Beauty from Pain
C h a p t e r 4
I woke up in the nurses office. Nurse Robose was on the phone with my mom I think, and JD was at the side of my bed, holding my hand. It looked like he had cried. Hard. I had only opened my eyes lightly, and didn't want to wake up and face reality yet. I twitched my fingers ever so slightly, and JD's head flew up. His crystal clear blue eyes locked on mine, and he began to tear up and sob. I had never seen a boy like him sob like that. I opened my eyes fully, and realized I had a searing pain in my ankle. I looked down to see it was all swollen and blotchly, 3 times the size of a normal ankle. I gasped, but it was too quiet for anyone to hear. I guess I lost my voice, or I'm losing it at the moment. There was a slight silence, but Nurse R. spoke soon, ending it's soothing yet frightening weight, lightening the room, but adding a new tension. "JD, honey, if you keep crying, I'm going to have to kick you out. You're getting a little over emotional, don't you think?" Nurse Robose said. "Over..over emotional?! OVER EMOTIONAL?!" JD began yelling at her. "IT'S MY FAULT! IT'S MY FAULT SHE'S IN HERE!! I'll be lucky if she ever talks to me again! I love her!" he began crying again. "Emi..Emi I love you...that part was true. Since I met you...in 7th grade...I knew I loved you. We're..we're in 10th grade now, and Emi..Emi, I still love you," he said almost inaudibly. I barely heard it. "JD," Nurse Robose started. "I think it's time you leave. Emi's mother will be here soon. She needs x-rays of her ankle," she finished softly. "No.." I tried to say, but it came out as nothing more than a raspy whisper. "NO!" I tried again, this time more forcefully. It was at least loud enough to hear this time. "Honey, he needs to leave," Nurse R. said sweetly. "I want him here with me..I'm not going anywhere without him," I said at finally a normal voice. Nurse R. puckered her lips, and opened her mouth to protest, but decided not to. "If he cries anymore he's leaving," she said, then turned around and stalked out into the hall. To wait for my mom I supppose. "Emi..I'm sorry. I-" JD began. "Save it, I don't care. I just need my best friend with me, and she's not here. You're the only one I can talk to now. That's the only reason you're here because you're right, after today, I probably won't ever talk to you again. I just don't want to be alone," I said coldly. With that, I turned to my side with my back facing him so he wouldn't see me cry. He came back to the bedside and sat on the edge, rubbing my back. I was too hurt and confused to fight back, so I let him comfort me until I fell asleep again.
After Emi's speech, which hurt enough, I rubbed her back, thinking about how much I had hurt her. I knew how insecure she was, how fragile, and she trusted me. I will never forgive myself. Soon, she fell asleep, and pushed the hair from her face and tucked it behind her ear. Her hair was so soft, and her skin too. I stroked her cheek, wondering what was taking her mom so long. Slowly, gently, I bent down and kissed her cheek. The same fireworks from our kiss earlier began in my stomach, and I held her small, fragile hand in both of mine. I would make this up to her. I know that I would never make it even, but I'll do my best to make it up to her. I sat in silence, her breathing the only sound in the office, for God know's how long, just thinking on how much I hated myself for this. After what felt like an eternity, I kissed her forehead, then walked out to see if her mom was here.
Chapter song: Breathe Me-Sia*
^ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SFGvmrJ5rjM ^
It's getting a little difficult to find a song I like for the chapter song so that may stop..but anyway, thanks for the faves and comments guys<3 I appreciate it! any suggestions or ideas for what happens next? comment! ;*
By the way, this is a really good song, so I would listen to the whole thing if I were you! At least, I like this song so yeah!