thi s is my secret profile. All my secrets,
all my fear, everything about me is on here.
But you'll never know who i am. I want people
to know the real me but not who i am. i
can be me behind this screen without fear.
All my quotes are in black&white, plan&simple.
The quotes hold what I feel, and they dont need
to be sugar coated because, believe me, what I
feel is anything but nice. I write how i feel, &
that will never change. I am who I am, and I
feel how I feel. Maybe by reading these quotes
you'll truly learn who I am, you don't need a
picture or name to know who I am. So here I am.
Your gone; I blocked you out of my life completely, theres no way for you to get ahold of me. i know its for the best, but it hurts having you detached from my life. But you chose this, you were the one that gave up, you didnt want 'us' anymore, So maybe having you gone is better than having you here, because i know you will always look back and blame yourself, because its all your fault this time, i tried and you gave up, so you Can take the blame.
Fine; ignore my texts, ignore my calls, delete me off facebook, block my number and make sure you avoid me at all cost. Cut all contact with me. Fine. i dont care. Why? Because you can do all these things, you can get me out of your life but you cant get me out of your mind. Have fun forgetting me, have fun getting over me and most of all have fun moving on. I know ill always be in the back of Your mind.
Save Me; Save me from this pain, this endless nightmare. Save me from the tears and the heartbreak you caused. Save me from all the sleepless nights and the skipped meals. Save me from the wait by the phone, and the painful memories. Save me from the days that go by and i think of you, just save me. For the last time. Do this for me, come back and resuce me from this hell. I miss you and I need you. So please. Save me from myself before i go crazy. Because I cant Handle this pain anymore.
Why? Why do I keep thinking your coming back this time, i know your not. I'm sitting here, day by day, waiting for you to text me, call me, stop by my house and tell me you still want me. Tell me you never stopped. I cry myself to sleep every night, with the tiny bit of hope that i'll wake up and this was all just a dream. But I need to stop. I need to stop hoping, and wishing and dreaming. Because you chose this time to leave, to end it. And I have to get it through my mind that your just not coming back this time, and no matter what I do. Its over. And thats how it will stay. This time I know its the end, your not coming back. & that kills me.
That's it; I gave you the choice and you decided for this to be over, but just remember all the nights we shard, all the tears you caused. The feeling you had when we kissed, the way I laid in your arms. Remember the good times and the bad. Remember all the fights and make ups, all the hours we spent on the phone, remember all the kisses and hugs. Remember that you just gave that all up. And remember that its over for good. Im not going to hurt you anymore, im going to respect your choice and move on, i wont try and talk to you, i wont try and make you mad, im just going to go on pretending I'm fine. I'm doing this for you.
There's no going back; Not this time. I'm done with the fighting, crying, praying, and sleepless nights. I'm done with the worrying and acting like nothings wrong. I'm done waiting around for something that will probably never happen. I'm done trying. Whats the point anymore? Its not even worth it. I don't want to get to the point where I start to hate you, and at this point I'm getting there. So This is my final goodbye.
My eyes sting; as the tears falll one by one. Every thought I ever had about you rushes through my head. I wonder why I ever let myself fall after telling myself not to. How could I? How could I trust you or anyone for that matter. I knew you'd end up like everyone else. Nothing was right, but I conviced myself everything was perfect. You changed, everything we had faded. Now that I look back, the memories were the only thing keeping me from letting go. When I remembered them, I didn't want to let go because I didn't want to let go of you. But its not you anymore. You changed and I just dont want to be with this new person. So this time Im leaving without a word, theres no goodbyes. I just cant, because I know if I tell you goodbye, it'll end up with us talking about missing eachother and ill backout. I just want you to know, ill miss you more than you will ever know. And I never wanted it to end like this. But it did.
I'm proud; Of who I am today, I'm proud of everything I've been through. I'm definitely proud that I've made it through so many problems and I've overcome my fears. But I know If my first grade self looked at me today, they wouldn't recognize their self. They'd be disappointed of what I've done, how I've dealt with things and that i ended up like this today. But lives about changing. And I did what I had to do. I'm sorry my first grade self for letting you down, but just remember; It's still me somewhere in there.
Everything; I miss everything. I miss the way you moved the hair out of my face, the way you always held my hand no matter what. I miss the way your voice got when your sad, or tired. I miss how your eyes were the lightest of blues. I miss how you used to call me every night, how you always were so tired. I miss skyping for hours, I miss the way your arms fit around me. I miss the way you always made time for me. I miss how youd never go to bed knowing Im mad at you. I miss our deep conversations. I miss you holding me and looking into my eyes. I miss you holding me while i cried. I miss the way everything seemed so right. But everythings changed now. You've changed. And theres just nothing I can do Anymore.
I hope your happy; You've lost every ounce of trust I had in you, you lost the love I had for you and for us. You lost me, you lost everything we had, i hope every memory haunts you and you wish for a second chance. I hope you feel the pain I feel. I hope you regret everything. I hope you miss me and I hope you cant even look at another girl without thinking of me. But what I want most is for these words to be true, because honestly, all I want is for you to be happy, pain free and live a happy life. Because I love you, and I wish you the best.
I hate this feeling; where all you want to do is curl up in a ball and cry. Where theres just nothing left to fight for and nothing seems worth it anymore. That feeling of complete lose, and where you know you've hit rock bottom. The feeling of pain and where all you want is to be dead and not feel this. The horrible feeling in your gut when you know theres no happiness whatsoever. The feeling that can't get any worse.
It's a lie; All the smiling, laughing, happiness and jokes. When anyone asks if I'm ok I lie and say yes. I wish I wasn't so good at lying sometimes. I just want someone to come up to me and hug me and tell me they care. Because I feel alone, And I'm forgetting how to feel. I've become this cold hearted ice queen, and I wish someone could help me, make me believe in love again. But why would anyone care?
I can't do this; I can't pretend I'm ok anymore; because I'm not. I can't keep smiling, I can't keep laughing, I barely can keep moving. I just want to lay in bed and avoid everyone and everything. I don't want to have to keep pretending. Its the hardest thing to do. I need someone to care and try to help. Is that so hard to understand?