I want a cute relationship. No, it doesn't have to be perfect. I just want someone like me, someone I don't have to impress. I don't want to feel the need to try to make him happy. I want to go on walks in the park, lay under the stars, give him surprise kisses and hug him and never let go. I want a relationship where we can wrestle and let each other win. A relationship where we can play with little kids and act like parents, where he can push me on the swing and I can push him down the slide. I want a relationship where I can go out looking normal, not having to dress up, and still feel beautiful around him. I want a relationship where I don't care what others think, I don't want "I love you more" fights, knowing there is love there is enough. But most of all, I just want someone to call mine, baby, babe, boo thang. Who wants a relationship like my dream one?
Every time I talk, I just hear in my head: it's your fault. your stupid. stop crying. your dumb. your not worth it. your overreacting. your a crybaby. you shouldn't care. get over it. your not good enough. you don't have what she does. you are not better. you are not okay. you are stronger. you can get over this. you are okay. you make yourself sad. you can be happy. you choose not to be. you suck. you this, you that. <l3. why is this worth living for? </3
So for this Valentine's day, I'm not going to have a Valentine. I'm not going to have a special kiss. I'm not going to have anything for myself. This Valentine's day, I'm going to a cancer hospital for children. & I'm bringing bears. & I'm giving them to the children that don't get to celebrate Valentine's day the same way we do. The one's that don't go to school and get a valentine from each of their classmates. The one's that miss out. I really don't care anymore if I don't have a Valentine, I just want to make this day special for someone else. & that's all I want so that I can feel proud of myself, and feel proud of the children fighting for their lives to stay strong and fight cancer. So next time you are thinking about being lonely for Valentine's day, think of the people fighting for their lives, and realize that you have it good and you don't need a boy or girl that doesn't need you. - Jhansi. nmf btw sorry.
I thought I'd share this with you all. So PLEASE READ.♥ Okay, I was on Tumblr and I saw this picture about a Cancer patient (a little girl) & I was on Facebook & I see all these statuses about Valentine's Day. & I thought of something. My friend & I are planning on buying a big bear for a cancer patient (boy or girl, maybe both) for Feb.14♥. We want to make this special for that little boy/girl. ...Guess what? I'm gonna be single, But I'm not crying. But really I am, I'm crying because little boys and girls are dying at this moment cause of cancer, & I will do whatever to make that little child smile. I want to buy a bear, buy a card, buy whatever to make a little child smile for me. & I will cry. Hard.♥ Fave if you read this♥ &Comment you think it's a good idea.
i just want you to know... i really don't know what to say, cause most of you won't read this. and if you did, please tell me. okay. well i'm jhansi. john-see is how you say my name. i'm indian and german, i have one best friend. her name is iris (xo_smileyamorr_xo). my witty best friend is iloveyaahx3, she's like my little sister. i'm in ninth grade, it sucks. haha, whoever told you high school is better than middle school is wrong. once you get to high school, you'd wish you were a little kid again. i try and keep my grades up. i'm like a boy-repeller, too ugly for boys. oh well. ha, i have many "friends", but few that i trust. i don't respect people who don't respect me. i don't have a good relationship with my family. i'm addicted to my facebook, witty, tumblr and computer. i used to read before i found facebook. i like texting interesting people, & boys. lol. um, i've dated on guy in my life, i regret it. o.O oh well, people make mistakes. and well um i dunno i consider myself more of a kid compared to most 15 year olds in my city. i don't party, unless invited. i don't drink or smoke, and i like to have fun sober. k cool. & pretty much i love the disney character mulan. i love eating food and taking pictures of myself. i love compliments even though i usually don't believe them. i like long hugs and meaningful talks. i'm a good advice giver, although i never talk my own. i'm sorry, i'm complicated. think you can keep up with me? please comment or fave ;*