Im never good enough
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I wasnt good enough to make the volleyball team,
I wasnt good enough to be in drama club,
I wasnt good enough to be in the school musical,
Im never good enough.
Today i found out i didnt make the musical, and i was really sad about it. And not one of my friends asked me what was wrong. Or even noticed. I kinda just wanted one of them to ask me whats wrong. Even though i would have said nothing im fine. Its just.. it would be nice to know that they cared. But no one even cared enough to notice. I wasnt try to be attention seeking or fishing for compliements. I just wanted to know that at least one of them cared. I was just so heart broken. Not making the musical tore me apart. It was the one thing i was looking forward to in highschool. And now i cant do it. It was the entire reason i didnt go to technical hightschool in my town. I wanted this more then anything. And whats worse is (not to sound concieted) but i know people who did worse then i did that made it in. People who didnt try and didnt care got in. Then there is me who tried my very best and really cared. But i didn get in. At first i was like its fine im only a freshman, because my friend who also didnt make it was cry and i had to comfort her. Then i got to thinking... I want good enough to make the volleyball team, or drama club. And now im not golod enough to make the musical. Plus my brother is super smart so he always gets fantastic grades and im like i get good grades too. But dose anyone care? No because my brother will always be smarter. IM not good at anything. Im ok at soccer. IM okay at volleyball. Im an okay singer. Im okay in school.IM not good at ANYTHING. And that makes me sad.
Sorry i needed to get it out
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