 for nearly a year and nothing ever really changed even thought I'm "legal". But, I guess I'll have to learn how to get along better, even thought I find it terribly difficult to talk with them. Yeah, it just bothers me a lot because they act like they want to be involved now and like I can and should tell them anything, but they weren't interested enough when I really needed someone, or else I just didn't notice... Anyway, I'm glad I got through but that's part of why things aren't the best between us and they of course don't know that. Yeah, it is awesome. Today it seemed like we both really needed each other to talk to about all the crappy stuff going on in our lives. It helps a lot to just let it out, and she's the only one who I can tell some things to. I guess it is kinda funny in retrospect. lol Just would take a lot to get me to do it again probably. Yeah, I know it's wrong period, but it seems so much worse that they would rob a church... lol Maybe so, except I can't exactly run like lightning or anything either. lol Yeah, I don't know if I'll be hired or not, but it seemed like it would be pretty decent. Oh, no it doesn't bother me. lol I just was teasing. I was just curious if it was because I would say how late I stayed up, or something else that made you guess it. lol It's chill.
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah, I don't know what happened, I just know they just stopped caring all of a sudden. But yah, even with them letting me do whatever I want and not caring I still didn't do anything, I don't know....Yes, I mean we need some experience, and exactly, I mean if you do happen to make some simple mistakes i just stops you from making them again while you're older. But yah, I guess there really isn't a perfect parent. Hm, even with you being 18 they are strict with you? My parents are kind of strict with my brother who is 18, stricter than they are with me which is weird but I don't know. lol. And oh yah, And plus if you are 18 it seems like they would have tried getting like closer to you while you were younger, but yah I don’t blame you. Its hard to build something with people when they weren’t there for you when you needed them. I’am glad you got what you did get through though even if you didn't have your parents. Yah that is awesome haha. Its always nice to have that person you can just let it all out to, especially for me when I’ve been holding everything in and I just need let someone know. But its really cool you have each other thats awesome. I hope you guys manage to have one another in your lives forever its sounds like you guys are really good for each other, if that makes sense lol. And yah I know, out of everywhere why a church? But we have a lot of electronics in there. I guess they stole the 2 wii’s, an electric guitar, laptop, tv, and then they just trashed the place but I guess they got them on camera which is good. Ooh yah I forgot Vampires are supposed to run like super speed. Yah, It would be a good place to get started for money or what not I guess lol. And oh okay good, I didn't want to upset you lol. And yah it was because you always seem to be up real super late. lol
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Well, I'm sorry about that because it doens't help with how you feel about yourself when people, especially family, stop caring. :/ Mhm, I mean, you can learn some things from other people who have been through stuff, but some things you can only learn the hard way. Yeah, they are rather strict and controlling. Not really allowed to do much and can't anyway since I don't have my licence because they can't pay the additional insurance and I can't without a job. But, hey, I'll be starting at the place I told you about on Monday, so I should finally be able to get somewhere. But, anyway, I think my parents did when I was younger, but stopped as much when I started to shut them out because they didn't know how to deal with that, and I guess I can't blame them for that. Yeah, it wouldn't bother me so much except that they don't even know why I can't talk to them now, and I don't really want to tell them, so I end up feeling like maybe it's my problem. Yeah, she asked me once if I'd ever leave her like almost everyone else has. So I hope we'll still be able to talk all our lives, even if we go separate ways. I think we are good for each other, even though it's amazing that we even became friends because we're really different. lol. Yeah, that's what they went for at our church. Took remotes, the whole sound system, and a really expensive projector, among other things. No idea who did it or anything. Well, I don't get upset too easily, unless I overthink people's reactions or something, that can be bad bc I can't let it go and imagine the worst. lol Well, I guess I'll have to go to bed earlier because of my new job... not sure how hard that will be to get used to... lol
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Thanks and I know, but I do have some pretty good friends who I know care about me, even if they don’t show it haha. So I’am thankful for them. And exactly some things can only be learned the rough way. Wow, that sucks. But maybe since you got that job (congrats by the way) they will realize that youre responsible and maybe they will stop being so strict with you. And oh yah, that makes sense for why they stopped, but still they should have at least attempted or done something, I dont know but yah. From what youve told me I dont really think it is your fault, I mean youre the child (well I guess not anymore but still) and they should be the ones trying to communicate with you, or at least thats how I see it, I dont really know if that makes sense though. Yeah, you guys sound like amazing friends, and really good friends always manage to keep in touch so I bet you will. And hey, they do say that opposites attract lol. And oh yah, that really sucks, but I guess it makes sense why someone might steal from a church because most churches have a lot of expensive things and a lot of the time no one is there. I hope it doesnt happen again though. And yah I know that, I always manage to twist things to make them negative. ITs one of my worst habits :P And oooh yah, I’am sorry. lol. Youll have to actually have some type of a sleep schedule now lol.
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Well, that's a good thing, although it's nicer if people actually show it. But at least you have some. Thanks, maybe after awhile it'll change some and I'll be able to have some more freedom and they won't mind me doing stuff as much because I'll be able to drive myself places. I don't know... I don't want to say I'm not at all at fault for how things are, but then too, sometimes I take blame that isn't really mine, so I don't know. I guess it doesn't matter so much "who's fault" it is. I certainly hope so; I'm not going to drop out of her life as long as she lets me be there for her. Yes, this is true. But I guess I didn't know that works for friends as well as other relationships you'd normally think of when you hear that saying. Yeah, it does. But it wasn't too bad because the sound system was really ancient and we needed a new one, and insurance covered the projector and stuff. And now we have an alarm system, so it's pretty unlikely it'll happen again. Oh, yeah, I'm a natural pessimist too. Eeyore could be my nickname. lol. Yeah, speaking of which, I should go to bed soon so I won't be dead my first day.
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah its better than not having anybody I guess. haha. :] Yah, I hope they will start seeing that you’re responsible now that you have a job and stuff. Yah, I tend to do that too, for me it just feels like its easier to just blame myself rather then realize that its someone elses fault. I dont know if that makes sense but i don't know. Yah, maybe it doesn't matter whose fault it is it just matters that someday you and your parents will be able to fix the problem. And yah, I always think that its impossible to lose touch with someone who has helped you so much unless something dramatic happened between the 2 people. And yah lol, Whenever I hear that saying I think of a boyfriend girlfriend type relationship when I hear that but ive seen people who are complete opposites be the best of friends, so ya lol. Oh well thats good. I guess that kind of is proof that good things come after the bad lol, but yah its good the church got new, better things. Yah same haha, we just had some school assembly about having a “Tigger” attitude rather than an “Eeyore” one, and it was horrible for me because I will never have a Tigger attitude lol. And oh, how did the first day go? haha, Ive been responding really slow.
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Well, hey, I care about you, and maybe that shows a little. lol But it's not like you've ever met me or anything, so it's different. It kinda makes sense... or it's like you don't want to go through all the trouble of explaining to make yourself sound better... Or you feel like you're viewed in a bad light no matter what, so you might as well look as bad as possible... even though that's not a good thing to think, of course. lol Well, it depends on both people. I know people that were "best friends" that barely keep up with each other anymore. But that was one of them deciding to be nasty all of the sudden for no apparent reason. But I don't think either my best friend or me would ever do that to the other. Of course, it's supposed to be likely that best friends of opposite genders would end up "liking" each other. lol hahhaha, that sounds kinda like a funny talk though. But maybe it made you feel guilty or something, idk. It was better than I expected because I was kinda nervous. I ended up working 6 days though, which was maybe a little much for my first week, and I quite wore myself out, plus I was sick all week, but I made it and I'm still alive, ha. Kinda, anyway. But I think it'll work out pretty good for me, so I'll not complain. I'll just be glad once I get paid for all those 44 hours. lol Yeah, a little slow. :P But that's ok. I now remember what it's like to be busy. ha. And I took a day or two to finish writing a response, so I'll let it slide. :P
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Naw, yay. :’] someone cares for me. lol I care for you too, its like the internet care you know? When you don't know each other but you still do know each other lol. And yah, I know that, no matter what I Always feel like I’am explaining myself bad so I usually just dont even try and let them assume whatever, which yah is bad lol. and oh, yah, that must have been terrible. Reminds me when I was friends with someone for years then they turned really mean and I felt like I never really knew them at all, or that someone thing was wrong with me or something. Anyway yah, I sure hope one of you turn nasty and end up splitting up your friendship, but I doubt that would happen, from what you've told me it seems like you guys have helped each other so much, it seems like even if you stopped talking for a period of time you guys would eventually start talking to each other again cause you needed each other. I dont know thats what happens in the books! lol and yah it seems like opposite gendered friends always fall for each other, but yah. Kinda did lol. And oh, wow. Thats really good though, your first week was completely packed, I guess it also shows them youre a hard worker too. Its good youre still alive though, it would be terrible to die your first week of work lol. And yes money. Thats the best part, that probably sounds greedy but I jsut like being able to have money on me lol. And yah, the reason the past few weeks I have been like major slow at replying is because 2 teachers now have forgotten to put my assignments in the gradebook so I have 5 science packets to do, even though I already did them, got A’s on them, then threw them away 2 weeks later. Uhg but I guess its my fault because I still threw them away. Ill try to get faster though.
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Mhmmm. :) Well I never put a lot of stock in getting to know someone completely on the internet, and of course you have to be kinda careful with that lol, but I've really enjoyed getting to know you and found that it was really nice after all. Yeah, sounds like me. lol Plus I can't even speak coherently half the time. ha. Yeah, I felt so bad for my friend for being ditched like that by her "best friend". That must've been really awful, and made you really confused and depressed. Well, my best friend was one of the ones that went through "Josiah withdrawal" when I was visiting relatives, so no, I don't think we could just stop talking for very long and be able to stand it. Yeah, I guess it's something to be thankful for considering our economy and how difficult it was to for me to find anything. So, its good that they can use me that much, even though I'm not experienced... or used to working that much. lol Get paid tomorrow finally for last week. Yay. lol It'll just be nice to see something good coming out of all those hours of time. And I have to pay for gas anyway, so. Well, that must've been extremely upsetting. :/ And gave you a lot of extra work you didn't need. But you can respond whenever you get the chance. I can't be on as much either because I'm gone all day and then get home and am too tired to do much besides watch a movie or something. lol.
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah, I usually dont get to know many people on the internet, I dont know why it bothers me to know that people I dont know, knows who I’am.. Ive only actually talked to about 3 people and actually got to know them. I have actually been talking to this one girl for 5 years now, she is like a best friend haha. But yah, its really nice to talk to you and kind of get to know you. And yah same here lol. Yah, thats horrible. I just always think you're going to be friends with someone forever and I get so bothered when friends break up, even though thats how it mostly goes. And yeah, it did. I didnt know why he would just do that, and I still dont but I’am trying to just forget about it. :P And omg thats so hilarious haha, if thats how your friendship is then its definitely a good one. :D And yah, its really lucky of you, and then you get the moola, lol, to me its always nicer to work hard for money then to have handed to you. So yah. :] And yah, it was horrible lol, but I just got the last paper finished so maybe I can start responding at least every day, and I’am actually half watching a movie now lol
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
I guess because they could be anyone and not necessarily who they say they are? It's ok to not just trust anyone on the internet. lol But that's really cool you found someone that you love talking to so much. I think I usually miss her more than she misses me if we can't talk, but oh well, I probably am too attached or something. But she tries to make me take care of myself... lol haha, Yes, this is true. I spent most of last week's paycheck on a shopping splurge, but I'll try to save most of it from here on out. lol And yes, I always grew up learning that I guess, because we have such a big family and never were given whatever we want like some spoiled kids. lol And never got allowances or anything like that. So, we had to work to get money if we wanted something. So, I guess it's ingrained in me now. Sorry you had so much to do, and yah if I would reply every day, then you could too. I've been insanely tired myself and had too much to do to write a reply very soon. But, practically all of my friends have been extremely busy lately. lol One took two weeks off of school for a mission trip to Africa, and now she's trying to catch up on her work. My best friend had 8 days off of school recovering from a surgery, so she had stuff to catch up on... Everyone is so busy. Including me, for once. ...Oh, goodness. Ok, so I was completely falling asleep as I was trying to write some of this at 4 in the morning. And my finger was resting on "j" apparently.... I typed about a million of them. lol And then I didn't finish writing the rest until today. Movie... sounds like a good idea. :P
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah and I adore that song, and I agree with you 100%. I always felt uncomfortable being different from people but when I started going to my youth and I saw how different all of the people there were it made me realize that just because others don’t like my differences God loves them and it really opened my eyes I guess. But yah.:] And yah I know that, and I hate when I feel like I haven’t gotten anywhere, it makes me just fall back into old habits and stuff, but I’ve been getting better at not doing that. And yah its great you have people who believe in you and help you also believe in yourself because you deserve that. And I’am really sorry your parents have noticed how much youve changed, I hope they will eventually see that. But yah, thats one thing I don’t like about my parents, they always say I can trust them and they will listen but they never actually do. And yah, I dont know, I always thought the reason my parents never mentioned depression to me or whatever is because they didnt want to think that I had problems, but I dont know. I really hoped they would at least acknowledge it. I’am sorry your parents didnt notice or show they noticed either because I know how that feels and I hope you got the help you need. :] And yah, same, besides just trusting them I feel horrible with them knowing about my issues because I feel like they might worry about me too much or it would trouble them so I have got into habit of not telling them as much as I use to. But no matter what I do know that I have Jesus with me and yah he never does forsake us. :] And oh haha, record the food? I would die, whether If I was hungry or not I love food. :P And yah, when I tell people where I live they always think I live in a city and they are surprised I live in a small town haha. And wow. That reminds me our youth group got robbed for the second time a couple nights ago. And wow, its sad knowing that the world is getting, like, meaner. You know? More criminals and stuff. Its sad and kind of scary:P WOAH. I would have never guessed you were a vampire. This is a big shock. I dont know if I can handle it lol. And oh wow. I picture you just laying in bed but the lights still on and even though you are really tired you dont want to get up to turn the light off so you just stay up a few more hours lol. And thats cool, if you dont mind me asking what did you apply for? And yah, I can tell you are a night owl. Its pretty obvious now lol :P
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Oh you've heard it? :) Yeah, I guess it's because we want acceptance from other people so bad that we can't be ourselves or have trouble following Jesus because we're afraid of how it will look to others. But, yeah, God does love us the way we are and wants us to become more like Him in our own unique way. It's really cool the way God showed you that kind of thing. Mhm, I know I have, but when other people refuse to see it it makes me feel as if I haven't, you know? But I have done that plenty of times myself. Gone back to those old habits that I was in the process of breaking free from, mostly because I didn't feel like all the effort was worth anything when I was treated the exact same way. I've done better with that though, and I'm glad you have too. Maybe they will one day, I don't know. They are kinda controlling anyway, so maybe it just seems like they still hold stuff against me when they're being normal. I know they think they're doing it for my own good, I just think the whole sheltering thing is way overdone... I find it very hard to talk with my parents and it's usually more of a one-sided "sermon" and then they're like, "Don't you have anything to say?" But when they think they're right and it seems like they believe they in no way could be wrong or misunderstanding, I just can't defend myself against that... Don't even try usually. That's quite possible. Ignore it because they don't want to believe it... My parents probably noticed to some extent, but didn't have a clue how bad it was and I guess it just hurt that they never tried hard enough to figure out what was wrong. Maybe I wouldn't have talked to them, and they probably said nothing because they knew that, but I wish I could say they tried... True, it makes you feel like a burden to dump stuff on others. My best friend is really amazing though in that she will know when I'm not ok and basically force me to tell her what's going on even if I try to avoid it. Of course, she's not always around to talk to, but I'm really thankful for her and try to be the same way for her. Glad you've found that out. :) Well, he had some movie idea where we were arguing over the food or something? I'm sure it was ridiculous, and he never edited it so I almost died for nothing... lol :P Yeah, it's really sad, especially when people have such deadened consciences that they don't care if they're stealing from a youth group or church... but, I guess it just shows what happens as more and more people reject God. lol Well, please don't faint or anything out of shock... lol One of my sisters said I kinda look like Edward Cullen... well, when I stick my hair up. lol haha Well, no I fall asleep with the lights on if I'm tired enough. So, it's more like I stay on my laptop in the dark until my eyes just shut out of exhaustion. It's some kind of a hardwood store. I'm not sure of what all they do, but I think besides selling a bunch of wood products, they may also do some installation, like of wood paneling, flooring, trim, doors, etc. I'm always taken off guard when someone says something is obvious about me. lol. It's like I need to be more secretive. lol :P
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah, my youth group played it a few times:] And that is spot on. That is exactly why I have had the hardest time with my differences and I get scared of what others will think of me. But yah, it helps knowing God loves us and accepts us no matter what. And yah I know, and its so frustrating that they don't see it. :| And yah, I’am sorry you’ve had that issue you too with going back into old habits but its good you're getting better at not going back too.:] Yah, and I use to have controlling parents but I don't know what happened this past year its like they just stopped caring about anything I do which is nice but also sad. But yah, I mean its nice to have sheltering parents when youre growing up and when you're younger but when you start to get older you need to be trusted and allowed more freedom so you have a better idea of the real world and so you can learn to hold a bigger responsibility and I think more parents should realize that there kid isn't a kid forever but I dont know, thats how I see it. And wow, the one-sided part sounds a lot like what my parents do. I know how that is and a lot of times they think they understand the situation and they just don't get it and they dont let you explain it further because they know they're right and blah :P But I’am sorry your parents are like that, hopefully they will loosen up a bit eventually. And yah, no matter how little the problem is they shouldn't ignore it because its still a problem so I’am sorry they did ignore it. And yah sometimes you just want people to try, whether they fail or not its nice to know they're still at least trying. And its awesome you have a friend like that who cares for you so much and notices when youre down and stuff. Thats just really amazing, and its good you try to do the same for her:] And oh ok, that sounds funny xD but I’am sorry you died for nothing lol. And yah, I never understand why people steal from a church. Well actually its wrong to steal t all but why out of all places a church? lol And I haven't fainted yet lol. And omg haha, I guess you just need to roll in glitter and you will have the whole look down. And oh well then I was off lol. Okay then so you just kind of stay up till you pass out lol. Oh thats pretty cool, it sounds like a job that would keep you pretty busy, I guess haha. And oh, I’am sorry if it bothered you then. You just keep saying you stay up till like 3 in the morning so yah, I was guessing that you were a night owl but okay then. :P
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Huh, I wonder what happened to change your parents. That is pretty sad when you think about it (even though it would be nice at first), because I guess the controlling at least helps you know they still care even if they go about it in wrong ways sometimes. And I know my parents mean it for good, but I think you're right that you have to learn how to live in the real world and sure you'll make some mistakes along the way if your parents stop being as sheltering, but you'll never be prepared for real life otherwise. I'm sure it's hard to know how to be a parent though, so I guess we should give them some slack. I don't know if they will or not, since I've been 18 for nearly a year and nothing ever really changed even thought I'm "legal". But, I guess I'll have to learn how to get along better, even thought I find it terribly difficult to talk with them. Yeah, it just bothers me a lot because they act like they want to be involved now and like I can and should tell them anything, but they weren't interested enough when I really needed someone, or else I just didn't notice... Anyway, I'm glad I got through but that's part of why things aren't the best between us and they of course don't know that. Yeah, it is awesome. Today it seemed like we both really needed each other to talk to about all the crappy stuff going on in our lives. It helps a lot to just let it out, and she's the only one who I can tell some things to. I guess it is kinda funny in retrospect. lol Just would take a lot to get me to do it again probably. Yeah, I know it's wrong period, but it seems so much worse that they would rob a church... lol Maybe so, except I can't exactly run like lightning or anything either. lol Yeah, I don't know if I'll be hired or not, but it seemed like it would be pretty decent. Oh, no it doesn't bother me. lol I just was teasing. I was just curious if it was because I would say how late I stayed up, or something else that made you guess it. lol It's chill.
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah, I don't know what happened, I just know they just stopped caring all of a sudden. But yah, even with them letting me do whatever I want and not caring I still didn't do anything, I don't know....Yes, I mean we need some experience, and exactly, I mean if you do happen to make some simple mistakes i just stops you from making them again while you're older. But yah, I guess there really isn't a perfect parent. Hm, even with you being 18 they are strict with you? My parents are kind of strict with my brother who is 18, stricter than they are with me which is weird but I don't know. lol. And oh yah, And plus if you are 18 it seems like they would have tried getting like closer to you while you were younger, but yah I don’t blame you. Its hard to build something with people when they weren’t there for you when you needed them. I’am glad you got what you did get through though even if you didn't have your parents. Yah that is awesome haha. Its always nice to have that person you can just let it all out to, especially for me when I’ve been holding everything in and I just need let someone know. But its really cool you have each other thats awesome. I hope you guys manage to have one another in your lives forever its sounds like you guys are really good for each other, if that makes sense lol. And yah I know, out of everywhere why a church? But we have a lot of electronics in there. I guess they stole the 2 wii’s, an electric guitar, laptop, tv, and then they just trashed the place but I guess they got them on camera which is good. Ooh yah I forgot Vampires are supposed to run like super speed. Yah, It would be a good place to get started for money or what not I guess lol. And oh okay good, I didn't want to upset you lol. And yah it was because you always seem to be up real super late. lol
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Well, I'm sorry about that because it doens't help with how you feel about yourself when people, especially family, stop caring. :/ Mhm, I mean, you can learn some things from other people who have been through stuff, but some things you can only learn the hard way. Yeah, they are rather strict and controlling. Not really allowed to do much and can't anyway since I don't have my licence because they can't pay the additional insurance and I can't without a job. But, hey, I'll be starting at the place I told you about on Monday, so I should finally be able to get somewhere. But, anyway, I think my parents did when I was younger, but stopped as much when I started to shut them out because they didn't know how to deal with that, and I guess I can't blame them for that. Yeah, it wouldn't bother me so much except that they don't even know why I can't talk to them now, and I don't really want to tell them, so I end up feeling like maybe it's my problem. Yeah, she asked me once if I'd ever leave her like almost everyone else has. So I hope we'll still be able to talk all our lives, even if we go separate ways. I think we are good for each other, even though it's amazing that we even became friends because we're really different. lol. Yeah, that's what they went for at our church. Took remotes, the whole sound system, and a really expensive projector, among other things. No idea who did it or anything. Well, I don't get upset too easily, unless I overthink people's reactions or something, that can be bad bc I can't let it go and imagine the worst. lol Well, I guess I'll have to go to bed earlier because of my new job... not sure how hard that will be to get used to... lol
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Thanks and I know, but I do have some pretty good friends who I know care about me, even if they don’t show it haha. So I’am thankful for them. And exactly some things can only be learned the rough way. Wow, that sucks. But maybe since you got that job (congrats by the way) they will realize that youre responsible and maybe they will stop being so strict with you. And oh yah, that makes sense for why they stopped, but still they should have at least attempted or done something, I dont know but yah. From what youve told me I dont really think it is your fault, I mean youre the child (well I guess not anymore but still) and they should be the ones trying to communicate with you, or at least thats how I see it, I dont really know if that makes sense though. Yeah, you guys sound like amazing friends, and really good friends always manage to keep in touch so I bet you will. And hey, they do say that opposites attract lol. And oh yah, that really sucks, but I guess it makes sense why someone might steal from a church because most churches have a lot of expensive things and a lot of the time no one is there. I hope it doesnt happen again though. And yah I know that, I always manage to twist things to make them negative. ITs one of my worst habits :P And oooh yah, I’am sorry. lol. Youll have to actually have some type of a sleep schedule now lol.
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Well, that's a good thing, although it's nicer if people actually show it. But at least you have some. Thanks, maybe after awhile it'll change some and I'll be able to have some more freedom and they won't mind me doing stuff as much because I'll be able to drive myself places. I don't know... I don't want to say I'm not at all at fault for how things are, but then too, sometimes I take blame that isn't really mine, so I don't know. I guess it doesn't matter so much "who's fault" it is. I certainly hope so; I'm not going to drop out of her life as long as she lets me be there for her. Yes, this is true. But I guess I didn't know that works for friends as well as other relationships you'd normally think of when you hear that saying. Yeah, it does. But it wasn't too bad because the sound system was really ancient and we needed a new one, and insurance covered the projector and stuff. And now we have an alarm system, so it's pretty unlikely it'll happen again. Oh, yeah, I'm a natural pessimist too. Eeyore could be my nickname. lol. Yeah, speaking of which, I should go to bed soon so I won't be dead my first day.
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah its better than not having anybody I guess. haha. :] Yah, I hope they will start seeing that you’re responsible now that you have a job and stuff. Yah, I tend to do that too, for me it just feels like its easier to just blame myself rather then realize that its someone elses fault. I dont know if that makes sense but i don't know. Yah, maybe it doesn't matter whose fault it is it just matters that someday you and your parents will be able to fix the problem. And yah, I always think that its impossible to lose touch with someone who has helped you so much unless something dramatic happened between the 2 people. And yah lol, Whenever I hear that saying I think of a boyfriend girlfriend type relationship when I hear that but ive seen people who are complete opposites be the best of friends, so ya lol. Oh well thats good. I guess that kind of is proof that good things come after the bad lol, but yah its good the church got new, better things. Yah same haha, we just had some school assembly about having a “Tigger” attitude rather than an “Eeyore” one, and it was horrible for me because I will never have a Tigger attitude lol. And oh, how did the first day go? haha, Ive been responding really slow.
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Well, hey, I care about you, and maybe that shows a little. lol But it's not like you've ever met me or anything, so it's different. It kinda makes sense... or it's like you don't want to go through all the trouble of explaining to make yourself sound better... Or you feel like you're viewed in a bad light no matter what, so you might as well look as bad as possible... even though that's not a good thing to think, of course. lol Well, it depends on both people. I know people that were "best friends" that barely keep up with each other anymore. But that was one of them deciding to be nasty all of the sudden for no apparent reason. But I don't think either my best friend or me would ever do that to the other. Of course, it's supposed to be likely that best friends of opposite genders would end up "liking" each other. lol hahhaha, that sounds kinda like a funny talk though. But maybe it made you feel guilty or something, idk. It was better than I expected because I was kinda nervous. I ended up working 6 days though, which was maybe a little much for my first week, and I quite wore myself out, plus I was sick all week, but I made it and I'm still alive, ha. Kinda, anyway. But I think it'll work out pretty good for me, so I'll not complain. I'll just be glad once I get paid for all those 44 hours. lol Yeah, a little slow. :P But that's ok. I now remember what it's like to be busy. ha. And I took a day or two to finish writing a response, so I'll let it slide. :P
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Naw, yay. :’] someone cares for me. lol I care for you too, its like the internet care you know? When you don't know each other but you still do know each other lol. And yah, I know that, no matter what I Always feel like I’am explaining myself bad so I usually just dont even try and let them assume whatever, which yah is bad lol. and oh, yah, that must have been terrible. Reminds me when I was friends with someone for years then they turned really mean and I felt like I never really knew them at all, or that someone thing was wrong with me or something. Anyway yah, I sure hope one of you turn nasty and end up splitting up your friendship, but I doubt that would happen, from what you've told me it seems like you guys have helped each other so much, it seems like even if you stopped talking for a period of time you guys would eventually start talking to each other again cause you needed each other. I dont know thats what happens in the books! lol and yah it seems like opposite gendered friends always fall for each other, but yah. Kinda did lol. And oh, wow. Thats really good though, your first week was completely packed, I guess it also shows them youre a hard worker too. Its good youre still alive though, it would be terrible to die your first week of work lol. And yes money. Thats the best part, that probably sounds greedy but I jsut like being able to have money on me lol. And yah, the reason the past few weeks I have been like major slow at replying is because 2 teachers now have forgotten to put my assignments in the gradebook so I have 5 science packets to do, even though I already did them, got A’s on them, then threw them away 2 weeks later. Uhg but I guess its my fault because I still threw them away. Ill try to get faster though.
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Mhmmm. :) Well I never put a lot of stock in getting to know someone completely on the internet, and of course you have to be kinda careful with that lol, but I've really enjoyed getting to know you and found that it was really nice after all. Yeah, sounds like me. lol Plus I can't even speak coherently half the time. ha. Yeah, I felt so bad for my friend for being ditched like that by her "best friend". That must've been really awful, and made you really confused and depressed. Well, my best friend was one of the ones that went through "Josiah withdrawal" when I was visiting relatives, so no, I don't think we could just stop talking for very long and be able to stand it. Yeah, I guess it's something to be thankful for considering our economy and how difficult it was to for me to find anything. So, its good that they can use me that much, even though I'm not experienced... or used to working that much. lol Get paid tomorrow finally for last week. Yay. lol It'll just be nice to see something good coming out of all those hours of time. And I have to pay for gas anyway, so. Well, that must've been extremely upsetting. :/ And gave you a lot of extra work you didn't need. But you can respond whenever you get the chance. I can't be on as much either because I'm gone all day and then get home and am too tired to do much besides watch a movie or something. lol.
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah, I usually dont get to know many people on the internet, I dont know why it bothers me to know that people I dont know, knows who I’am.. Ive only actually talked to about 3 people and actually got to know them. I have actually been talking to this one girl for 5 years now, she is like a best friend haha. But yah, its really nice to talk to you and kind of get to know you. And yah same here lol. Yah, thats horrible. I just always think you're going to be friends with someone forever and I get so bothered when friends break up, even though thats how it mostly goes. And yeah, it did. I didnt know why he would just do that, and I still dont but I’am trying to just forget about it. :P And omg thats so hilarious haha, if thats how your friendship is then its definitely a good one. :D And yah, its really lucky of you, and then you get the moola, lol, to me its always nicer to work hard for money then to have handed to you. So yah. :] And yah, it was horrible lol, but I just got the last paper finished so maybe I can start responding at least every day, and I’am actually half watching a movie now lol
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
I guess because they could be anyone and not necessarily who they say they are? It's ok to not just trust anyone on the internet. lol But that's really cool you found someone that you love talking to so much. I think I usually miss her more than she misses me if we can't talk, but oh well, I probably am too attached or something. But she tries to make me take care of myself... lol haha, Yes, this is true. I spent most of last week's paycheck on a shopping splurge, but I'll try to save most of it from here on out. lol And yes, I always grew up learning that I guess, because we have such a big family and never were given whatever we want like some spoiled kids. lol And never got allowances or anything like that. So, we had to work to get money if we wanted something. So, I guess it's ingrained in me now. Sorry you had so much to do, and yah if I would reply every day, then you could too. I've been insanely tired myself and had too much to do to write a reply very soon. But, practically all of my friends have been extremely busy lately. lol One took two weeks off of school for a mission trip to Africa, and now she's trying to catch up on her work. My best friend had 8 days off of school recovering from a surgery, so she had stuff to catch up on... Everyone is so busy. Including me, for once. ...Oh, goodness. Ok, so I was completely falling asleep as I was trying to write some of this at 4 in the morning. And my finger was resting on "j" apparently.... I typed about a million of them. lol And then I didn't finish writing the rest until today. Movie... sounds like a good idea. :P
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Hey I just wanted to stop buy and say sorry about whats going on your quote. I don't completely agree with it but I still hate the fact the people are commenting such rude things just because your opinion contrast's theirs. Don't let it get to you too much some people just cant accept others opinions. :]
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darkeyeangel · 1 decade ago
Your support means the world :)
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah, and thats good that you try to be as good as possible and follow Jesus, even if it is different. I think more people should be more like that. And exactly, when people keep bringing up what you use to do and what happened it makes it harder to move on, and by just talking to you now it seems like you’re a very nice person and changed yourself from whatever it was you did. And I its fine, its good you are trying not to let people walk all over you. Its unhealthy to be in situations like that. And yah, I know how that is. Its really hard to give people chances but exactly, some people can’t handle the responsibility of knowing a lot of personal things about another person, or maybe they are just curious and don’t really care what actually goes on, they just want to know. I dont know, thats what I see. but yah, I’am so happy he never gives up on us no matter what. And same for me, I don’t even know if I would be here today without him. Its just so reassuring to know that when everyone else gives up on you He is always there, no matter how big of a struggle. And oh wow, I would imagine you would be pretty sore from that and very tired haha. And actually no the nearest city is somewhere around 80 miles away. I live in a small town and then there are bigger towns around us but there are a lot of potheads where we live. THats what we are known for actually:\ and then we have, like, a lot of mental health people who are messed up from a bunch of different drugs and then on top of that we have the most lazy cops. So yah, haha. Not the best place to live, but there are still some nice people around. And oh lol, okay then. :] And yah, thats why, but I try to reply as fast as possible. And what? How were you not tired? Are you like superhuman and no matter how tired you get you cant still not sleep. Uhg that just seems so impossible. Even after a party and such. Thats awesome, oh wait though, I guess it would kind of suck to be tired and not to be able to sleep. So I’am sorry I guess. hmm.
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Yeah, it's the best way to be different. I love "Stranger in this Land" by Robert Pierre and it kinda talks about that concept. It can be hard sometimes because you feel like people think you're odd and you stick out and as humans we don't like that, but it's worth any of that. Yeah, it makes you feel like you haven't gotten anywhere even if you have. But then I have other people who I know believe in me so that helps me be able to believe in myself. And I have changed a lot through God's grace, but I just wish my parents would notice that a little more. True, I hate it when I find out that a good friend is getting walked all over. It's just that my parents are always acting like they want to help and talk about anything and that they won't judge and that kind of thing, but I feel like that's not completely true and that I can't do that when there's so much they were never even aware of. Like, they have no idea how bad I was depressed and everything, or, if they did notice, they didn't do anything about it. And yeah, I know I don't tell stuff to just anyone because I have to trust them enough first that they really care and that they won't feel terrible on account of knowing all about my problems. So I think you're right with that. Mhm. God will never leave us or forsake us. :) That's one thing we can be sure of. Yeah, and then my brother had some crazy idea to record this video thing with our food and so I had to wait to eat until we had finished... lol It was kinda ridiculous. Oh, I see. It just sounded like a bad city or something. But I know crime has picked up a lot more around here recently; our church was robbed at one point. But it's mostly homes and churches getting hit when the criminals think no one's there, not people attacking others. And that's pretty sad. Apparently some people grow drugs around here in their cornfields and never get caught. lol Well, I'm a vampire actually, but I wouldn't have expected you to know that. :P ...Well, actually I just don't have the motivation to go bed most of the time and take care of myself unless I have something to do in the morning earlier than 11 which isn't very often. lol But I had a job interview yesterday, so maybe I'll get a job and have to wake up in the morning and thus actually go to bed before 4 or so in the morning. lol So, it's not like I can't sleep if I try, although I know how that can feel. But I truly am somewhat of a night owl, so I guess it's kinda cool.
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah and I adore that song, and I agree with you 100%. I always felt uncomfortable being different from people but when I started going to my youth and I saw how different all of the people there were it made me realize that just because others don’t like my differences God loves them and it really opened my eyes I guess. But yah.:] And yah I know that, and I hate when I feel like I haven’t gotten anywhere, it makes me just fall back into old habits and stuff, but I’ve been getting better at not doing that. And yah its great you have people who believe in you and help you also believe in yourself because you deserve that. And I’am really sorry your parents have noticed how much youve changed, I hope they will eventually see that. But yah, thats one thing I don’t like about my parents, they always say I can trust them and they will listen but they never actually do. And yah, I dont know, I always thought the reason my parents never mentioned depression to me or whatever is because they didnt want to think that I had problems, but I dont know. I really hoped they would at least acknowledge it. I’am sorry your parents didnt notice or show they noticed either because I know how that feels and I hope you got the help you need. :] And yah, same, besides just trusting them I feel horrible with them knowing about my issues because I feel like they might worry about me too much or it would trouble them so I have got into habit of not telling them as much as I use to. But no matter what I do know that I have Jesus with me and yah he never does forsake us. :] And oh haha, record the food? I would die, whether If I was hungry or not I love food. :P And yah, when I tell people where I live they always think I live in a city and they are surprised I live in a small town haha. And wow. That reminds me our youth group got robbed for the second time a couple nights ago. And wow, its sad knowing that the world is getting, like, meaner. You know? More criminals and stuff. Its sad and kind of scary:P WOAH. I would have never guessed you were a vampire. This is a big shock. I dont know if I can handle it lol. And oh wow. I picture you just laying in bed but the lights still on and even though you are really tired you dont want to get up to turn the light off so you just stay up a few more hours lol. And thats cool, if you dont mind me asking what did you apply for? And yah, I can tell you are a night owl. Its pretty obvious now lol :P
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Oh you've heard it? :) Yeah, I guess it's because we want acceptance from other people so bad that we can't be ourselves or have trouble following Jesus because we're afraid of how it will look to others. But, yeah, God does love us the way we are and wants us to become more like Him in our own unique way. It's really cool the way God showed you that kind of thing. Mhm, I know I have, but when other people refuse to see it it makes me feel as if I haven't, you know? But I have done that plenty of times myself. Gone back to those old habits that I was in the process of breaking free from, mostly because I didn't feel like all the effort was worth anything when I was treated the exact same way. I've done better with that though, and I'm glad you have too. Maybe they will one day, I don't know. They are kinda controlling anyway, so maybe it just seems like they still hold stuff against me when they're being normal. I know they think they're doing it for my own good, I just think the whole sheltering thing is way overdone... I find it very hard to talk with my parents and it's usually more of a one-sided "sermon" and then they're like, "Don't you have anything to say?" But when they think they're right and it seems like they believe they in no way could be wrong or misunderstanding, I just can't defend myself against that... Don't even try usually. That's quite possible. Ignore it because they don't want to believe it... My parents probably noticed to some extent, but didn't have a clue how bad it was and I guess it just hurt that they never tried hard enough to figure out what was wrong. Maybe I wouldn't have talked to them, and they probably said nothing because they knew that, but I wish I could say they tried... True, it makes you feel like a burden to dump stuff on others. My best friend is really amazing though in that she will know when I'm not ok and basically force me to tell her what's going on even if I try to avoid it. Of course, she's not always around to talk to, but I'm really thankful for her and try to be the same way for her. Glad you've found that out. :) Well, he had some movie idea where we were arguing over the food or something? I'm sure it was ridiculous, and he never edited it so I almost died for nothing... lol :P Yeah, it's really sad, especially when people have such deadened consciences that they don't care if they're stealing from a youth group or church... but, I guess it just shows what happens as more and more people reject God. lol Well, please don't faint or anything out of shock... lol One of my sisters said I kinda look like Edward Cullen... well, when I stick my hair up. lol haha Well, no I fall asleep with the lights on if I'm tired enough. So, it's more like I stay on my laptop in the dark until my eyes just shut out of exhaustion. It's some kind of a hardwood store. I'm not sure of what all they do, but I think besides selling a bunch of wood products, they may also do some installation, like of wood paneling, flooring, trim, doors, etc. I'm always taken off guard when someone says something is obvious about me. lol. It's like I need to be more secretive. lol :P
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah, my youth group played it a few times:] And that is spot on. That is exactly why I have had the hardest time with my differences and I get scared of what others will think of me. But yah, it helps knowing God loves us and accepts us no matter what. And yah I know, and its so frustrating that they don't see it. :| And yah, I’am sorry you’ve had that issue you too with going back into old habits but its good you're getting better at not going back too.:] Yah, and I use to have controlling parents but I don't know what happened this past year its like they just stopped caring about anything I do which is nice but also sad. But yah, I mean its nice to have sheltering parents when youre growing up and when you're younger but when you start to get older you need to be trusted and allowed more freedom so you have a better idea of the real world and so you can learn to hold a bigger responsibility and I think more parents should realize that there kid isn't a kid forever but I dont know, thats how I see it. And wow, the one-sided part sounds a lot like what my parents do. I know how that is and a lot of times they think they understand the situation and they just don't get it and they dont let you explain it further because they know they're right and blah :P But I’am sorry your parents are like that, hopefully they will loosen up a bit eventually. And yah, no matter how little the problem is they shouldn't ignore it because its still a problem so I’am sorry they did ignore it. And yah sometimes you just want people to try, whether they fail or not its nice to know they're still at least trying. And its awesome you have a friend like that who cares for you so much and notices when youre down and stuff. Thats just really amazing, and its good you try to do the same for her:] And oh ok, that sounds funny xD but I’am sorry you died for nothing lol. And yah, I never understand why people steal from a church. Well actually its wrong to steal t all but why out of all places a church? lol And I haven't fainted yet lol. And omg haha, I guess you just need to roll in glitter and you will have the whole look down. And oh well then I was off lol. Okay then so you just kind of stay up till you pass out lol. Oh thats pretty cool, it sounds like a job that would keep you pretty busy, I guess haha. And oh, I’am sorry if it bothered you then. You just keep saying you stay up till like 3 in the morning so yah, I was guessing that you were a night owl but okay then. :P
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Huh, I wonder what happened to change your parents. That is pretty sad when you think about it (even though it would be nice at first), because I guess the controlling at least helps you know they still care even if they go about it in wrong ways sometimes. And I know my parents mean it for good, but I think you're right that you have to learn how to live in the real world and sure you'll make some mistakes along the way if your parents stop being as sheltering, but you'll never be prepared for real life otherwise. I'm sure it's hard to know how to be a parent though, so I guess we should give them some slack. I don't know if they will or not, since I've been 18 for nearly a year and nothing ever really changed even thought I'm "legal". But, I guess I'll have to learn how to get along better, even thought I find it terribly difficult to talk with them. Yeah, it just bothers me a lot because they act like they want to be involved now and like I can and should tell them anything, but they weren't interested enough when I really needed someone, or else I just didn't notice... Anyway, I'm glad I got through but that's part of why things aren't the best between us and they of course don't know that. Yeah, it is awesome. Today it seemed like we both really needed each other to talk to about all the crappy stuff going on in our lives. It helps a lot to just let it out, and she's the only one who I can tell some things to. I guess it is kinda funny in retrospect. lol Just would take a lot to get me to do it again probably. Yeah, I know it's wrong period, but it seems so much worse that they would rob a church... lol Maybe so, except I can't exactly run like lightning or anything either. lol Yeah, I don't know if I'll be hired or not, but it seemed like it would be pretty decent. Oh, no it doesn't bother me. lol I just was teasing. I was just curious if it was because I would say how late I stayed up, or something else that made you guess it. lol It's chill.
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah, I don't know what happened, I just know they just stopped caring all of a sudden. But yah, even with them letting me do whatever I want and not caring I still didn't do anything, I don't know....Yes, I mean we need some experience, and exactly, I mean if you do happen to make some simple mistakes i just stops you from making them again while you're older. But yah, I guess there really isn't a perfect parent. Hm, even with you being 18 they are strict with you? My parents are kind of strict with my brother who is 18, stricter than they are with me which is weird but I don't know. lol. And oh yah, And plus if you are 18 it seems like they would have tried getting like closer to you while you were younger, but yah I don’t blame you. Its hard to build something with people when they weren’t there for you when you needed them. I’am glad you got what you did get through though even if you didn't have your parents. Yah that is awesome haha. Its always nice to have that person you can just let it all out to, especially for me when I’ve been holding everything in and I just need let someone know. But its really cool you have each other thats awesome. I hope you guys manage to have one another in your lives forever its sounds like you guys are really good for each other, if that makes sense lol. And yah I know, out of everywhere why a church? But we have a lot of electronics in there. I guess they stole the 2 wii’s, an electric guitar, laptop, tv, and then they just trashed the place but I guess they got them on camera which is good. Ooh yah I forgot Vampires are supposed to run like super speed. Yah, It would be a good place to get started for money or what not I guess lol. And oh okay good, I didn't want to upset you lol. And yah it was because you always seem to be up real super late. lol
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Well, I'm sorry about that because it doens't help with how you feel about yourself when people, especially family, stop caring. :/ Mhm, I mean, you can learn some things from other people who have been through stuff, but some things you can only learn the hard way. Yeah, they are rather strict and controlling. Not really allowed to do much and can't anyway since I don't have my licence because they can't pay the additional insurance and I can't without a job. But, hey, I'll be starting at the place I told you about on Monday, so I should finally be able to get somewhere. But, anyway, I think my parents did when I was younger, but stopped as much when I started to shut them out because they didn't know how to deal with that, and I guess I can't blame them for that. Yeah, it wouldn't bother me so much except that they don't even know why I can't talk to them now, and I don't really want to tell them, so I end up feeling like maybe it's my problem. Yeah, she asked me once if I'd ever leave her like almost everyone else has. So I hope we'll still be able to talk all our lives, even if we go separate ways. I think we are good for each other, even though it's amazing that we even became friends because we're really different. lol. Yeah, that's what they went for at our church. Took remotes, the whole sound system, and a really expensive projector, among other things. No idea who did it or anything. Well, I don't get upset too easily, unless I overthink people's reactions or something, that can be bad bc I can't let it go and imagine the worst. lol Well, I guess I'll have to go to bed earlier because of my new job... not sure how hard that will be to get used to... lol
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Thanks and I know, but I do have some pretty good friends who I know care about me, even if they don’t show it haha. So I’am thankful for them. And exactly some things can only be learned the rough way. Wow, that sucks. But maybe since you got that job (congrats by the way) they will realize that youre responsible and maybe they will stop being so strict with you. And oh yah, that makes sense for why they stopped, but still they should have at least attempted or done something, I dont know but yah. From what youve told me I dont really think it is your fault, I mean youre the child (well I guess not anymore but still) and they should be the ones trying to communicate with you, or at least thats how I see it, I dont really know if that makes sense though. Yeah, you guys sound like amazing friends, and really good friends always manage to keep in touch so I bet you will. And hey, they do say that opposites attract lol. And oh yah, that really sucks, but I guess it makes sense why someone might steal from a church because most churches have a lot of expensive things and a lot of the time no one is there. I hope it doesnt happen again though. And yah I know that, I always manage to twist things to make them negative. ITs one of my worst habits :P And oooh yah, I’am sorry. lol. Youll have to actually have some type of a sleep schedule now lol.
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Well, that's a good thing, although it's nicer if people actually show it. But at least you have some. Thanks, maybe after awhile it'll change some and I'll be able to have some more freedom and they won't mind me doing stuff as much because I'll be able to drive myself places. I don't know... I don't want to say I'm not at all at fault for how things are, but then too, sometimes I take blame that isn't really mine, so I don't know. I guess it doesn't matter so much "who's fault" it is. I certainly hope so; I'm not going to drop out of her life as long as she lets me be there for her. Yes, this is true. But I guess I didn't know that works for friends as well as other relationships you'd normally think of when you hear that saying. Yeah, it does. But it wasn't too bad because the sound system was really ancient and we needed a new one, and insurance covered the projector and stuff. And now we have an alarm system, so it's pretty unlikely it'll happen again. Oh, yeah, I'm a natural pessimist too. Eeyore could be my nickname. lol. Yeah, speaking of which, I should go to bed soon so I won't be dead my first day.
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah its better than not having anybody I guess. haha. :] Yah, I hope they will start seeing that you’re responsible now that you have a job and stuff. Yah, I tend to do that too, for me it just feels like its easier to just blame myself rather then realize that its someone elses fault. I dont know if that makes sense but i don't know. Yah, maybe it doesn't matter whose fault it is it just matters that someday you and your parents will be able to fix the problem. And yah, I always think that its impossible to lose touch with someone who has helped you so much unless something dramatic happened between the 2 people. And yah lol, Whenever I hear that saying I think of a boyfriend girlfriend type relationship when I hear that but ive seen people who are complete opposites be the best of friends, so ya lol. Oh well thats good. I guess that kind of is proof that good things come after the bad lol, but yah its good the church got new, better things. Yah same haha, we just had some school assembly about having a “Tigger” attitude rather than an “Eeyore” one, and it was horrible for me because I will never have a Tigger attitude lol. And oh, how did the first day go? haha, Ive been responding really slow.
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Well, hey, I care about you, and maybe that shows a little. lol But it's not like you've ever met me or anything, so it's different. It kinda makes sense... or it's like you don't want to go through all the trouble of explaining to make yourself sound better... Or you feel like you're viewed in a bad light no matter what, so you might as well look as bad as possible... even though that's not a good thing to think, of course. lol Well, it depends on both people. I know people that were "best friends" that barely keep up with each other anymore. But that was one of them deciding to be nasty all of the sudden for no apparent reason. But I don't think either my best friend or me would ever do that to the other. Of course, it's supposed to be likely that best friends of opposite genders would end up "liking" each other. lol hahhaha, that sounds kinda like a funny talk though. But maybe it made you feel guilty or something, idk. It was better than I expected because I was kinda nervous. I ended up working 6 days though, which was maybe a little much for my first week, and I quite wore myself out, plus I was sick all week, but I made it and I'm still alive, ha. Kinda, anyway. But I think it'll work out pretty good for me, so I'll not complain. I'll just be glad once I get paid for all those 44 hours. lol Yeah, a little slow. :P But that's ok. I now remember what it's like to be busy. ha. And I took a day or two to finish writing a response, so I'll let it slide. :P
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Naw, yay. :’] someone cares for me. lol I care for you too, its like the internet care you know? When you don't know each other but you still do know each other lol. And yah, I know that, no matter what I Always feel like I’am explaining myself bad so I usually just dont even try and let them assume whatever, which yah is bad lol. and oh, yah, that must have been terrible. Reminds me when I was friends with someone for years then they turned really mean and I felt like I never really knew them at all, or that someone thing was wrong with me or something. Anyway yah, I sure hope one of you turn nasty and end up splitting up your friendship, but I doubt that would happen, from what you've told me it seems like you guys have helped each other so much, it seems like even if you stopped talking for a period of time you guys would eventually start talking to each other again cause you needed each other. I dont know thats what happens in the books! lol and yah it seems like opposite gendered friends always fall for each other, but yah. Kinda did lol. And oh, wow. Thats really good though, your first week was completely packed, I guess it also shows them youre a hard worker too. Its good youre still alive though, it would be terrible to die your first week of work lol. And yes money. Thats the best part, that probably sounds greedy but I jsut like being able to have money on me lol. And yah, the reason the past few weeks I have been like major slow at replying is because 2 teachers now have forgotten to put my assignments in the gradebook so I have 5 science packets to do, even though I already did them, got A’s on them, then threw them away 2 weeks later. Uhg but I guess its my fault because I still threw them away. Ill try to get faster though.
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
Mhmmm. :) Well I never put a lot of stock in getting to know someone completely on the internet, and of course you have to be kinda careful with that lol, but I've really enjoyed getting to know you and found that it was really nice after all. Yeah, sounds like me. lol Plus I can't even speak coherently half the time. ha. Yeah, I felt so bad for my friend for being ditched like that by her "best friend". That must've been really awful, and made you really confused and depressed. Well, my best friend was one of the ones that went through "Josiah withdrawal" when I was visiting relatives, so no, I don't think we could just stop talking for very long and be able to stand it. Yeah, I guess it's something to be thankful for considering our economy and how difficult it was to for me to find anything. So, its good that they can use me that much, even though I'm not experienced... or used to working that much. lol Get paid tomorrow finally for last week. Yay. lol It'll just be nice to see something good coming out of all those hours of time. And I have to pay for gas anyway, so. Well, that must've been extremely upsetting. :/ And gave you a lot of extra work you didn't need. But you can respond whenever you get the chance. I can't be on as much either because I'm gone all day and then get home and am too tired to do much besides watch a movie or something. lol.
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
Yah, I usually dont get to know many people on the internet, I dont know why it bothers me to know that people I dont know, knows who I’am.. Ive only actually talked to about 3 people and actually got to know them. I have actually been talking to this one girl for 5 years now, she is like a best friend haha. But yah, its really nice to talk to you and kind of get to know you. And yah same here lol. Yah, thats horrible. I just always think you're going to be friends with someone forever and I get so bothered when friends break up, even though thats how it mostly goes. And yeah, it did. I didnt know why he would just do that, and I still dont but I’am trying to just forget about it. :P And omg thats so hilarious haha, if thats how your friendship is then its definitely a good one. :D And yah, its really lucky of you, and then you get the moola, lol, to me its always nicer to work hard for money then to have handed to you. So yah. :] And yah, it was horrible lol, but I just got the last paper finished so maybe I can start responding at least every day, and I’am actually half watching a movie now lol
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J0s14h · 1 decade ago
I guess because they could be anyone and not necessarily who they say they are? It's ok to not just trust anyone on the internet. lol But that's really cool you found someone that you love talking to so much. I think I usually miss her more than she misses me if we can't talk, but oh well, I probably am too attached or something. But she tries to make me take care of myself... lol haha, Yes, this is true. I spent most of last week's paycheck on a shopping splurge, but I'll try to save most of it from here on out. lol And yes, I always grew up learning that I guess, because we have such a big family and never were given whatever we want like some spoiled kids. lol And never got allowances or anything like that. So, we had to work to get money if we wanted something. So, I guess it's ingrained in me now. Sorry you had so much to do, and yah if I would reply every day, then you could too. I've been insanely tired myself and had too much to do to write a reply very soon. But, practically all of my friends have been extremely busy lately. lol One took two weeks off of school for a mission trip to Africa, and now she's trying to catch up on her work. My best friend had 8 days off of school recovering from a surgery, so she had stuff to catch up on... Everyone is so busy. Including me, for once. ...Oh, goodness. Ok, so I was completely falling asleep as I was trying to write some of this at 4 in the morning. And my finger was resting on "j" apparently.... I typed about a million of them. lol And then I didn't finish writing the rest until today. Movie... sounds like a good idea. :P
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Jahyvie · 1 decade ago
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DUDE. There is like a little birthday present by your username its awesome haha. :D
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