Why dont you understand that I will not change who I am?♥I know alot of you have gone through so much, and youre still so young. And others are still going through hard times but i just wanted to let you guys know something that ive learned through the crap that ive been through. I get it that everyone’s story is different, but i know the feeling that you get when you break down, how it feels to be at school with a smile on and laugh at everyones jokes, and just shug off the comments that people say about you untill you get home and you break. Sometimes its hard to make it to your room, and answer your mom’s questions about how your day was or how that math test was. Then you get to your room, lock the door, turn on some music, curl up in your bed and cry. And sometimes you just lay there untill dinner time where you would go down to the table and eat as little as you could without raising suspision from your parents. saying “oh i had a big lunch” or “im just not that hungry” and you cant escape yourself. you hate the way you look, you hate the way you talk, you hate your weight, you hate the scars on your wrist or on your leg or on your shoulder, you wish you didnt exist. but at the same time, you wish you had friends, you wish you went out more, you wish you were smart and you wish you were althetic. It just seems like youre nothing and kids that don’t deserve it have it all somehow. but guess what. YOU’RE GOOD ENOUGH.Don’t change yourself to try to be normal. Thats stupid because it wont work. Normal people are boring and guess what, if you do end up “fitting in” the only friends you are going to make will only like the fake you. and they will be fake friends, and when you really need them they wont be there for you. So what you need to do is smile. Smile and laugh because youre beautiful the way you are and you dont need to change yourself for people to realize it. Youre worth so much to so many people and it might not seem like it, but trust me you are. so please, be you beacause you are beautiful.
It gets better babe, I promise.
HighTaco posted a quote
February 2, 2014 9:30pm UTC
Honestly, people are really freaking sick. Especially with what they find 'funny' or 'harmless'. I thought we'd have little lesson here. Cutting / self - harm? It's not funny nor will it ever be funny. It's a serious thing and people struggle on a daily basis with it. Harmless is not a freaking word to describe what it is or what a joke about it is. It's not funny or cute. It can sometimes be triggering to people, do you know what that means? It means that it could actually cause someone to harm themselves and that's the last thing that I ever want. Because, the people who struggle with it? They're so amazing and so strong and I know that they can do whatever they put their minds to. Including, healing and recovering and getting better. Will it be hard? Yes but, I know that they can do it. Because, they are strong and beautiful and amazing and wonderful. And, words can't not even begin to describe these people. They've been through so much and yet, they've got the strength to keep going. To get up every morning and keep going. As you can probably tell, i'm p/ssed off right now. Because, people think it's funny to crack jokes about cutting. It's not funny and it will never be and just because someone harms themselves doesn't make them 'emo' - h/ll, emo isn't even the word to describe a person. Emo is a word to describe a style of rock music. So, can you all please think before you post or open your mouth again? It'd be best for everyone.
HighTaco posted a quote
September 24, 2013 5:07pm UTC
I love you. But you dont feel the same I wish we we're together But that will never happen. You're on my mind day & night You make me smile when im sad You always think positive When I see You it brightens up my day But we're just friends. To be your girlfriend, would be a dream come true And probably will only be friends. I wish you felt the same about me But that wouldn't happen ever. If I could pick 1 person to spend my life with, It would be you. I never want to lose you. You've been there for me when I needed you the most. I know I'll never be your #1.. You'll forget me soon. I'm positive.