I'm scared.
I think something's seriously wrong with me. Like, psychological. I was just on YouTube looking at this video about a girl with schizophrenia, and everything she said I completely related to. I know that I'm not normal, but I never thought of myself as not right in the head. I don't think I have schizophrenia. At least, I hope I don't. Not only do I have the hallucinations, though, but a lot of times I'm in my own world. I've tried to explain it to tons of people, but no one understands. I've heard that sometimes the hallucinations tell you to hurt yourself and your family. Guys, I'm really scared. I don't want to hurt anyone. I know this sounds childish, but I have imaginary friends (four main ones) and I'm afraid that they'll make me hurt someone. I don't want to tell Mom or Dad, they'll think I want attention or something. They won't think I'm serious. And even if they do believe me; what do we do from there? I don't want to go to therapy! That would make me feel like I'm nuts. Plus, my anxiety attacks have gotten worse and more frequent. I'm really, really scared and I haven't told any of my friends that I think there's something psychologically wrong with me. I'm afraid of how they'll react. They probably will think I'm kidding. Or think I'm a freak. I just don't know what to do. I'm so scared. I'm always paranoid, anxious, nervous, fidgety, everything. I'm normally lost in my own world. People just think I'm really imaginitive. I seriously don't know what to do, I'm so scared.