This is my way of finally being able to say goodbye , many thoughts and feelings have been leading up to the moment when i could say i understand why you are gone , and it is to give us hope , and send us knowledge of what we will have , an eternity full of happiness, free of pain , and full of laughter and good moments with the people with love for all of eternity , and i am also saying i love you and thank you fro existing in such a powerful way . You were and still are my favorite person in the entire universe , and you are still here although not in the way i am but in a way more powerful and meaningful .... You are an ANGEL , the best type of protection , you always will be my life , my soul , and the reason i breath .. to make you proud is so important and i have let you down so i am working on fixing my mistakes so one day i will share with you and the entire family the eternal happiness we all deserve I wish you could meet maryanna chelsea samantha and sawyer they are wonderful , and i wish you were here to keep everyone together , because slowly we are all drifting apart ,\.. I love and miss you please continue to watch over us all