Marry Me
Sequel to Want Me
Chapter 7
I sat on the couch for a moment longer, tears falling from my eyes. What was I supposed to do now? I was pregnant with a baby that Blane did not love, could not love. How could this be?
How could Blane love Hayden so much, but hate this new, unborn child? I already loved it too much to give it up. Maybe it was a mother thing. Well, whatever it was, I loved it regardless.
I stood up and headed for the stairs. I didn't know what I was going to say to him, but I had to say something.
I climbed the stairs, going over possible things to say in my head. I wiped my eyes one last time before opening the bedroom door and walking in.
Blane was laying on the bed, looking at the ceiling. He sat up once I walked in the room.
"Listen, Heidi-"
"Wait." I cut him off, raising my hand to stop him. "I have something I want to say." I walked over and stood in front of him. He looked up at me.
"Blane, I am pregnant. I am having a baby, whether you like it or not. Yes, I understand we are only 19, and have the rest of our lives ahead of us. But it's too late, I'm pregnant. If you didn't want a baby, you should have covered up the soldier!" My voice grew louder as I went on.
I could hear Jessica and Whitney's footsteps as they walked up the stairs to listen in on our conversation. I didn't care, I was going to say what needed to be said.
"Blane, being mad is not an option. You can either be happy, or-" I hesitated, afraid to say the next painful set of words. "Or, you can leave, now." I was surprised at how powerful the words came out.
My heart stopped as Blane stood up and walked over to the door. He's leaving, I thought to myself, he's not coming back this time.
My breathing increased as I thought about him leaving me again. It was hard enough to look at Hayden, but now that I was pregnant again, it would be hard to look at myself.
He opened the door and peeked out. I could see Jessica and Whitney back away.
"Do you mind?" He said, looking at them. "This is personal." He shut the door and walked back over to me.
My heart began to beat again as I realized he wasn't leaving.
"Heidi, I'm not going to leave you." He said, looking into my eyes. "That's my baby, and I'm sure I will love it. But I can't right now. I have to get my thoughts in order. I have to think for a while. I cant just immediately love it like you do."
I didn't understand. "But you loved Hayden as soon as you found out." He looked down at his feet.
"I lied." He muttered, looking up at me, waiting for my reaction. I didn't say anything. "I didn't love her. I despised her." He sighed, feeling horrible. "I didn't want someone else to take you away from me. I wanted it to be just us, and no one else. But once I held Hayden, I couldn't help but love her so much. At that moment, you both became my everything."
I listened, not saying a word. How could Blane not tell me this before? I would like to think I would have understood.
"Heidi, I don't know if I can handle another baby." He continued. He took my face in his hands and looked deep into my eyes. "But no matter what happens, I will be here with you all the way." He kissed me gently on the lips.
It wasn't exactly what I wanted to hear, but It was good enough. I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him with more passion.
At that moment, everything was going to be okay. Being in Blane's arms took all my troubles away. For now.