EricaxImmortal posted a quote
December 26, 2011 9:32am UTC
Truth Is~20; ~I can't listen to the song Hate Me by Blue October anymore...I break down everytime. My ex and I just broke up recently so I can be with the guy that my parents like and do what makes my life "better" and easier. He basically said that he didn't deserve to be treated the way I had when debating whether to keep him around or not. He's right. "Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you" I hope more than anything that he learns to hate me and that anything bad he's feeling is soon gone<3~
EricaxImmortal posted a quote
December 23, 2011 1:30am UTC
I'm wearing a very beautiful diamond necklace. My ex got me this for christmas.I'm also now in possession of a cute dolphin pillow pet. My boyfriend got it for me.Both gifts are really nice actually, despite difference in value, ex told me that money was no object when it came to me and my boyfriend remembered that on our first date we had a whole big deal with pillow pets.I must say I am rather disappointed though...My mother is throwing a large fit about my ex being better for me. In reality maybe she's probably right...he would buy me that world if he could and I do care about him, but what she's using as a down side to my current boyfriend is that he's depressed and has a horrid life at home. I just don't feel like that's his fault...and I thought that if you truly loved something you didn't give up or walk away from it just because things are kind of difficult. I want to share my disappointment with her...but I just don't know how.
EricaxImmortal posted a quote
December 21, 2011 11:40pm UTC
"I think im going to fall in love with another girl =/, sometime soon, ill still love u, but ill love her too, i know i know its horrible, but before u flip, she will be calling you mommy(:" ~I really can't lie...that may have made my year...~ ♥
EricaxImmortal posted a quote
December 20, 2011 12:51pm UTC
Truth Is~19; ~My parents think my boyfriend is pretty well worthlesss. What they don't know is that when I'm having the worst time dealing with everything...he's the one that stops me from showing weakness. I think about him and I realize I need to be strong...if for no other reason then to see him smile. I know depression is hard enough without worrying about which way your girlfriend's gonna slit her wrists today. I wish I could show my parents how much he does for me, how much hes worth, and how much I need him without coming off as depressed~
EricaxImmortal posted a quote
December 6, 2011 8:30pm UTC
Truth Is~16; ~I hold back and put on a smile. I stopped wearing all black and tried to change the imagine I put off to happy. I know he needs light around him so I try my best to be the small bit of light in his life...even though I'm not feeling up to it. Practically every day I'm ready to cry and all I do is tell myself he needs me, put on a smile, suck it up and take every chance I can to hug him as if I will never see him again. Even though he doesn't know what goes on anymore...it still provides some sort of comfort...for both fo us I hope.~
EricaxImmortal posted a quote
November 20, 2011 12:10am UTC
Truth Is~14; ~I want her to hit me. Not because I like fighting...not because I could win...but because I would have the oppertunity to punch her in the face and claim it was "self-defense. One time is all I need the rest of the time I'd love to have her beat the snot out of me pointlessly.~
EricaxImmortal posted a quote
November 20, 2011 12:06am UTC
Truth Is~13; ~She took my place and maybe that'd be okay, if I wasn't still sitting here trying to make you happy, trying to listen to you, trying to be there...maybe if you had told me i wasn't "doing my job" and needed someone else...so I could just stop trying. My efforts are wasted~
EricaxImmortal posted a quote
November 19, 2011 6:38pm UTC
Truth Is~12; ~My boyfriend is really attracted to "scene/emo" girls. I get overly jealous when he talks to his friends, even if I'm with him, that could be put into that group even though I know I'm the only one he's truly bothered about having. :/~
EricaxImmortal posted a quote
November 18, 2011 4:52pm UTC
Truth Is~11; ~It upsets me that my mother can't understand my relationship. I know all teenagers say their parents don't "understand" but I honestly don't think she does. She complains that we don't spend enough time together and maybe that's true. Maybe I should be with someone who isn't taking depression meds, maybe someone who can smile and can handle a full day of school. Maybe I should be in a totally different relationship, but I can't be. The guy I fell in love with at least a year ago was happy...he did smile. Now he doesn't but he's getting help and things will be better when his beautiful smile stays on his face, but until then...what kind of person would walk out just because things are bad? Like the saying goes if I don't want him at his worst then I don't deserve him at his best. I wish she could understand that theory properly.~
EricaxImmortal posted a quote
November 14, 2011 11:11pm UTC
Truth Is~10; ~I've decided if things don't work out well with my current boyfriend that I'm just going to stop dating completely. Maybe I'd date an ex that I leave hanging, but no one new. Watching the pain, all for show or not, that I unintentionally put people through is becoming too much to bare.~