& Don't you ever wonder
what he thinks when he looks at you?
5 months later after the break up,
still not even close to what you two
used to be. You wonder how much does
he think about you. If at all any.
Sometimes when you look at him, all
you see is the memories you once
shared. All the laughs, the hugs,
the kisses, the smiles, and all the
moments when people never got what
you were saying when you were sharing
an inside joke. But other times when
you look at him, all you see is totally
messed up twisted confusion right in
front of your eyes. You wonder how did it end up like this?
Where did it start to go bad? One moment
he is your whole life, the next moment you
know you and him aren't together anymore.
Therefore, leads to heartache, breakdowns,
tears, fights, things that will never be settled
and will remain mysteries.And today you
are trying to move you guys forward just to
at least get to the friend zone again. But
once you try you end up at dead end. A dead
end that leads to nowhere. You keep fighting
and trying to break through, just to find
another path to go down. Just when you think
theres hope, it gets crushed down again. You keep
trying, only to find failure. The question that
means the most isn't how much he thinks about you,
its about if he cares. If he cares how much you have
to go through and how much he apprecites it,
if he even gives a damn.
How much l o v e he has for you, not hate.