Theres this boy i know, Jacob. Hes literally a brother too me. He knows everything about me, he's helped me through everything, and stuck around when other people didn't. And he wants to die. He tried to kill himself. I always give him advice, tell him to be strong and not give in, but once i heard he tried to jump, i couldn't be strong for him, i sat on the phone to him crying, i couldnt breath, i was listening to the most important person to me that they have nothing to live for. Hes the best boy ive ever met and i love him more than anyone, if i lost him, i wouldn't want to live, i wouldn't be able to but i don't know how to make him see that people would miss him and that things will change. He deserves a good life and he will have one, and i want to help him but i dont know how long he will last. I wish he understood what an impact he has on this world, he changed my life. I would probably be dead if it wasn't for him, when ever i needed someone he was right there and if he wasn't, i'd be alone. I dont want to be alone, and i especially don't want him to die. I want to be there for him but i just don't know what to do. Hes amazing, everything about him. He tries to do whats best for everyone else all the time, always trying to make other people happy, to make them laugh and smile and give them the best time, its hard to see him so weak, to see him so close to taking his own life. I just wish he could see how this is hurting me, i want him to give me time to prove it will all be okay and that ill never leave. I couldnt say one bad thing about him, but he thinks theres everything wrong with him. There isn't. Not one thing. I promised him, when on the phone, that i would help him through and make it all okay, now all i have to do is prove it. But i know what its like to be on the other side, to want to die and no matter what anyone else says they can't change your mind, once you set yourself thinking nothing else will help, nothing except suiside will. I know theres still time to help him but can someone please help me? He wont go to hospital and he wont listen when i say i need him. If you read all that thank you so much.
-just needed a vent.
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