I know no one will read this, I just need to vent, get it out, feel like someone's listening.
Alright, so, I'm at my Aunt and Uncle's house with my Dad, sister, and two cousins. My cousin and I had gone outside to see what everyone was up to and my Uncle was out there with my one cousin, sister, and his girlfriend, my aunt. So I came out and saw my one cousin was wearing a bikini and jokingly said "that's very revealing" IN A JOKINGLY WAY. So my aunt goes and says "Don't listen to her, she's just jealous of you since she can't wear it." I didn't even know what to say, it felt like I was slapped in the face. Yes, I know I'm not as skinny as her and I'm a bit overweight, but still, when you said it like that it made me feel like a whale. So, yes, I am jealous, but you didn't have to go and say it like that, make me feel all awkward and fat. It's not my fault that I'm not skinny like her, well, partially it is, but whatever. She doesn't know that I've tried dieting before and how hard it is, and how you don't want to feel awkward around your friends because you won't eat any junk food so you have to sit there and watch them eat it. She doesn't realized how self concious society makes me feel. So now, I feel like crap, like I need to stop eating because I'm not skinny enough, like I don't have the right body.
Like I said, you don't have to read this, it's just a vent. But if you do read this, I love you.